Lurin's POV

I come back home, oh well BTS' home after spending three days outside. I'm so beat and tired that the only thing I want is a warm shower to relief my aching muscle. I have to clean up my cuts as well, don't want them to get nasty infection cause if it does, then it'll be getting in the way of me trying to protect them. Oh well, I'm too lazy so forget it.

After my shower, I use my feet, heading to the kitchen cause my stomach's mad for not being filled for three days already. If the growl from my stomach isn't the sign of it being angry, I don't know what is.

(Patting my belly) "Sorry I didn't eat. I was so busy beating people to even notice. Wait while I prepare some food.."

I go through the fridge and take out the ingredients that I can use to make Crispy Parmesan Crusted Chicken. It's easy, fast and most of all, delicious!

I prepare the chicken and pour the grated parmesan on a rectangular flat plate and leave it on the kitchen counter. My light step go to the sink and wash an egg before I break it into a bowl and mix it with a tablespoon of garlic, a pinch of salt and pepper. I put on a kitchen glove before I grab the chicken and dunk it into the egg wash(?). I go through the cabinet to find the tongs but can't find it only to facepalm as I see it hanging at the wall near the stove. After a quick chicken-swim inside the egg, I move it to the plate with Parmesan in it and cover the whole chicken surface. I grab the butter from the fridge and let it melt in the pan that I had heated before coating the chicken. After all of the butter melted, I drizzle some olive oil and wait for the right temperature before I let the chicken have a bath inside the hot frying pan. Cook until each side of the chicken turn brown and after that, they're all ready to be served! I'm so hungry I can devour a cow! I set it on a plate just enough for one serving and the rest of the dish on a big dish plate. Oh well, I can't just cook for myself, duhhh..

Humming to my very own melody, I make my way to the living room, turn on the television and sit down to eat. Gee, I forgot to take some water so I get back up and go to the kitchen to fetch some apple juice Jin bought before. How do I know? I keep an eye on them even though I'm away.

I'm trying my best (I'm already on my toes if you don't get what I mean) to get a cup from the high cabinet, only to fail miserably. Curse my shortness !

" Sweetheart? "

In the middle of trying again, I heard someone's voice so I turn around and shocked expression get into my range of vision making me raise my eyebrows in confusion.

"Namjoon? What are you doing here? I mean, yeah this is your house but aren't you supposed to be at the company with the boys?"

"What happened to you? "

"I'm trying to get a cup for my apple juice if it's still not obvious. "

Jungkook ignore what I've said and come to inspect my body and something clicked in my head. I just grunt in annoyance at my own stupidity for coming home all bruised and full of cuts.





" Angel, where have you been? What is all of this? Where did you get it? Tell me! Imma beat that little constipated head for doing this to you! "

" Can you shut up? Stop shouting! I hate it! "

" I'm sorry. "

I see the hurt in his eyes and Heaven knows how I wanna drop the act then just hug him tight but I can't do that. I won't. I need to be strong to get them out of my messed up life. They don't deserve things that are directed to me. No need more to say, he doesn't even stop on inspecting my body. Why do I have to wear tank top(?) and shorts today out of any other days?

I turn my back from him and get back to the poor abandoned opened cabinet. I try reaching for it but this time I manage to get it, oh I'm so happy! With the help of Seokjin of course, what are you expecting? Cut the crap, let's get the juice and eat in peace. That don't stop them from constantly shooting me with questions. I walk to the living room with my drink as I listen to whatever the boys talking about.

" Princess, can you tell me where you went this pass few days?

" That's confidential. Ask no more. "(Eating without a worry)

(Flustered) " What are you doing?"

" The answer to that question will be revealed from the God given thing that we call eyes. "

" Lurin, don't make us mad, please. We were so worried when Jungkook-ie said you were gone. We asked some simple questions, is it that hard to answer properly? "

Jimin doesn't really get mad at me, now I'm sad. Put that aside, my feelings ain't important.

" I don't kiss . So if you're mad at me, stay mad. "

" Lurin, you don't think first before you talk, huh? "(Slightly triggered)

" I guess? Just like you. Aren't you proud of me? I'm following your lead. "

"Xiao Lurin.... "

" Look, oh well.. Listen. I don't like to think before I speak. I like to be just as surprised as everyone else about what comes out of my mouth. Deal with it, can't do it? Like I care. "

My remarks put them into a condition that I can't really name. They're shocked, frustrated, worried and most of all, hurt. I hate the last one the most, I don't wanna hurt them. As cliché as it sound, it hurts me as well cause I share the same feelings being their soulmates and all.

 (gritted teeth)" I hate you. "

What was that? Take me awhile to digest what he said just now. Oh no! Do you hear the explosion? It's the sound of my heart, Suga pulled the trigger and shot me right at my heart. I'm... I'm dead, as a soul.

 (sigh, dull tone)" You hate me? I hate me too. You don't really have to inform me tho, I knew from the very start that you do. "

No, he did not break my heart but he shattered all the dreams I have for myself. Loving someone that does not love you back creates the deepest wound and more painful than get your fingertips banged by the door. I promised myself not to love someone for I can't afford to lose myself again but I'm way too far gone. I love him, the boys with all of my heart and I'd do anything for them, even if that means I get dragged to the pit of Hell.  Maybe, heart was made to break. I know my definition of love differ from your prospect, hurting someone you love purposely isn't what people call love but I'm only half human, guess I have the privilege to do so.

I somehow finished eating over the tense conversation, I get up from my seat while holding the dirty dishes and walk to the kitchen to clean them. Leaving them all behind, I need to get away from them. I know it's still not the time for me to break, I can bend much further. Before it all fall apart, it's better to immediately patch up. Be it with tape, glue or merely a bobby pin. In my peripheral view, I can see them leaving from the living room as well and go to their respective bedroom.

A let out a heavy sigh I didn't know I was holding. I can feel my heart clench so hard that it hurts, it hurts so bad I wanna just drop to the floor, crying and wailing all over, asking for the God to just take my life cause I'm tired of this all. I'm sick of it! Why's it's always me? Why do I have to suffer to this extent? It's just my silent scream, I can never ask for that no matter how tempting it is. I have a job to do, keep them safe and I'll sacrifice my life in a blink of an eye if that's necessary to make  it happen.

Squeaky clean dishes, I put them on the plate drainer (?) and make my way out of the kitchen. On my way to my room upstairs, J-Hope stop me and pulls me into his arm. Giving me a warm hug that I have to stop myself from letting out noise of contentment. I like it there, in his arm I can find peace. It's like his touch manage to rid all of the bad thought that hold me a hostage inside of my head.

" It doesn't matter if you don't wanna talk about what you did outside. It's okay if you prefer not to tell us where you get all of the bruises. " (Tighten his hug) " You come back, that's all that matter. "(Pulling away to give a peck on her forehead only to dive in for another hug)" It's okay now, you're fine and I missed you so bad. "

" Hobie, I just.. "

" Shhh, say no more. "(Pulls away but lay his hands on her tiny waist with gentle touch)" It doesn't matter. It's not that I don't care about you but I respect your decision. I still remember what Edward had remind me back in MdLavian High. "(Grinning)

" Eddie? What did he say? "

(giggles and kiss the corner of her eyes)" He said no matter what you do, every decision that you make, you've weighed all of the possible consequences. He said you have your own reason on why you do something questionable but it depends on you, to tell or not to. Maybe it's not the time where you can tell me and the others but I'm willing to wait. Because it's you that I'm dealing with. You've been through a lot and all that I can do for you is give all the support that you need. "

Tell me the reason why I'm trying hard to distance myself with this boy? Like, why do I have to do bad things to him when he treats me this way? Oh yeah, for his own safety, I remember now. I am lost in my thoughts but his soft fingers caressing my face and then my hair softly bring me back to reality.

" Sunshine, you know what? "

" I'm not gonna guess anything. "

(Smiles sweetly and hold her face with both of his hands)" My mom once told me, when someone really likes you, they will never hurt you. And if they do, you can see it in their eyes that it hurts them too. I don't have to explain what I meant from that, you know better. Babe, look at me. "

 (Brow raised)" Babe? "

" Don't like it? "(Pouts)

(flicks his forehead, earning a low 'owwie')" Didn't say that. "

" Hahaha. Okay, urm.. Don't take to heart. What Yoongi hyung said, I mean. "

" It doesn't matter. I'm going upstairs. You can eat the chicken on the dining table or go take some rest. Anything you want, I'm off. "

He won't let go that easily. He's not Hobie if he does.

"Anything? "(Smirking)" Can I cuddle and sleep with you? "

" Yeah, come on. Only if Suga loves me. "

" .... "

" Exactly. "

*

3rd POV

Little that the two know (Lurin and J-Hope) Suga,Namjoon and Jimin heard their conversation. The hug, kisses and comfort given from J-Hope to her makes them feel so bad. J-Hope clearly told them to try and understand her but they failed miserably. Always asking questions instead of letting her stay inside her comfort zone. Now Jimin feels bad for his tone earlier. He was mad, he admits that but he did that because he was worried but J-Hope? He gives her time to explain herself when she wants to instead of forcing an answer right then and there. As Lurin strides to her room, they get inside their own bedroom, hiding behind the door because they're ashamed and feels bad, upset. After they're sure that she's gone they come out of their room and bump into J-Hope who's heading to his room.

(saw Jimin about to go upstairs so he grabs his wrist)" If you wanna go and talk to her, you better not. I have a feeling it'll turn out bad cause I'm sure Lurin will spit fires with her words. Let her be for now, okay? "

" But I.. I just want to.. Okay, I won't.. "

J-Hope ruffles Jimin hair out of adoration because he listen to him well enough.

" Oh by the way, Lurin made some food and she said we can eat it. Namjoon-ie can you go ask the others if they want to eat? Yoongi-hyung, help me set the table, okay? "

He receives a nod from said boy and head to the kitchen along with Jimin who's still pouting. Suga is having none of it, he smack the younger's head which earn a low groan from him.

*

With all of the kit to clean the wound all prepared, Seokjin makes his way to his Princess's room. He's going to knock on the door but stop midway when he sees the sign on her door that says " Do not knock! "



" Huh? Then what do I have to do? Do I call her then? (Unsure) Lu.. Lurin? Lurin, can I come in? "

Lurin is starfish-ing on her bed, she looks at the door after hearing someone calls for her but doesn't bother answering. She can't recognize the voice that's muffled by the closed door. That person just called her Lurin so she can't distinguish which member of BTS. As a matter of fact, they call her with different pet names such as Princess for Jin, Sweetheart for RM, Sunshine for J-Hope, Darling for Jimin, Hot stuff for Taehyung and Angel for Jungkook. She keeps thinking if its Jimin cause he called her that earlier. With that in mind, she choose to keep quiet but forced to get up when she heard the person from behind the door saying "I'm coming inside. Be ready or shout if I'm not allowed to get in, alright? "

She's in an upright position on the bed as the said person come inside her room. She lets out a sighs as the person fills her view.

" It's just you, Seokjin. "

" Yeah, who are you expecting? "

(shrugs)" I wasn't expecting. I thought it was Jimin and if it's true, I'd throw him out of my room. If I can't chase him out through the door you get in, the window is wide open for me to rid him. "

" Jimin that kid, he felt bad for his tone earlier. Don't hate him okay? "

(under her breath)" Can't even if I want to. "(Sigh)

" What was that? "

" What's your deal coming and see me? "

" Lay down. I want to clean your cuts. According to Edward, you don't care about it at all. Wait here while I wash my hands. "

Jin comes back after washing his hand to avoid any infection when he touches her. He sits on her bed and scoots closer as soon as he grabs the antibiotics cream. He starts of with the cut on her face. The cut, it's across her face from the bridge of her nose to her fluffy little cheek. He's about to apply the antibiotics cream on it to keep it moisturize and prevent scarring but a hand stop him from doing so. He looks at her quizzically.

" What's that? "

" Antibiotics cream. Come on, let me put some. I don't want it to leave scars on your pretty face. "

" No! Don't! "

" What? Why? It's for your own good, Princess. By the way, I don't clean your wound with iodine because it might irritates your skin. "

(sarcastically) " And applying that cream won't? What type of antibiotics is that? "

" I don't know. It's not like I'd know about it even if I read what it is. Geez. Hurry up, come here. "

 (brushes his hands off of her face) " No, Seokjin! I'm allergic to bacitracin and neomycin. It might be in that antibiotics cream you're trying to apply on me. "

" What?! "

Seokjin's screeching, ear piercing voice alarmed the boys and they come running into her room to check on what's happening. Lurin who just recover from being  temporarily deaf huff in annoyance seeing the boys trespassing her room. She ignore their stares and grabs the cream from Seokjin's hand, throwing it inside the aid kit he brought in before lying on her bed again.

" You know Seokjin, instead of a nasty infection, my face could've get all swollen and red by your stupid action. I would've be like a rotten tomato. "

" I'm sorry. 😢 "

" What's wrong? What did you do Hyung? "

" I... I was about to apply antibiotics cream on her. Not knowing a-about her allergy. "

 (feeling tiny bit bad)" I get it you're trying to help me but asking first would be great. Now, do you have petroleum jelly? "

" Petroleum? Isn't that for cars? "

 (facepalms)" Goodness! Petroleum jelly! Like, Vaseline. "

" Vaseline work for cuts? "

" Yeah, Vaseline jelly work by creating a sealing barrier between cells in dry or damaged skin which locks in moisture and speeds up your skin's natural recovery process, helping it to heal from within. Its occlusive function allows it to protect dry skin, cracked skin, minor cuts, scraps, and burns. "(#Googled)

" Wow! Darling, how did you know that? "

 (shrugs) " I Googled it. "(Drifting to sleep, half awake) " Leave Jinnie with me. I don't want you guys here. "(Yawns)

" Ji-Jinnie?? "(Smiles unconsciously )

With heavy heart, the boys leave and let Jin does his work of treating her wound. On the other side, Jin starts applying vaseline on all of her wound and cover it with a gauze. He then grabs the bandage and rolls it around her arm, as for her face he takes a plaster and put in on with care while being cautious in case he hurts her. After he's done with it, he admires the sleeping ball of trouble with love in his eyes. Oh how much he loves her! Only if she knows. He leaves her and when he's downstairs, he gathers the boys for their practice.

*

As a warm up,  they sing Butterfly out of Jungkook and Jimin's request.

Don't think of anything
Don't say anything, not even a word
Just give me a smile

I still can't believe it
All of this seems like a dream
Don't try to disappear

Is it true is it true
You you
You're so beautiful, that I'm scared
Untrue untrue
You you you

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break
I'm scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn't happened
I'm scared scared scared I'll lose you

Butterfly like a butterfly
Just like a butterfly bu butterfly
Butterfly like a butterfly
Just like a butterfly bu butterfly

You're just like a butterfly
From afar, I steal glances; if we touch hands, will I lose you?
You shine in this pitch darkness that is the butterfly effect
Your light touches, I forget the reality at once

It's like a wind that gently me
It's like a dust that gently drifts along
You're there but for some reason, I can't reach you, stop
You, who's like a dream is a butterfly high to me

Untrue untrue
You you you

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break
I'm scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn't happened
I'm scared scared scared I'll lose you

The small pieces guttered down darkly
From my heart, a barren noise
I don't know if this is reality or a dream
My kafka on the seaside
Don't go to those woods over there
My heart is still shattering on you
(I just wanted to vaporize like this)
My love that is forever
It's all free for you baby

Will you stay by my side
Will you promise me
If I let go of your hand, you'll fly away and break
I'm scared scared scared of that

Will you stop time
If this moment passes
As though it hadn't happened
I'm scared scared scared I'll lose you

Butterfly like a butterfly
Just like a butterfly bu butterfly
Butterfly like a butterfly
Just like a butterfly bu butterfly

The tears keep falling, outspokenness of the heart reflected by the wave of emotions that are crashing on them. The moment they feel like breathing again only get crushed in a matter of seconds. Feel like they caught up in a maze of the uncertain world and they know that the ethereal girl who's sleeping in her own room right now is the person who hold the key to the certainty.

To: H.O.P.E
From: 내Sunshine
-tell the others that I want to have meeting tonight. If you don't wanna die in vain, you'd better listen.

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