"I'm home~" 

"Hey..." 

I rubbed my bleary eyes and stifled a yawn, watching the familiar silhouette at the corridor, changing out of his shoes into his comfortable pair of house slippers. He walked towards me and I smiled, opening my arms wide. 

"Come here, you idiot." 

His expression softened as he approached, coming into my arms as I could feel him inhaling deeply and letting out a sigh, acting like a little kid that just returned home and needed his mum's embrace. I gave a grin and his hair tenderly, but made no attempt to speak up. 

"I'm so sorry for missing out on your birthday," he broke away from the hug after awhile, smiling sheepishly. "I always miss out on special days don't I?" 

"It's okay. You were busy pleasing your JVIPs and earning for our future wedding, I know," I smiled, caressing his face.

"Oh? You're that sure that we'll be getting married?" I saw him raised his brows amusingly. 

"Humph! Is this how we're going to go down, Kwon Ji Yong? Araso!" I pursed my lips and tried to get up, leaving his hug. "I'll go find my fans to get married then!" 

"Araso araso. Look at you," he chuckled and the next moment, I was backhugged by him as we stood up, facing right at the balcony. 

Silence fell again. 

"Yeahs, who else can I get married to man? No one would want a loser like me already," he whispered mindlessly against my shoulder blade, tightening his hug around my waist. "Oh, and a drug addict..." 

I knew the news must have been bothering him. 

"How's TOP oppa handling the news?" I turned around, wrapping my arms around his neck. 

"I don't know..." He sighed, brows furrowed. "We weren't able to contact him. You know how hard it is to contact him, with him being in the army and all the news spreading like wild fire and the media right behind our asses." 

"Hey, he'll be fine," I comforted, smoothening the crease between his brows. "How are the other oppas and Seungri handling it?" 

"Pretty fine. I mean we trust TOP hyung and besides, we're more experienced now isn't it?" He smiled bitterly. 

"And how's my G boy handling then?" I raised my brows, playing with his ear lobes. 

"Not that good I guess?" He answered honestly, letting out a deep sigh. "You know TOP hyung and I, me and Young Bae, all the Big Bang members, I share different form of brotherhood. For TOP hyung, me and him have so much things in common; same liking for arts, same taste in music... and the list goes on and on... And right now, he's committing the same mistake that I'd done 6 years ago... I know how it feels, Yoong... It's like... It's like your world just crumble right in front of you and all the lights are off. You can't differentiate the day and night. Everything it's just... I don't know... It . Really ..."

I love how he poured out his thoughts to me so easily but at the same time, it pains me to see him being so worried and downcasted. I remained silent, holding his hands in mine as he continued. 

"At least I wasn't alone then. I had Bae, I had Dae, Ri, my family and... And then I have you..." He squeezed my hand and mustered a smile. "You may not know, but you were the speck of light amidst the darkness..." 

Yeahs, that fateful year. We started going out not long after his little confession on Strong Heart and just shortly after, all the mishaps started happening. We did broke up briefly after I found out that he was still in contact with Kiko but we met again when his case broke out. I couldn't ignore him and leave him in a lurch. I forgot about the quarrel we had about Kiko and focused only on helping him get back up on his feet. Eventually, he did but we didn't get back together and he spent a good two years trying to court me back. 

And you've the answer; he succeeded. 

"But TOP hyung... He... He has no one with him now! He's facing all these alone... And you know how sensitive this hyung is. He thinks a lot... But it's all towards negativity. I'm just afraid... I'm afraid he'd do something si..."

Then he lost it. 

"Hey..." I comforted, wiping away his tears. "That's why all the more, you have to be stronger! You may not be able to contact him, but you're out here, giving him moral support. All the other members