Jiyong POV

My schedule was so hectic I couldn't even practice with Dara for the show. She went ahead of me to visit TOPs' sister I will see her only during the concert. Since our relationship is secret as far as the fans are concerned, he had to condition himself and avoid being too close for the fans to notice.Even if in my heart I wanted for this moment to be the time for us to tell the fans about our hidden relationship. 

I didn't realize how nervous I was to be with her on stage until I started singing Missing You.She was wearing the dress I have asked my friends to sew for her, its red made of the same fabric I wore in one of my song numbers in this concert. When she came out the fans screamed, I was so surprised - she was so well accepted by the fans and when we walked towards each other the scream got louder and louder. It gave me the confidence to play with her on stage. As we walked towards each other I wondered how it would feel to walk towards her during our wedding and my heart fluttered. i couldn't help but look at her onscreen and how pretty she looked walking towards me. This is my woman no longer a girl but a very pretty woman and she is mine.

After the music stopped it took me several moments before I could speak. She was just so pretty I couldnt help but be jittery. 

"Hi" i said then I giggled - couldn't help it!

"Hi!" she smiled 

"Hey guys...this ... (my wife) you know...Dara."

She pointed at me. "GD"

She greeted her fans in Tagalog which meant good evening everyone. She taught me that much.

"Magandang gabi sa inyong lahat. Wassup Manila!" and the crowd shouted again.

"Ah...How've you been." I asked.

"I'm good."

"How are you?" I had to stop myself from saying baby I missed you so bad so it took several moments before I responded. 

"Hmmmm... (composing what to say I stuttered a bit) ... Ahmm like I'm good. I love it (you.)" I looked at her smiling. I knew she knew what meant. I had to face the audience or I will kiss her she looked so desirable at the moment.

"So this time for only like in Manila we have our special guest Dara. Thanks for coming. I hope you guys enjoy it and love it and anyway ... you guys love her.. too. So basically we got only one song.. it was...but ahhh... she wanted to sing more like the last time."

"But before that, you know GD, ahm I really wanted to thank you  for having me here tonight..."

"The pleasure is mine..." Anything for my queen.

"I really missed being on stage, I miss the Philippines, I miss the fans, I miss this mic..." I sort of knew where this was going so I turned around and couldn't help giggling. Gosh I am almost married to this woman and she still makes me feel like a school boy crushing hehehe...

"and I miss you.." the crowd went wild! i don't know if I was happy for her, for the fans or for us because she has never said anything affectionate to me in public before and all of a sudden here she was telling the crowd she missed me. I couldn't help but be dumbfounded. I was so lost for words I did not get the last word she uttered and I had to ask her what it was.

"Salamat," she said but I did not get it i was busy looking at her being utterly happy we are here now together. It never downed on me that this is how it will make me feel. I am so happy for this moment. She had to repeat to my ear several times before I was able to copy what she said.

"So ahhh.. ( I procesing my feelings but couldn't I felt like floating in the air performing with my girl)...like... ahmm...( I was quiet for 12 seconds I could not remember what I was supposed to say. I thought it only happens when we're together and now its happening in front of thousands of fans - gosh this is so embarassing. Jiyong take a hold of yourself for crying out loud!!! She was teasing me on the side as I tried to recall what I was supposed to say further freezing my brain.)

Ahhh... honestly like when was the first time we met? When I was young really like teens  something like that when I  met her...she's still my noona but you know like you know like..she's really like...don't you think she's really like so pretty huh?" I looked at her and I wanted to ask for permission to tell the fans that we were together then but she looked at me and asked - really? 

"I never said that but...I mean yeah...it like really kinda bestest thing you know...( for her to be mine. I said that as I looked at her and I really wanted at that point to tell the fans about us)... I'm  a guy yeah and its really like the bestest thing...(I had to take control she will not approve of this.) "Just joking...just kidding", just to kill the moment. 

"So we got a special gift for y'all and I hope you guys will enjoy...And I'm kinda excited too...this song like remind me...back in you know" she got nervous and immediately said goodbye...I wanted to say that it reminded me of the first time we were really in a relationship during the Hello time.

What can I do but say..."see you soon." (lame Jiyong so so lame).

As I started to Sing Hello I sort of like said that I have a girl right now then laughed at my own stupidity. I could not remember the lyrics as she stepped back into the stage...this is not working for me... I keep losing myself when she's here.Hello is the song I wrote for us. Not only the lyrics did I forget well the steps too !!! But I was so happy the fans were still screaming our names despite our mistakes.I also tend to touch her ever so often - can't help it!

When she stepped out of the stage again. I sort of missed her so when I was singing Who You I really expressed my feelings for my baby. After this I am sure the fans will assume she inspired me to write Who You - and they are right! I wrote it at the time that we drifted away from each other and the times when I was so arrogant that I kept looking down at her but that's not the case anymore. I love her so  much even now as I perform with her my heart overflows with affection for her.

Addicted to the feeling of happiness when siging with her I had to get her back on stage so during the break be