I can’t sleep at all. I can’t even relax. I am full of fear and very disturbed. I sat helplessly on my bed once more as I watched Andy sleeping on his crib located at the other corner of the room. He lost so much weight. I feel so guilty about it. As his guardian who became human for the sake of loving someone else, he suffered too as my appointment. Our wave lengths equated to each other and the parallelism of our state is so critical right now if Eric cannot come back on time – we can both die.

Minwoo and Junjin; they are the only elements keeping us safe from death right now. Their presence keeps us shielded from its vision. Hyesung stayed too to be our vital decoy as a living presence without him our room will be just a box of souls waiting to be reaped with two pretentious angels. It is nerve-wracking. All I can do is pray for the odds to be with us.

“I’m sorry. My emotions got the best of me a while ago. I didn’t mean to blame you for this. It is not your fault and – I know that it must have been very hard for you too. We can pass through this. Minwoo already told me how reliable Eric is, and with that it will be wise to believe in him.” Hyesung for the first time after ages of cold silence gave me a comforting smile. My best friend is back. My tears escaped my eyes like rushing water from a broken dam.

He wiped my tears like what he always did when I get misunderstandings with Dongwan. He hummed the same comforting melody to ease my heart and pat my back gradually as I calmed down. I miss us.