DECEMBER 3RD 2016

"Darling, come one. Give papa your hand. Come on".

Sung Gyu reach out his hand to grab the little precious hand. When he barely understand what his papa is rumbling about, he grab his papa by the finger and hold still. Sung gyu smile, could not contain his feeling on how cute his son is. 

"Shi woo ah! Look what uncle bought for you!"

Dong woo's voice loud and clear thru the living room.

Both dad and son turn their attention to uncle dong woo. 

"WOAH, hyung! Shi woo is responding to his name now! He knows his name is Shi woo!"

Dong woo comes near to the little boy, carrying him on his arms, showering him with kisses. 

"Pabo, of course! He is 4 months old now! And he follows his mom. He is totally smart. Totally like... his mom."

Sung gyu's voice tone down as he mention you.

The main door suddenly burst open as the rest of the boys arrive.

"KIMMMM SHI WOOOOO. YOU LITTLE PUFF BALL, COME HERE TO YOUR FAVOURITE UNCLE".

Woo Hyun go straight to Shi woo, holding him. Shi woo started crying, making the rest laugh and doubting that woo hyun is shi woo's favourite.

"Hyung, are you ready?"

Myung soo looks over to Sung gyu.

"HYUNG!"

Hoya shake sung gyu by the shoulder when the eldest didnt answer.

"Ye..yes yes! Hold on, just let me get something from the room. You all keep your eyes on shi woo."

"Yes hyung. Come on! Ye rin is waiting for us!" Sung Jong rush sung gyu.

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They took two seperate cars , on their way to see you. Dong woo drove one of the car, and beside him is Sung Yeol who is extremely quiet from just now. He either only plays with Shi Woo or just looking around. Hoya who sat on the back saw Dong woo signal from the rear view mirror.

"Sung yeol ah, you are not being yourself. We are going to see Ye Rin and you know she hates it when we have black faces on during family outing."

Hoya tap Sung Yeol on the shoulder making the younger one smile.

"Its not that hyung. Im just so happy that all of us is going to this outing."

Although both his hyung is not convince, they still smile along for the younger one.

"Hello yes?"

A call came in thru Hoya's phone. 

"Ah the one on the next traffic light? Okay."

Hoya put down the phone.

"Hyung, Myung soo ask to pull over on the next traffic light where the flower shop is." 

Dong Woo just nod, preparing to stop at the next traffic light.

"Sung Jong ah, you stay here with Shi woo."

Woo hyun look over to the back seat.

"Alright hyung. But can you please get me a rose for Ye Rin. She will be mad if i didnt get her one."

Woo hyun hum in response, following the rest to the flower shop. 

Sung gyu looks around the shop. He didnt know what to get for you. He bet you gets bored getting roses. 

"Sorry, besides roses what else is for a beautiful wife?"

Sung gyu ask the florist.

She smiles, getting up to get two type of flowers. Both in shades of purple.

She carefully put it together with a little ribbon tie up to hold the flowers together. 
 
"Here, Iris and Violet. Im sure she will love it."

"Is there any meaning to it, eomonni?"

Woo hyun ask.

"Yes, well, iris is believe to be a flower that leads someone to heaven. As the goddess iris says so. And violet.. it just means you are a modest person." 

She smiles as she pass the flowers to Sung Gyu.

The boys buys many differently flowers, in an attempt to impress you. They never change, do they?

The drive up to see you is not far. Probably around half an hour. Today is your anniversary with Sung Gyu. 3rd of December 2016. How time has fly. 

"Here we are. Cmon boys!"

Dong woo wails.

"Aish hyung. You are too noisy. You will ruin the surprise!"

Woo hyun chimes in.

The wind that blows was in their favour. They walk pass a couple of different room to get to see you.

"Shi woo ah, you must wish mama and papa a very happy anniversary okay? And give her this flowers."

Myung soo who is carrying shi woo, cooed to the little boy. Without understanding, he gives out a precious smile, as of knowing what his uncle is blabbering about. 

"Aigoooo. You smiled??? You understand dont you? You are happy to see your mama are you? "

Sung Jong softly carass shi woo's cheeks.

As they keep on walking, they saw you. There you are. They wonder if you are angry because they are especially late today.

"Hi ye rin!!!!!!! Its a cool day is it not? How are you? Sorry to keep you waiting. You know how long the boys took to get ready. But... i bought for you flowers. See. Can you see?"

Hoya spoke up.

"Yes ye rin. Sorry we are late. And i bought you choco pies and flowers too. Eat up the choco pies. "

Dong woo came up to you and gently place the choco pies.

But you wasnt talking back. You cant.

The boys  came forward to give you their flowers, leaving Sung Gyu alone to be with you.

Woo hyun carry Shi woo and ask the boys to wait outside the room .

"Cmon shi woo, papa needs time with mama. We will see each other later."

Sung Gyu stare at you blankly. 

"Choi Ye Rin. How are you? You look so beautiful today. Are you trying to catch my heart again?"

When there is no response, he lightly brush the cold wall infront of him. 

IN LOVING MEMORY OF A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL, CHOI YE RIN. "YOU WILL FOREVER BE IN OUR HEART". 18 AUGUST 1993 - 14 SEPTEMBER 2016.

He arrange the flowers and gifts the boys get you. He took out something from his blazer pocket, carefully placing it besides the many gifts. 

"Here you go, my princess. I hope you like the gift. You know im a boring person, i could not think of anything. Funny how when you are no longer.. around, all these ideas starts to pour out." 

He opens the small box , a ring, no diamond just a plain ring. 

"Hold on,princess. Dont judge too quick. There is your name engrave on it, Mrs Kim."

Sung gyu gave a small smile thinking of your possible reactions.

Its been 4 months since you left. But every pieces in him is still very much with you. You were his everything. He loves you. He needed you. And now he misses you everyday. 

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"Mrs Kim, just a few more pushes. You can do it."

Doctor Seo urge you on. You tried. But you were in extreme pain. 

"Patient's husband is on his way in!"

The nurse alerted.

Sung gyu barge into the delivery room, his hands were stop by the nurse to apply sanitizer. But his eyes were on you the whole time. Once the nurse finishing sanitizing him, he run to you, carassing your cheek saying hi and sorry he was late.

"Hey beautiful. Im here now. A few more pushes for me, yeah?"

That Sung gyu effect on you is strong. You thought you could not do it anymore. But there you are, pushing until you hear , "Baby is out. Baby is here. Towels! Towels! I need towels!" 

Doctor Seo comes to you, holding the baby.

"Hi mommy, can you please turn straight, the baby wants to introduce himself to you." 

Tears falls down your face as the warm existence touch your cold skin. He looks so precious. He looks so vulnerable. 

"Congratulation Mr and Mrs Kim. You have a healthy baby boy".

Dr Seo smile at Sung gyu.

Sung Gyu just stands there doing nothing. It took him a second to hear the soft cry of his son.

"Babe, come here. Dont you want to say hi to your baby?" You said.

He comes nearer, and finally lift the precious one in his arms. 

"Hi. Hi there. Oh, are you sleeping? Papa is here, can you see me? You definately looks like your mom. But i need you to open your eyes so i can see if you have my signature eyes."

Sung gyu giggle like a little kid talking to the new born.

"Honey, what shall we name him?" Sung gyu looks over to you.

"Mmmmm. Since i like Myung soo oppa character in My lovely girl, shall we name him Shi woo? He will grow up to be someone full of ambition, good looking and a lady killer.There is a little bit of Sung Yeol oppa character as well. "  You grin.

"Okay then. That sounds good to me. Hi Shi Woo. Kim Shi Woo."

Sung gyu place a soft kiss on his son's forehead.

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You dont know how long you were asleep for. When you wake up, your whole body aches. Your tummy hurts. You ran a high fever. You dont understand. You were feeling so much pain, it hurts. 

"Hey honey. You okay? You are sweating too much. Do you need the doctor?"

Sung gyu sit on your hospital bed, wiping your sweats. 

"No no. Im okay. Im just hot. But gyu.. i.. where is Shi woo?" 

"Shi woo is with the nurses. You need to rest."

"Can i see Shi Woo?" 

"I dont know honey. Let me ask."

You grab his hand as he turns, "Gyu.. its so painfu...l.. here" You could not finish your words when you cough. 

You look at gyu when you realize how terrified he look. 

"Honey you are coughing up blood. Hold on. Hold on. I will get the doctor. Dont move dont speak."

When he mention blood, that is when you tasted it in your mouth.

"Mr.Kim im afraid i have to bring Mrs.Kim to the operation theater now."

"Whats happening. Oh god. Tell me whats happening. Ye rin. Honey. You will be okay. You will be okay right?"

Tears fall on sung gyu's cheek and you mouthed "I will be okay, i love you" as the energy in you depleted.

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"Hi princess. There you are. I was worried sick."  You open your eyes to find Sung Gyu by your side, pushing your hair back. 

"Im sorry. Im really sorry gyu." 

"Hey its okay..."

"No its not. I know about my own condition. Why i keep fainting after all these years. Why.. am i like this. I know gyu. And you knew it too."

"Yes but its not serious. You always faint due to anemic. Thats all. Eat your iron tablet regularly and you will be okay."

"Gyu. Stop. Stop. I heard your conversation with Dr Seo. Im losing blood am i? Im .... dying am i? Its just not losing blood is it?"

"Nothing is happening to you. Nothing. You are fine. I will get Shi woo. Do you want to see Shi woo?"

"Gyu... babe.. stop, hug me. Hug me please. Come here."

He hug you tight , wailing as he goes on about how he is feeling terrible right now. You felt your heart crash. 

"You know i have to go gyu. You know i have to." 

"No. No. The doctors will do anything. Anything to save you. No."

"Can you do me a favour?"

"Dont ever blame Shi Woo for this. I gave birth to him, because i wanted to bear your child. You wanted that dont you? And dont blame yourself for this too. Because i gave birth to your child, despite knowing only one could be save. The baby or me. I choose Shi Woo before you came. Im sorry."

"But no one can replace you.."

"And no one can replace Shi woo too. We made him together. Because we love each other."

"Just hold on a little bit more for me. There is many more things i want to say to you."

"Sure. Hug me, hug me come here."

You sigh as your heart aches.

"I love you, gyu. I love you, Shi woo. Gosh boys, i love you both beyond death."

"Shhhh. Keep quiet honey. Rest."

Sung gyu never heard your voice again.

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"Im here to renew our wedding vow. Im sorry i didnt do it when you are here with me. Choi Ye Rin, will you do me the great honour to be my wife?" 

Sung Gyu place the ring on top of a piece of paper. 

"And here, the boys bring Shi woo to an art gallery and they did hand painting. Look at how tiny his hand is." Sung gyu chuckles.

He took a deep breath before telling you he is leaving. 

"I know you're somewhere out there, somewhere far away. I want you back.. I want you back.
My neighbours think im crazy, but they dont understand. You are all i have. All i have.
At night when the stars light up my room, i sit by myself.. talking to the moon..
Tryna get to you... In hopes you are on the other side, talking to me too or am i a fool? Who sits alone, talking to the moon."

Sung gyu sang.. When suddenly Sung yeol who was quiet the whole time, joined in.

"Im feeling like im famous, the talk of the town. They say i've gone mad. Yeah, i've gone mad. 
But they dont know what i know, cos when the sun goes down, someone's talking back. Yeah, they are talking back. 

At night when the stars light up my room, i sit by myself.. talking to the moon.... tryna get to you. 

In hopes you are on the other side talking to me too. Or am i a fool?who sits alone. Talking to the moon. 

Do you ever hear me calling?
Cause everynight im talking to the moon. Tryna get to you.. In hopes you on the other side, talking to me too. Or am i a fool? Who sits alone, talking to the moon....."

Silent.... both of them who sang together went silent. They dont know who should sing the last verse.

Sung yeol eyes is whimpering with tears. 

"We will sing the last verse together. Shall we? Shall we Shi woo ya? To tell mama we love her. Shall we?"

Woo hyun breaks the silence.

The boys witness everything with tears betraying them. 

"I KNOW YOU ARE SOMEWHERE OUT THERE... SOMEWHERE FAR AWAY...". 

Sung gyu looks down as he mouth to himself,
"I love you Choi Ye Rin. Thank you God. Please keep our angel safe". 

Shi woo cries break the silence. 

"Shi woo, do you want to say bye bye to mama? Tell her we will visit her again" Sung Jong cooed the boy.

Sung gyu took Shi woo from Sung jong as he pointed to your photo. 

"Lets say bye bye to mama." Sung gyu then tap Sung yeol shoulder, telling him they should go.

The boys bow to you one by one before leaving.

Sung yeol come near to you, unable to control his tears , "Thank you for the life you gave to Shi Woo. I hope all the angels up there is treating you nicely. Dont worry about Shi woo and Sung gyu hyung. We will take care of them until our last breath. I love you and i miss you, Ye rin. I will see you soon okay?" 

The car ride home is full of laughter as Shi woo makes his uncles laugh with his cute antics. They even stop at Dong Woo's family restaurant to have dinner.

"Shi woo definately is good looking like me!" Woo Hyun says.

"Nope. Like me" Hoya chips in.

"Both of you are wrong." Sung Yeol suddenly speak up.

"He will be as good looking and tall like me". He continued.

"Wae. What makes you think that?" Myung soo ask amused.

"Because Ye Rin said so" His answer makes them smile at how foolish he is. 

"Aigoooo Ye rin ah. Do you hear that? This pabo actually believes you." Dong Woo says as he look above , pretending to talk to you.

"No its true, i think Shi woo will be as good looking as Sung Yeol." Sung gyu joins the boys in disturbing Sung Yeol.

"Are you sure , hyung? Wont you regret?" Hoya joke.

"Well, anything except his brains are good." Sung gyu answer earns laughters thru out the entire restaurant. Sung yeol smile as he cant keep up with the jokes anymore.

"There you are. Thats the smile that Ye Rin loves."  

Author note :

Complete. Thank you for all of you who subsribe and stay loyal reading my story. I deeply appreciate all of you. See you all next time. 

 I have choose this ending and i hope all of you understand that this is how i want it to be. This will be the last chapter as i wont be continuing this story anymore. Thank you once again for all your support.

Song : Talking to the moon by Bruno Mars (Please listen to this song after you finish reading) https://youtu.be/x94m407UJSI