Chapter 13 – Take My Breath Away

            I took a deep breath before making my way through the doors.  Before I could take a step into the room, something grabbed at my shoulders, pulling me back.  Surprised, all I could do was stumble backwards and into a pair of strong arms.  I glanced back and my stomach dropped.

            “Father,” I whispered, quickly pushing myself away from him.  I bowed down, not daring to meet his eyes.  Had he heard our conversation?

            “Kyuhyun,” he greeted in a near monotone manner.  I could not think of a time when my father didn’t talk to me in that manner.  It would surprise most people as he quickly changed his tone and manner with other people.  “So you’ve agreed to marry Mr. Choi?”

            I should tell him before he makes any plans.  “No father,” I muttered, keeping my eyes down.

            There was a moment of silence.

            “That conversation that you and Mr. Choi just had never existed Kyuhyun,” my father suddenly said.

            Surprised, I looked straight into his eyes.  He heard everything.  “I don’t love him sir,” I said, trying not to sound like a whining child.  “I’ve already told him of my attentions towards another man.”

            My father scoffed.  “That ‘designer’,” he asked, rolling his eyes.  “Like I could ever let you marry him.  Mr. Choi’s father and I already have business plans.”
            “It doesn’t mean that we have to get married,” I explained, trying to reason with him.

            “Are you honestly trying to refuse my orders?”

            I stopped.

            “No father,” I whispered, looking back down at the floor.

            “I thought so,” he muttered, stepping around me to walk towards the room.  “After all, you wouldn’t want your precious designer’s career to suffer, right?”

            The door opened for a while and I knew that he had stepped back inside the room.  I could feel my heart stop for a second and it wasn’t for a good reason this time.  I have to marry Siwon Choi.  For business reasons.  And I have to leave Sungmin.  For business reasons.  I have to protect my brother’s life.  For business reasons.  Why is it that everything revolved around the business?

            I scratched my head in frustration.  “Why can’t I control my own life,” I grumbled.

            “K-Kyuhyun,” a familiar voice whispered from behind me.

            I spun around, only to come face to face with the person my father and I had just been talking about.  “Sungmin,” I said, approaching him.  “Are you feeling okay?

            He gave me a small smile and leaned against my touch to his cheek.  “Yeah, I was just getting a little lonely though,” he whispered, looking me straight in the eyes.

            I gave him a smile back, though it felt as if my heart kept sinking and sinking.  “Then why don’t we go away,” I whispered back.

            His eyes looked into mine again and I could it sparkle.  All previous thoughts of my father disappeared and all I couldn’t help but smile even further.  In the end, he simply nodded and I took him away.

            “This is amazing,” Sungmin yelled as he ran through the beach.  The warm wind from the ocean blew against his hair, the moonlight seeming to cause it to sparkle.  His lips were turned up right into a smile.  He had taken off his jacket, leaving him with only his button up, which was now rolled half way up.

            Breathtaking.

            No other word could explain this right now.

            I couldn’t help but smile at the man in front of me.  However, my father’s words snuck back.  Are you honestly trying to refuse my orders?  No matter how much I wanted to say no, I couldn’t.  But I didn’t know why.  Was it because of my obligations?  Was it because I was used to my life being controlled?  Was it because I knew that if left, my brother would have to suffer?

            Or was it him?

            Because I love him?

            So because I love him, I would be willing to sacrifice that I would ever be with him in order to protect his career.  Because he’s worked too hard.

            Shisus this is difficult.

            “Kyu, come here!  The sand feels so soft,” Sungmin yelled out, distracting me from my thoughts.  I watched as he dug his feet into the sand and wave his arms out at me.  I smiled at his childlike demeanor. 

            I ran over to him with open arms, engulfing him in a hug.  I heard him gasp as I picked him up and spun him around.  He quickly reacted and hugged me back as he giggled.  “Kyuhyun,” he squealed.  “Put me down!”

            I laughed and let me down, but I didn’t dare let him go.  I wanted to, but I couldn’t.

            But I needed to.

            “What was that about,” he whispered, his breath tickling my ears.

            “I’m not quite sure myself Sungmin,” I whispered back, still unable to let me go.

            He continued to giggle and I drowned in his voice.  How long could I hold him like this for?

            Can we stay like this forever?

            Sadly, no.

            Sungmin applied a bit of pressure, causing the both of us to fall onto the ground in fits of giggles.  “I’m sorry,” he said, brushing my hair out of my eyes.

            In an almost clichéd scene, he had fallen right on top of me, lying comfortably onto my chest.  “I don’t think you’re that sorry,” I whispered, gently caressing his cheeks.

            He let out a light giggle.  “Is there any way I can prove it Mr. Cho,” he whispered back, looking me straight into the eyes.

            “You can try.”

            I watched as his face got closer and closer to mine.  I felt my breathing stop for a second.  Was he going to kiss me?  Oh my goodness gracious.  Do I want this?

            Before I could react, he simply gave me a wink and gently pushed himself off of me and onto the sandy floor.  “Thank you Kyuhyun,” he whispered.  “For everything since the first time I met you.”

            I laughed.  I should be the one thanking you.  I turned over to my right side to look at his side view.  His gaze fell upon the stars above us and watched it twinkle against the dark canvas.  It seemed as if he was looking at the most beautiful art piece in the world.  As for me, I knew that it was right in front of me.

            Could I honestly let him go?

            He slowly turned to his left side and gazed into my eyes.  His lips turned up into a smile.

            No.

            I really couldn’t.

            Before I realized it, his hands fell onto my cheeks and his lips were on mine.  I felt my breath stop for the umpteenth time, but knew to close my eyes.  It was, to say the least, sweeter than any cake in the world.  My stomach twisted and I felt butterflies flutter around, causing me to shiver.  It was one of the best feelings in the world.

            I really couldn’t.

            But I need to.

            His lips promptly left mine and I suddenly felt empty.  I continued to close my eyes, too afraid to go back to reality.  “Did that show it then,” he whispered, his breath ghosting against my lips.

            I slowly allowed my eyes to flutter open and looked into his.  I couldn’t say a word, my mind unable to properly work.  “Speak Kyuhyun,” he whispered again, his eyes now showing signs of concern.

            “Y-You k-kissed me,” I managed to choke out, knowing that my eyes were now bulging out.

            He couldn’t help but giggle at my comment.  Honestly, I would laugh at me too.  “Yes Kyuhyun,” he said, standing up from his position.  He patted the sand away from his jeans.  “Now, I have officially tagged you and you’re it.  Catch me if you can!”  He winked and ran.

            It took me a while to process what he said, but I knew he was serious.  I quickly stood up and ran after the beautiful man across the beach.

            And here I lay in bed again.  Why is that I always have my inner monologues lying down?  I rolled my eyes at my own weirdness and wrapped my blanket tighter around me. 

            He kissed me.

            My fingers ghosted over my own lips and I felt my heart speed up.  I grabbed one of my pillows and threw it across the room.  Oh my goodness, I’m acting like a teenage girl who just had her first kiss!  I ruffled my hair in frustration.

            But wait.

            That makes this whole situation even worse.

            I have to marry Siwon.  I couldn’t go any further than being friends with Sungmin and I think I just crossed the line.  Sungmin still has some sort of feelings for Kangin.  Kangin kissed Leeteuk.  Does Leeteuk still love Kangin? 

            Gahh!!!

            I shoved my face into a pillow and screamed.  Why is this so difficult?  Can I go back to the beach with him?  Can I not let him go?  Can I continue to live in a blissful manner? 

            Can I go back to when I didn’t have feelings?

            I scoffed at myself.

            Of course I couldn’t.  No matter how difficult this was, there was some part of me that liked it.  I was human.  I wasn’t a robot who couldn’t be controlled.  Of course not.

            And there it was.

            My answer.

            I’m human.

            All I had to do was tell my father.  I love Sungmin.

            Not Siwon.

            Sungmin.

            Lee Sungmin.

            I must be a difficult person to know.

            I wrapped my arms around myself and let sleep take over.

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A/N: Okay, so I promised to change the last chapter.  Sadly, I couldn’t come up with anything better and just let it be.  Therefore, I decided to quickly update and left you with this fluff chapter…no matter how weird it was.  Please pardon this weirdness.  I don’t know how the kiss actually works…I hope it went fine…

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