"Soo.... wake up!!!!"

" A moment grandma..."

I try to collect my soul in this freezy morning.It's still 4 a.m yet my grandma already wake me up, but I am already used to it. Living with her since I was 16, I know what will she do. She will get up on 3 a.m, prepare herself, after that she will be in her garden, taking care of her beautiful flowers. And I will be near my grandma,  helping her to take care her babies, she said. I'll be watering,sometimes move the flowerpot to certain area, where the sun will shine too bright or where the sun won't be able to touch the flower, all depends on the kind of the flower. After that, I will take a bath,prepare breakfast for us,then take a bus to reach my office. What kind of routinity!

"Grandma... it's already 7 a.m, I'll leave OK!! Call me if you need anything, I love you!!"

A few minutes passed by and I didn't  hear her reply, I guess she too engrossed in whatever she is doing  right now. I open the door to go to the halte. But before I closed the door, I heard she called me.

"Soo... wait" Grandma called me. "Yes grandma, what happen?"

"Soo... " she looked so hesitate and I think I know what will she say next, " your family will be back the day after tomorrow. Your mother just called me and she asked you to live with them."

I froze..

flashback

" Dad, Mom... please don't leave me alone here!!! I promise to be a good boy!!!Don't leave me" I cried

" Kyungsoo! A man never shed a tear! We leave you here so you can grow up! Dont be a baby! You're 16 for godshake!"  father scolded me

" But I'll be alone here, I can't see you, mom, and Jongin."

" Improve your grade, study harder, and I will reconsider to take you to USA to be with our family." Father told me

With that I know this is will be his final decision.

" Soo... are you okay?" Grandma asking me with the concern in her eyes

With that I am back to reality

" Sure grandma.." I fake a smile to her, " I will reconsider mom's offer. I dont want to leave you alone. Grandma, I'll go first. We'll talk about this later, okay?" I kiss on her forehead and run to the halte as fast as I can.