A slightly long chapter

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Kris pov:

She had a plate of fruits out on the coffee table and Chanwoo was gabbing onto a piece of apple.

“Appa.” He held out the apple to me as I sat down. I opened my mouth and he placed it inside.

“Thank you.” I rubbed his back and smiled. He came and sat on my lap. We all gathered in the living and they talked among themselves. I was preoccupied thinking of how I could help her remember me. I had no clue. Things like regaining memories, there isn’t a definite answer or solution, it just comes back on its own or it never does. I heard that bring the person to places you have been with them may trigger the memories and thought of using that method but then again, I realised that I don’t have a place to bring her. We hardly went out or hanged out as just the two of us, the only time we would meet would be at the balcony of our apartment. I hardly know anything about her in this life.

“Oppa, will you be staying tonight?” she asked as placed another piece of apple into .

“Yeah, we have to work around this area tomorrow. Hope Byunghun doesn’t mind if we used his room.”

“He wouldn’t mind.” I looked in the direction of the other room, so that’s what she meant that she doesn’t have any more rooms. It was L.Joe’s room. I couldn’t help but feel jealous and a bit angry. He got to be so close to her but I didn’t like it. Even before, she had guys around her, she is like a flower attracting bees. She is a flower I want to pick and place in a vase so that only I can see it.

“Ahh.” I bit into another apple that Chanwoo held out for me and I ruffled his hair.

“Give one to eomma too.” he stood up and handed one out of the two he was holding to her.

“For me?” he nodded and she took a bite.

“Thank you.” then he went on to give his two uncles one each before settling back on my lap. He leaned back against me and played with my hand.

“Big.” he said and placed his hand on mine. It was so small and cute.

“Next time, you will be like me and have big hands.” I looked at him. “You must exercise and play basketball. It will help you grow taller.”

“Really?” his eyes were sparkling and I nodded.

“I’ll teach you another day. You will love it.”

“Yay!” he clapped his hands and started laughing, it brought a smile on the uncles and my faces. Rin picked up the empty plate and brought it to the sink to wash. He stood up and tried to pull me up.

“I want to go up.” he said and tried to make me stand. “I want up!”

“Chanwoo, come here. Uncle So will do that for you.” he ran over and Soryong lifted him up and placed him on his shoulders. “Hold on tight.” He laughed and smiled.

‘So that what he means when he wants up.’ I thought.

They walked around the house and exchanged rides with Daeryong. He really enjoyed being on top, this kid isn’t afraid of heights.

“Appa too!” he said from Daeryong’s shoulders. I stood and decide not to do the same thing. Thought me and the brothers are about the same height, I think I’m a little taller and with him on my shoulders, I’m worried he will hit the ceiling or anything hanging objects. I shook my head and he pouted.

“Okay, but instead of going up, how about a rocket?” he immediately lit up and nodded. Daeryong placed him on the ground and he ran to me. I held him under the armpits and asked if he is ready and lifted him up into the air really quickly. He screamed and let out a laugh.

“Again again!” he jumped as I placed him on the ground. I lifted him again and he kept asking for more. I kind of regretted suggesting it a little. I did it a few more times and my arms were starting to hurt.

“Okay, no more.” I said and he pouted.

“One more.” He lifted one finger. “One more.”

“My arm hurts.” I said softly looked at my hand. There was a slight red stain on the bandage. I clenched my fist before Rin could see it.

“One more.” He said sadly and I couldn’t stand his face, it was too cute. I become weak against agyeo. I scooped him into my arms and placed him horizontally across my arms. And swing him around.

“After this no more.” I said with a smiled and ‘flew’ him around the room. The whole house was filled with his laughter.

“Okay I think that is enough. It’s almost time for you to sleep.” I placed him down and walked to the chair in the kitchen.

“Ahhhh, I don’t want to sleep!” he hugged my legs preventing me from walking. I turned around and lifted him until his legs were just slightly above the ground and shook him from side to side.

“Why don’t you want to sleep?” I asked. “No more until tomorrow or I won’t play with you.” I said and placed him back on the floor.

“Okay.” He said. He turned to Rin who was standing a slight distance from us. “Eomma, I want to sleep with appa please!” she looked at me and I saw twinkles in her eyes.

“You don’t want to sleep with Eomma?” 

“I want but I want to sleep with appa.” The kid was torn between who to choose.

“If he allows, you can.” He turned to me with those big anticipating eyes. I couldn’t ruin his fun could I?

“Okay.” He jumped and ran around the table. He was killing me multiple times in a day, like I said I have low tolerance for agyeo or cuteness.

“Okay.” She caught him and lifted him into her arms. “Time to wash up.” she carried him to the toilet. Once they were out of sight, I let out a sigh and I couldn’t wipe that stupid grin I had on my face. I am enjoying this too much.

“I wish you all the best.” Soryong patted my shoulder before the both of them headed to the room. I was thankful that they gave me a chance and somehow from the tone of his voice, I couldn’t help but think that he was rooting for me. Maybe I was just thinking too much. I ran my hand through my hair and went to the room to wait for my turn to use the toilet.

Chanwoo came running in and she followed behind him. He jumped into my arms and I wrapped my arms around him. She grabbed a new set of pyjamas for him.

“I’ll do it. You go and wash up.” I smiled and took the clothes from her. She looked at me and I nodded in assurance. She left and I changed him into a Batman pyjamas set.

“Chanwoo ah,” he looked at me. “Do you want to learn something?” he nodded and came to me. “Okay, do you know where eomma’s phone is?” he thought for a while before running off and coming back with her phone. I took it and hoped that she didn’t have a password and to my luck, she didn’t. I added my contact in her phone and called mine. I cheacked her speed dials and they were L.Joe’s and Yongju. I knew that her brothers would be in sooner or later so I chose the number 6, my birthday date.

“This is how you can call me.” I showed him how to make a phone call in case something crops up next time. I let him try and he did it perfectly. “Well done. Now you have to remember okay? If anything happens to eomma you have to tell me okay?” he nodded and I held out my pinky and we pinky promised. Chanwoo is now my little spy.

I deleted the calls made to my phone and he placed it back before she came out of the toilet. Once we all washed up everyone said their goodnights and she tugged him in bed as I sat on the floor nest to the bed.

“Sleep well okay? Have sweet dreams my baby.” she leaned down and kissed his cheeks before leaving the room

“Good night Rin.” I said as she was about to close the door. It remained a jar for a moment.

“Good night Kris.” and she closed the door. I closed my eyes and repeated the way she said my name, I loved it. I couldn’t get enough of her, she is like my drug.

“Sleep with Chanwoo.” I snapped out of my thoughts and climbed into bed with him. I placed my arm on his stomach and patted him lightly.

“Appa.” He looked at me and I smiled. I’m still not used to being called ‘appa’ but I can’t deny that happy feeling inside.

“Hmmm?” I hummed a response.

“Don’t leave okay?” he yawned before snuggling closer to me.

“You don’t want me to leave?”

“I like appa. Appa like eomma. Eomma like Chanwoo.” I couldn’t help but smile at his reasoning.

“I’ll stay if your eomma wants me too.” I whispered as I patted him to sleep.

“Eomma will.” He mumbled and fell asleep.

“I hope she does.” I sighed and closed my eyes. I really hope she did.

 

 

Rin POV:

Oppas’ went off after breakfast and Kris was playing with Chanwoo in the living room. I watched them quietly as they played, Kris taught him how to say simple words in Chinese and English. Whenever they are together, Chanwoo never fails to smile and his laughter would fill the whole house. I took a sip off my drink as I sat down by the table, Chanwoo is getting too attached to Kris and even calling him appa. We tried to talk him out of it, but he insisted on it. I gave up half way, I didn’t want to force him to do something he doesn’t like.

I’m beginning to think that my brothers are hiding something from me and it seems like Kris knows what it is. I know that they know about my past, it seems like I have yet to remember all of it. They aren’t telling me anything. Kris on the other hand seems to know everything about me. The way he looks at me and the things he does for me, he even knows my habits. He definitely knows something that I don’t but what is it?

“Is it okay if I bring him out?” he looked at me with a smile. “I want to teach him how to play basketball.”

“In this weather?” I placed my cup in the sink. “Don’t you think it’s a bit too cold?”

“I know a place for kids, it’s indoor and warm. The facilities there are good and there’s food as well.”

“Eomma I want to go!” he cheered happily. I shouldn’t be always giving in to him but he sounded too happy. Ever since I became a mother, all I’ve been thinking is about Chanwoo. Everything has to be about Chanwoo first, everything else come second.

“Okay. Go and change, I’m coming along.”

“Really?” Kris looked at me with widen eyes.

“Yeah.” He smiled again and stood up.

“Eomma said yes! Let’s go and change!” he lifted Chanwoo in one arm and ran to the room. I too went to my room and changed. There was something about Kris that bothers me, this thought crossed my mind multiple times, he is so familiar to an extend I couldn’t help but feel suspicions as to why he came close to us. What is his motive?

“Eomma!” Faster come out!”

I grabbed my coat and bag before heading to the living room where they were waiting. They were dressed similarly, both in black jeans and grey knitted top. Anyone who sees them on the street would think that they are father and son. That thought didn’t turn me off surprisingly but it made me think about what it would be like for Chanwoo to have a father.

“Are you ready?” he asked and I blinked at him. He looked really handsome and my heart started beating faster. He had this light coming out from behind him making him shine brightly. I shoved that thought on side.

“Y-yes.” He helped Chanwoo wear his shoes and we went off. I walked behind them and watched them interact, something I’ve been doing a lot lately. There is something going on about me. I’ve beginning to act differently, like what Jungkook said I’m becoming more human like. I have more expressions and I could feel more as well as express myself. The emotions and memories, it’s all been coming back slowly when I was with Chanwoo but then suddenly, it’s coming back fast and it all started when Kris appeared. I can’t help but think that he somehow related to me in some way or another. My body reacted to him even though my mind can’t remember, this has to prove something right?

We stopped by the traffic light and waited for the signal to turn green. People around us kept looking at us, and I heard them commenting on what a good looking a family we are. This isn’t the first time, I heard them before but pretended not to hear them. The light turned green and we crossed the road. I was walking next to them when Kris suddenly pulled me closer to him. A motorist just drove pass me just like that, the green man hasn’t even turned red.

“That bast-are you okay?” he looked at me with concern as he looked down at me. I felt heat rise up to my face and my heart started racing at how close we were.

“I’m fine.” I pulled away from him but he held me close to him, he held my arm tightly.

“Didn’t you see him coming?” he asked we stepped onto the pavement.

“I-I didn’t see him.” I looked down onto the pavement. It was the truth, he came from my right I couldn’t see him even if I wanted too. I should have been more careful.

“Hey, look at me.” he said softly as his hand moved to my chin, tilting it upwards so that I was looking at him. I stared into his worried looking eyes, he let out a soft shakily sigh. “As long as you are fine, that’s all that matters. Next time just be more careful or I’ll handcuff you to me.” he said while gazing into my eyes. Suddenly I felt so small in front of him, though I am much smaller in size compared to him it was like he can see right through me.

“That won’t be necessary.” I looked away and moved one side “Let’s just move on.” I placed my hand inside my coat on my heart, it was racing. How many times must it beat like this, this was the second time today. I looked at him as he walked slightly in front of me, what is he doing to me? Making my heart beat like crazy, making me look at him more and making me think of him all the time? What does he get for making me fall for him?

Wait.

What did I just think off? I’m falling for him? How is that even possible, I don’t even know him? I shook my head vigorously. That thought should be erased, it’s not possible. I glanced at him again and took in his facial features yet again, I couldn’t help myself.

No, this is not good. I stopped myself. I couldn’t fall for a stranger, especially a handsome one. I am a mother and I have a handicap. He wouldn’t want someone like me. I chucked those thoughts at the back of my head, if I could bury them I would and make sure that they never appear again.

We spent a few hours at that kids café place, Chanwoo enjoyed himself and was high even on the way back. He even begged me to bring him back. I didn’t give any promises but I had to say that it was nice to see him play with other kids and Kris never let him out of his sight. It was a lovely sight, seeing Kris and Chanwoo smiling and having fun. I could tell that there were females in that café ogling at how handsome he is. Who wouldn’t? A hot guy that is good with kids it’s a good package.

I decided that I needed to put some distance between us, I didn’t think it was a good idea for me to like him. I would casual mention about Chanwoo’s father which obviously I don’t have one and Kris would stop asking me about him. A wrong move probably. I could tell that he was curious about the father figure to which I replied with vague answers.  

We reached home and went to wash up while I made a simple dinner. Chanwoo wouldn’t stop staring at him, that grin on his face wouldn’t disappear. I started to worry about when Kris has to leave, what would he do. I helped change his bandage and it seems like the wound is healing really well. There will be a scar but it won’t be obvious.

“It should be okay in 2 weeks or so. The wound is healing well, nothing to worry about.” I packed my tools back into the case that contains it. He grabbed my hand before I could walk away, I was trying to avoid him.

“Thanks Rin.” the way he said my name was just lovely. The way my name rolls off his tongue and his voice was just perfect.

“No problem.” I said through clenched teeth. “It’s time for Chanwoo to sleep.” I quickly placed the case where it should be before grabbing Chanwoo.

“Say goodnight.” He held is arms out to Kris wanting him to carry him.

“I want to sleep with appa.”

“Tonight you will sleep with eomma.” He shook his head.

“I don’t want.”

“I’ll take care of him, you go and rest. You look a bit pale.” before I could say anything else, he took Chanwoo out of my arms and headed for the room. “Say goodnight eomma.”

“Good night eomma. I love you.” he smiled as he leaned onto Kris’s shoulder.

“Good night.” it is a bit saddening that he doesn’t want to sleep with me anymore, all he cares is Kris now. My position is now being threatened. But kids change their minds often, I’m not as bothered about it.

“Good night Rin. Sleep well.” he stood by the door with Chanwoo in his arms. I walked to my room and stopped in front of it before turning to him.

“Good night Kris.” and I went into bed.

 

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I was dizzy and my whole body ached. I was bleeding from my left abdomen and had cuts on my arms as well as gun wounds. My once white shirt was now red, my right eye was closed. I was panting for air and my body felt really heavy. In front of me laid 9 people, all were knocked out for good. All that is left was the one person in front of me, like me he was also injured. He looked at me and cried while laughing.

“So is this how it ends? One of us won’t survive.” He struggled to stand up. “I’ve already lost you one too many times and this time I have to let you go again? Not only will I lose you, I lost my family!” he pointed to the 9 lying in a big puddle of blood. The smell of blood made my stomach churn and it was uncomfortable. All that was in my head was to get things over and done with, I had to get out alive. I grip unto my gun tighter and aimed it at him.

“I know you won’t pull it. I know you too well.”

“Really? Then you know me wrong.” I pulled the trigger and he fell backwards. A fatal shot that I wouldn’t have done if I could choose not to. I walked over to him and took the device out of his hands.

“Rest in peace.” I closed his eyes and turn to the main entrance. My energy had already depleted and I could barely stand up. I pushed open the heavy doors and the gap as just big enough for me to exit. I grabbed the sides of the door for satiability before heading out into the open.

“Rin!” I heard and looked up at a lady, she was crying and broke free from the guards. But the only thing in my head was him, did he get to safety and is he okay? I spotted him in the crowd and he was looking at me.

“Yi fan.” I whispered with all my strength left. I could barely see properly, my vision was becoming hazy.

“Princess!” my lips twitched upon hearing that voice and that name. It was my nickname, it was given to me by the person who called out to me. My biological brother.

I took a step forward only to stumble backwards as my whole body experience immense pain. I couldn’t breathe and everything was slow motion. I watched as their eyes widen in shock, my chest was burning.

“YI NING!” I could hear him screaming my name but I couldn’t get to him, he was too far away. I reached out as I started to choke, I needed air. My body failed me as I fell forward only to be caught by someone.

“It’s me. Hang in there.” He said and carried me away from them. My arm was losing strength and the last thing I was saw his shocked, sad and pained expression before I dropped the device and closed my eyes. I thought then, as long as he was fine, they were fine, I could go in peace. Then my body heated up like I was being thrown into a fire place.

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I gasped as I open my eyes. My heart was racing and my body was in pain, especially at my chest. The pain was so bad it felt like I was being run over by a truck a hundred times. My head was hurting too and I inhaled quickly as images flashed past and the pain didn’t stop. I let out a soft cry and I felt hot tears running down my face. I was crying not only because it hurts, but because I remember them. Those people who were my friends, the ones who changed and the ones who I loved a lot.

That missing puzzle piece has been found. That piece that could make me whole again.

I finally regained all my memories. All of it.

I cried. It hurts both mentally and physically. I couldn’t believe that I forgot about them, even my brother. I covered my face with my hands, all I felt was regret. My room door opened and closed so softly I didn’t hear it. Then my bed dipped in front of me and someone wrapped their long arms around me bring me closer.

“It’s okay, I’m here.” He whispered as he placed his arm under my neck and brought me closer to his chest and rubbed soothing circles on my back. I cried a bit harder because I know it’s him. The person I wanted to forget. I took in his scent and felt nostalgic, I missed his scent. I inhaled sharply and he tightened his grip around me, he didn’t let go. “Shhhhh, it’s okay.” He whispered into my ears. Like magic, the pain started to subside, slowly I could feel his warmth enveloping me.

I tried to push him away but he didn’t budge. I knew that I would regret being in his arms, it would only make me fall for him more than I already have.

“Just rest.” He ran his hand through my hair. “I won’t do anything, I promise.” My arms dropped a little and I was facing his chest. “Let the pain go away.” He patted my back softly and his other hand remained tangled in my hair.

Because my emotions also came back, I was feeling overwhelm by everything. My memories, my brother, and him. I couldn’t think straight and my mind was in a mess. Slowly, fatigue came as the pain left and I let it take over me. I began to relax in his arms and he shifted my position so that it would be more comfortable. My hand was curled into fist resting on his chest. My body is now telling me to rest and I didn’t argue. I felt warm and it was comfortable. I’ll face those issues tomorrow but right now, I just want to be in his arms.

 

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So I said that Kris would make her remember right? Apparently she remembered before he could do anything. 

The thing I dread the most is about to start, school. Anyway, hope you have a great year ahead!

Happy New Year everyone! 

2/01/15