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Tell Me Your Inner Thoughts

Jimin turned around and looked at you with an empty expression on his face. "I told you to go away" He was breathing heavily and his fists were still clenched.

You were afraid to answer him cause you didn't know how he would react and you seriously were just afraid of him.

You noticed him raising his eyebrows what just caused your heart to beat even faster but you still didn't open your mouth.

Jimin let out a deep breath giving you cold shivers. "Good..." He started "Then don't anwer me." He looked straight into your eyes.

Without noticing, you said something. "I...what...was that?"

"...I'll tell you someday..maybe" He looked away but your mind started to control you. "Just tell me!" You nearly shouted at him.

Jimin immediately looked back at you and came closer. "You really wanna provoke me, huh? Good, then just continue! You'll see what happens then!"

He wanted to go away but you grabbed his arm. "No...I'm just..." You stopped.

"What? What are you?!" Jimin yelled.

What am I doing that he's always pissed because of me?!

"I'm..worried...about you" Still being afraid, you slowly looked up to him noticing that his expression changed. And you could tell that you just saw a sort of a smile on his face.

"...I'm fine. you don't have to worry about me..." The look on his face was getting softer.

Gosh, this guy. He better tells me someday what's wrong.

"But if you'll see this again, just go away the next time" While saying 'this', he pointed at the man who still was laying on the ground.

You just nodded, you didn't want to ask him again.

I really should give him some time...

"Or else he'll accidentally kill you" Jimin rolled his eyes while saying it.

"Okay...and sorry...I promise it'll never happen again.." You apologized to him.

"Stop making promises you can't keep"

"Huh?" You looked at him surprised.

"You've never kept your promises...so just stop making them" He looked into your eyes.

His look was really weird and unusual. Normally he'd yell or at least glare at you so that you would feel like peeing in your pants but it wasn't like this. Well, it still wasn't a happy expression, but he didn't look like he was going to stab you with a knife.
That was kinda creepy but you tired to ignore it. What bothered you more was actually what he just has said.
It wasn't true, you normally kept all your promises but he had no idea because your feelings were always going crazy when it comes to him. It's like you're not alone in your own body.

"That's not true..." You whispered.

"It's not?" Jimin raised his eyebrows. "So you're telling me that I'm wrong?"

"Aish whatever, forget it" You didn't want to discuss with him anymore. You just wanted to go away now. Your heart hurt and you were shocked and confused. You needed a break. A break of him, of everything, of life.

"You should go now. It's late..."

You looked back at him.

What did he just say? Why is he so nice to me?

"I'm tired, okay?"

My face really is an open book...

You just nodded, still confused, and turned around to walk away. You could feel his gaze while walking.

Why is he still staring at me? Why is he like this today? What the heck is wrong here?!

 

After you've arrived at home, you went into your bedroom immediately and fell asleep. It was a tiring day and you just needed some rest after this.

 

On the next day, your mum woke you up because you had forgotten to set your alarm clock.

"Oh my god, mum! I'm late!" You shouted stressed. You only had 15 minutes left to get ready, pack your stuff and eat something. And you still had to walk to your school.

So you got up as fast as possible, took a very quick shower, while your mum was packing your stuff. Then you just grabbed your breakfast, said goodbye to your mum and ran out of the house to your school.

You only had some moning classes this day, what made it even more difficult.

Jimin probably would just stay at home if he would be late.

After a few minutes, you arrived right before your teacher entered the class. You glanced at Jimin, who was just sitting there, staring at you, before you sat down next to Hana. "Gosh, I have a new record" You laughed.

Right after this class has started, the teacher began talking about a project everyone has to do with a partner.

"We'll do it together right?" Hana asked you with a wide grin on her face. You nodded happily as a response.

But as soon as you both decided that, the teacher started speaking again. "I'm going to decide who will work together"

"Whaaaaat? Noooo!" Hana and you whined but the teacher didn't care. "So..Hana and Taeweon. Jiyeon and Hakyung. ______ and..." The teacher paused a little while you were looking at him impatiently. "Jimin"

WHAT?!

You stared at Hana with widened eyes and formed a 'why' with your lips.

You didn't dare to turn around and look at Jimin. He must've been really upset about this because you heard his fist slamming on the table.

Great, now I have to see him more often than I'm already doing.

You covered your face with your arms and prayed that it will be a success.

I should give it a try. Maybe it won't be so bad, as I'm expecting.

"You have two weeks to finish this project. I'd start today, because you'll need quite a lot time." The teacher said looking around.

But because the teacher wanted to do something else during this class, you really had to do it at home.

The rest of the classes went by really fast so you could go home again after three more classes.

But before you went home again, you had to search Jimin. He had another class now but you wanted to talk to him first.

Just like it was coincidence, he was leaning against a wall and checking his phone. You smiled seeing him there.

"Jimin!" You shouted to make him pay attention to you.

Jimin looked up from his phone and walked towards you.

"Because of the project...We really should start today, like the teacher has said." Jimin just looked at you and nodded. "Uhm...where shall we go then? Your house or mine"

"Yours"

"U-Uhm okay" You kinda were overwhelmed by his fast answer but he must have a reason.

"I'll come right after my class ends, okay?" He looked at you waiting for an answer.

"Yeah okay, let me just give you my address."

"I know your address"

You looked up at him shocked.

"O-Okay"

He was still looking at you as the school bell rang. "I have to go now" He turned around and walked off.

Why does he know where I live??

It kinda creeped you out that he knew where you live but you decided to not think about this anymore and just made your way home.

 

At home you ate a little and told your mum that Jimin will be coming over.

"This Jimin?!"

Oh yeah right...she knows that I'm actually hating him...

"Yeah...this Jimin..." You said quietly.

"Why are you making this project with him?!"

"It's not like I wanted it, mum...My teacher decided that" You explained.

"Then I should have a talk with him! This boy won't come into my house!" Your mum couldn't stand Jimin and she was afraid that he'll hurt you.

"Mum! Stop that...He isn't that bad"

Did I just defend him or what?!

Your mum looked at you very skeptical but in the end she gave you her okay.

You looked at the big clock in the kitchen. "He'll come in a few minutes" You whispered to yourself and went into your room to clean up a little and prepare everything.

"_____! Shall I make some food for you guys?" You heard your mum asking.

"Uhm, isn't that weird?" You walked back and stared at her worried.

"Why? Is being nice weird?"

You smiled a little at your mums answer.

"I'll just make some snacks, don't worry" Your mum winked at you right before the door bell rang.

"Oh my gosh" You ran to the door trying to control your feels.

Why am I nervous?! It's just Jimin! But that was the problem.

As you reached the door, you took a deep breath before opening it.

"Hey" You smiled a little not to act strange in front of him.

"Hey" He simply said looking at you.

You led him inside and were about to walk straight into your room, as your mum saw you. "Don't you want to introduce him to me?" Your mum walked up to you.

"Mum~!"

Why is she always so embarrassing?

You could feel the heat in your face rising as you looked at Jimin who didn't even change his expression.

"So you are Jimin? My daughter told me a lot about you" She smiled lovely.

Mum!! Are you crazy?! You can't tell him that!!

You felt Jimins stare on your face and you wished that this has never happened, but it was too late. Now you just imagined how you're going to die.

"Yes I'm Jimin"

You immediately looked at him in disbelief.

Did he just answer her?!

Jimin even smiled a little.

Oh my god, this must be a dream!

"Nice to meet you, miss" He held out his hand nicely. Your mum grabbed it gently and shook it. "Nice to meet you too" She smiled at him.

What the heck?!

You couldn't believe that he was nice to her. You've never saw him like that. These days you saw a lot of new sides of him which you'd rather haven't had seen.

Your mother let him go and told you to go in your room while she would finish the snacks. So you continued walking upstairs with Jimin right behind you.

As soon as you reached your room, Jimin closed the door behind the both of you.

"What did you tell her?"

You stopped and looked at him.

Wow. His acting is really convincing..

"Just some random things. What you were doing to this little kid for example." You coldly said.

"So nothing what has happened the past days?"

"No, nothing" You looked at him.

"Good" He looked away from you. "This is your room? ...So girly" He scoffed.

"I'm terribly sorry for being a girl" You rolled your eyes. "So do you have any ideas for the project? I've prepared some things already"

"You're even organized" He chuckled provoking.

"Aish just be quiet" You couldn't help but smile a little. He was different. He normally wouldn't do anything and would make you do everything while he'd just sit somewhere else playing with his phone or something. And when you'd ask him anything, he'd yell at you. Besides the fact that you wouldn't ask him because you would be afraid to do so. Also the whole atmosphere would be different. But now it almost was like you were understanding each other. You liked it. And you felt a little safer next to him. You didn't have to watch out what to say again. As if you had changed him a little. It somewhat made you happy to see him like this.

"Do you really think I have any ideas for this?" He looked at you.

Oh yeah, how could I think of him like that. You smiled to yourself.

"...Then we'll just use the things I have prepared" You walked up to your desk and took the papers to sit on your bed.

Jimin didn't wait and just sat near you. Your bodies almost had contact. Almost. You felt your heartbeat getting faster and your cheeks getting red.

What's wrong with my freaking heart?! It's just Jimin!

"U-Uhm..just read this. I've collected some ideas."

You couldn't believe that he seriously grabbed the paper and read your ideas.

After a few minutes he told you what he wanted to do but you just stared at him with big eyes.

"What?" He asked.

"I just...didn't believe that you would do it..."

He sighed. "...I know I'm an but I also know how much you're doing for school. It would be mean if I'd make you do everything" Jimin stared right into your eyes causing you to blush harder.

You didn't know what to answer. He completely overwhelmed you with this. You even didn't know what to think about it.

"...Am I that unbelievable? What's with that look?" He smiled a little, just a little, but it made you feel warm.

"N-No it was just...random" You laughed a little. "You should smile more often" You had to tell him to smile more often, it just suited him better than this scary look he always had on his face.

But as a response, he just stared on the ground. It was the wrong spot. It simply wasn't different as you had thought. You still had to watch out what to say. Well, he didn't freak out that often anymore but you could see that you hurt him with what you were saying all the time.

You decided to change the topic as soon as possible and tried to concentrate on the project again. But that didn't help.

"I should go..."

"What? No!" You nearly yelled as he was about to get up.

Jimin turned his head to look at you. "I'm tired. We should continue tomorrow..."

"Why? We just started! ...Or did I say something wrong?" You knew you did.

You got up too and looked up at him. His eyes were cold and empty but you also saw a little bit of sadness.

"I'm sorry..." He turned around again but you grabbed his hands immediately.

"I'm sorry, I didn't meant to. I'll watch out what I'm saying the next times" You felt your eyes tearing up a little.

No, don't cry! What's wrong with me?! I'm seriously going crazy here! Aiiish what shall I do?!

You heard him sigh so you let go of him.

"Okay I'll stay..." He turned around again and looked at you.

I wish I could just hug him and I wish that he would believe that I'm sorry. Just once...

You thanked him with a weak smile on your face. You didn't know what was wrong with you but you didn't care anymore. You just wanted him to stay. You wanted to know what he was thinking. You just wanted to know his inner thoughts. Just to help him.

You both sat down again and after a short silence, you started talking again. But this time you watched out what to say and you really concentrated on the project so that this wouldn't happen again.

Suddenly, someone knocked at the door. "Come in" You shouted smiling a little. It was your mum with the snacks.

"Here for you. Strong boys need good food"

And with that she placed the snacks on the table and left the room again with a wide grin on her face.

You just rolled your eyes in embarrassment. "Don't mind her..."

Jimin just looked at you and smiled a weak.

The time passed and it wasn't really bad to work with Jimin. You actually had fun working with him on this project.

While he was eating something, you couldn't help but stare at his handsome face. You wondered why it didn't bother him but that just was better for you.

"Shall we leave it like that for today?" You asked him with a smile. He nodded.

He has definitely changed...

You brought him downstairs and told him goodbye before he went out of your house.

Right after you closed the door, you ran to the nearest window to watch him walk away. But he didn't. He just stood there, staring at the door with a weak smile on his face.

Your face got blank seeing him like this. It was really untypical for him to do that but it somewhat made you happy to see him siling. But otherwise you felt bad for him, because you knew that something was wrong. He'd never act like this, if he wouldn't have a reason for it.

You had no idea what he was thinking but you would find out very soon...

 

 

 

 

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A/N:
Hellooooooo~ Uhm yeah...I'm back XD With the longest chapter I've ever written lol I tried my best with the romance but I couldn't just make them kiss each other because that would be way too fast xD ..Well and that's the reason for it being that long XD Actually this would be like 2 or 3 chapters but yeah^^' You guys love long chapters right? :D So here it is~ I hope you enjoy ♥ Please subscribe, leave a comment and upvote ^-^

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huixhuix #1
Chapter 53: UPDATE PLSSSSS AUTHORNIMMMMM
asiangirl2015 #2
Chapter 53: I hope you will find time to update as fast as possible^^ i was rereading all chapters again, you did a really great work with this story!
_maknaetrash #3
Chapter 53: Finally ㅠㅠ A happy moment for them
Chimswae
#4
Chapter 53: I am hooked u got me squeallling here
skawpurr #5
Chapter 53: THIS IS SOOO GOOD❤️❤️❤️
Hyeri98 #6
Chapter 52: Update soon author-nim this fanfic is one of the best Jimin fic and imo the story line is really interesting. I also hope that you will write more interesting fics :-)
ASingleWallflower
#7
Chapter 52: OH MY GOODNESS. Mother of all things pink, it happened~! IT happened~!!!! :o *squeals* Aw. It was- they finally confessed~ Awwwww... Now I just want happy 'we love eachother' cuddles and for Namjoon to calm the flip flop down. Joonie pleeeeasseeeee stop being a jeeeerk~! Ugh I want a 'happy ending' for all parties involved... *sniff* But that doesn't happen often so I must prepare my heart for potential ending sadness. D: Anywhosal, no more comment spaaaam~! Hehehehehehe~ I'm all fuzzy now~ :D I send love and hugs, author-nim~!
ASingleWallflower
#8
Chapter 50: Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~ Cute little snippet of domestic life~! *swoons* Aw. I just- aw. Aw. This totally makes up for all the manipulation my feels have gone through. I'm looking at you, author-nim! Ah, it was so sweet. I feel like I developed a cavity.... :o Anywhosal, sending hugs and love~!
ASingleWallflower
#9
Chapter 49: Okaaaaaay~ Heeeeyo~! I've been gone for like- forever- but still I'm back and I'm alive and I'm ready to wreck my feels again! I was just gonna catch up and then comment again on the most recent chapter but I just HAD to comment. Like I couldn't not... ^-^ Anywhosal- I unfortunately relate to the panic attack bit; a bit too much for my liking... >_< But hey, that's life. I was soooo happy when ChimChim came to the rescue~! Got some healthy cuddles in as well. Ugh. This story makes me all confused and 100000% conflicted. I'm fine. Totally fiiiiiiiine... :-l Prepare for the comment spam as I get caught up~ sorry not sorry!
SeungheeKim56 #10
Chapter 52: this is soooooooooo gooooooddddddddddd. im crying. someone put onions near me urghhh I REALLYYYY LOVE THISSSSS AUTHOR-NIM!!! I LOVE YOU!!! <3