Youngneul’S POV

My heart is beating so fast. Frankly, I can’t sleep, even for a wink. Because, God. I don’t know EXO oppa deul will find a house like this. This big house has only one room. I can’t even move because I’m too afraid if I move even for a bit, I will wake Sehun oppa who is currently lying next to me, sleeping soundly.

I’m trying to look on to another side, but his face always drawing me closer to look at him again and again. I can’t look anywhere but him. This is the closest distance between us. Without worry, pain, or anything. Just a blissful moment that I can only share when he is not sober.

Those cold eyes are nowhere. Those lips that always utter painful words looks sweet. I remember the time when we were kids. These eyes had been looked at me tenderly. These lips were smiling on me warmly. I remember them clearly but each time passed, those picture start to disappear. And it starts to scare me. I’m afraid that there will be a time, maybe tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow. A week, a month, or maybe years later, I will forget them.

I’m afraid of forgetting those beautiful memories of us. I’m afraid that one day, I’ll think of it as a dream.

I don’t know how long I sleep when I see darkness outside the room and Sehun oppa isn’t next to me anymore.

Oppa, I think that I love you more now. What had you done to me?! How can I love you so much? And why you can’t love me even a bit? Can’t you just love me like I do?

Groggily, I walk to kitchen. Why so quiet? Ah~ right. Sehun oppa doesn’t want to open his mouth. Actually only me who talk. Hehe. Okay, now I’m preparing the dinner. What should I cook for dinner? Pasta? Sounds good. Okay! Pasta is settled. I take the ingrendients ou