Two Strange Things

The ray of sunshine sipping through the blinds of their quarter signals the start of spring. Kai stares outside as the spring season melts away the snow of the winter season. He thought he would forget about all of it just like how the sunlight brought by the spring season washes away the remnants of the winter that have passed. But he was wrong.

Very wrong. 

There are two strange things in his life that Kai can never get used to. 

First is Emotions. 

The other is Change. 

And it's happening to him all at the same time. The sudden flood of emotions and his change in mood and ways feels so strange to him and he can never get used to it, even though its already almost a month since the last time he visited the—little convenience store. He doesn't even know what its name is. He'll make sure he reads the signboard when he visits that store again. Although he's not planning to—but maybe he will. There could be a possibility. Maybe he will. 

Or maybe he should. 

He's been battling the waves of emotions that hit him like a tsunami for almost four straight weeks now. He tried to stop himself from changing. Sometimes he suddenly feels like looking at people in the eyes when he's talking to them, but he stops himself—one time he accidentally did and it annoyed him. He never does that.

Sometimes when he hears someone talking he feels like answering them. Which he should not.

He never does that. Ever.

He hates it that he's changing. Like he feels new things. Peculiar things he'd never felt before. One time he saw an old lady crossing the street slowly and he almost helped her—almost.

He thinks maybe this is all because of that Kyungsoo guy. Maybe because that Kyungsoo guy helped him, not returning the favor burdened him and caused him to do things he never really does—or wants to do.

He thought not seeing that guy for a while would help, but to no avail; it almost feels like it even got stronger.

The emotions.

 It keeps hitting him and he doesn't like it. He doesn't like feeling that fluttering feeling he felt when he saw a kid laughing with his mom, or that pity he felt when he saw that old lady crossing the busy street very slowly without anyone guiding her, or that anger he felt when he saw a high school kid being bullied in the alley.

No.

He doesn't like people minding his business and more so for him to mind other people's matters. It's even more aggravating to him because it is him feeling those emotions, and they all feel strange and stupid and it makes him feel like he's getting weak. 

He doesn't remember ever miss—wanting to see someone again. He doesn't remember ever wanting to see someone's face again. His debt is weighing too much on him and he needs to settle it with that Kyungsoo guy, or else he might end up doing things he will greatly be angry about later on. 

He would go see that Kyungsoo guy again, and say thank you in the most polite way he can, and then ask him what he wants in return. He will give that guy whatever he wants and everything will be over. 

All the strange things happening will come to an end. 

They have to. 

They should.

A/N

yes, this is a short update. That's because it's only to state Mr. Cold guy's feelings and I don't think I need 4K words to state all of that. He is a man of few words (an excuse). Besides I am quite busy these days due to exams but hey at least I updated, right?

Although I am indeed not satisfied with this chapter myself and I may edit it sometime in the future. I really just want to keep the story going because there's a long way to go and I already want to post the HunHan fanfiction side story. =_=

Thank you for those who upvoted and commented! I appreciate it a lot. <3

Anyway, I WILL BE posting a new one shot KaiSoo fanfic before I can update this so maybe you'd like to read that one first? [ click here]