“I love you.” Seunghyun kissed Daesung's temple, at this moment he wasn't letting him go.

Daesung was still a bit dazed from Seunghyun's revelation from earlier and hearing him freely say that he loved him was a bit daunting, “I love you too.”

Seunghyun hovered over Daesung and tilted his head to the side, “Do you really?”

“I should be asking you the same.” it had been going on like this for a while, a simple confession, a question as to whether it's the truth, and a confirming answer. They had been establishing once forgotten things between them, at least Seunghyun was. He had the most to share, the most he had to say again after denying all his claims that he had felt some type of way for Daesung; he was trying to bring what he once had back.

Seunghyun, embarrassed, looked at the side of Daesung's face rather than his eyes and the skin on Daesung's cheek, “You're my everything. You do know that right?”

This is what Daesung had missed, he had missed Seunghyun confessing his love for him a thousand times over, even when he didn't need to. He had thought that he would never get Seunghyun to be like this with him again, he missed him altogether, “It's at least what you say.”

“It's the truth, even if I deny it in the future, you are my everything.” Seunghyun said it, and he meant it, there was no turning back from how he felt, and in a way, he had known that all along.

“Not even when you're mad at me?” Daesung only wanted to hear him confirm it over and over again, he was afraid that was only a dream and Seunghyun had not changed right before his eyes. He was afraid to lose him again.

“No, not even when I'm mad at you.” Seunghyun sat up, bit his lip, and looked around, “Daesung.”

Daesung knew what Seunghyun was going to say, he had been saying it for a long time now no matter what Daesung said. Daesung sat up as well and wrapped his arms around Seunghyun's waist and rested his head on the crook of his neck, “You don't have to say it again. We both have made our mistakes, I can't blame you for being the way that you were.” he just couldn't.

“I was selfish.”

“You were hurt.”

“That's not enough, I, don't you see it could have been a pattern?”

Daesung furrowed his eyebrows and tightened his arms around him, “What do you mean?”

Seunghyun sighed, to him it was obvious, “What if I ended up hurting you? Damaging and rejecting you like a hypocrite, that's what I was doing. I practically said the same words that you said to me, only my own version of it. If I didn't stop, it would have been repeated, and I would have been the one trying to get you back...like a cycle.”

This was true, the situation wasn't all that different, and Seunghyun had done somethings that reminded Daesung of himself, but that was all in the past now, even if it had only been yesterday, “I see your point, but I wouldn't dwell on it as much as you are doing right now. We must not forget our past for it shall be repeated, but then again we shouldn't dwell on it like it's still happening.”

Daesung was right but Seunghyun couldn't help but feel bad, and a little bit worried, “I'm still sorry.”

“Shush, I don't want to hear it anymore. You are too empathetic for your own good.”

“But I was going to put you through what I did, and that's cruel.”

“You don't even know if that's the truth or not, besides, you didn't. So why are you saying you could have when you didn't?” reassuring Seunghyun that everything was okay was a hard task, he seemed to keeping thinking about as every second passed.

“But-

Daesung reached up and took Seunghyun's chin and made him look at him, “I said stop thinking about it. We're here now aren't we? You said it yourself that you wanted to be happy with me and how can we be happy together if you don't talk about happy things? It isn't rocket science.”

Seunghyun kissed him, “I know.” there was nothing more that Seunghyun wanted to do than forget about everything and move on, but he just couldn't. He had almost subjected Daesung to the very thing that had broken him; rejection. Being rejected by the one you loved was a hard thing to cope with, and Seunghyun felt bad for doing it. “I still am sorry.”

A smile played on his lips, “I know, but Seunghyun, this is the twentieth time you have said it and I don't need to hear it again. You are forgiven, and that's that.”

Seunghyun let himself relax in Daesung's hold and nodded at his words, “Why can't I just let it go like that?”

“Because you love me, if you didn't you wouldn't care as much.” Daesung felt a warmth from that exclamation, Seunghyun loved him, and it would stay that way.

“I do love you, my love is crippling.” he loved him so much he could barely breath, it was maddening, but he was addicted.

“And it's going to stay that way right?” a little bit of his worry slipped out, Daesung hope Seunghyun wouldn't catch on to how much he depended on his confessions.

“Yes, forever and always.” Seunghyun did catch on to how much Daesung lit up when he said something like that, he didn't mind repeating himself at all, he was just glad Daesung was willingly excepting him.

“I feel the same for you, I always have, and I always will.” their words were loaded with sweet promises, and they were a little too young to be saying these things, but neither of them cared, what they had now was all that mattered.

When Seunghyun had first seen Daesung he had so many plans for them, but he had never planned on the rocky relationship that had occurred between them before everything settled down. He had always thought things would be easy between them, but it wasn't. They had gone through a lot and it had only made their relationship stronger, only because they were able to learn from their mistakes.

Seunghyun got up and took Daesung's hand in his, “You feel the same?” he looked at Daesung and kissed the hand he was holding.

Daesung didn't know what Seunghyun was doing or thinking, but he did know that he was waiting for a answer to his question, which should have been obvious by now, “Yes.”

“And you'll love me when I'm old?”

“When we're old.”

Seunghyun pulled Daesung into his arms and wrapped him into a tight hug, “And when I'm cranky?”

“Even when you're cranky.” Daesung chuckled at the tight embrace he was receiving.

“You'll love me for how long?”

“Forever Seunghyun, forever.”

A small smile spread on Seunghyun's lips, “and always?”

“Yes of course, why all the questions?” Daesung looked at the small smile on Seunghyun's face and couldn't help but smile himself, “What's going on in that head of yours?”

“I just like hearing you say it, we've waited so long Daesung, it's about time.” Seunghyun didn't think that there could be anything that could ruin this moment between them. He was feeling quite good, and he was unsure as to whether it was because of Daesung or just everything around him. Seunghyun pulled Daesung into a warm, tight hug; he couldn't keep his arms from wrapping around Daesung, “I guess I really meant it when I said I will always love you.”

“You always mean what you say, I haven't known you to lie about a single feeling you have.” this reassured Daesung that everything was going to be okay, they were taking it one step at a time and their relationship could only get stronger.

“I guess I'm an open book.” he smiled sheepishly, he was always telling Daesung how he felt, whether it be good or bad.

Daesung traced a finger over Seunghyun's lips and whispered his name, “Seunghyun?”

Seunghyun leaned into his fingertips, kissing the rough pads before answering him, “Yes?”

“I really have you now? No more games, no more obstacles?” Daesung breathed out heavily, he had many opportunities to be close to Seunghyun, but of those times felt as real as it did right now. At this moment in time it felt like they were finally one, like they finally belonged.

“No more anything, I think we're ready to move on.” Seunghyun looked dreamily at the wall while he still held Daesung in his arms.

Daesung untangled himself from Seunghyun's arms and walked over to his backpack. He held up his hand to shush Seunghyun and pulled out his notebook, “Remember when you were looking through my notebook?”

Seunghyun nodded his head and walked over to Daesung, “Yeah why?”

“Remember the drawings?”

“Yes.”

Daesung flipped through the pages of his notebook till he found the pages that were filled with his mindless doodles, “Here, take a second look.” he handed the notebook to him, “You were right, they were about you.”

“I told you.” he looked at the drawings for the second time, the eyes, there were a lot of drawings of eyes, “Are these mine?”

“Yeah.” Daesung cleared his throat, “I like, your eyes” he blushed, he felt like he had just said that to a crush he had just spoken to for the first time.

“You do huh?” Seunghyun walked over to Daesung and leaned closer to him, only a few inches from his face, “Do you like them now?” he bat his eyelashes an smiled cutely.

Daesung leaned forward as well and made a look as if he was thinking, “You know now that I see them up close, they're alright.”

Seunghyun pouted, “They're more than alright.” he stuck out his tongue then Daesung's lips before pulling back.

“Gross!” Daesung playfully wiped his lips and laughed, “You know I love everything about you.” he wrapped his arms around Seunghyun's neck and kissed his cheek. All he wanted to do was touch him and hold him, “Seunghyun.”

“Hmm?”

“I love you.”

Seunghyun put his hands on Daesung's waist and stepped back, “I love you too Daesung.” his leg touched the bed and he sat down and looked up at him.

“No, I love you.” he kissed his temple, “I love every part of you.” he kissed all over his face and pushed Seunghyun down on the bed while still kissing him.

Seunghyun smiled through the kisses he was receiving, “Daesung.” he moved his head to the side as he was being bombarded with kisses on his face.

“Yes Seunghyun?”

“If you keep kissing me like this we might not make it out of here for a while.”

“What does a while entail?”

Seunghyun smirked, “Maybe a day or two.”

Daesung laughed, almost giggled at what Seunghyun was implying. He slipped his hands underneath Seunghyun's shirt and winked at him, “I thought we weren't ready.”

“Did I say that?” Seunghyun leaned up and kissed Daesung, “I said that when we weren't, when I wasn't, when you weren't. Now it's different, you love me and I love you. We can admit that right?”

“Yes I love you.”

“And I love you, so can we stop thinking? I'm tired of thinking, I just want to act on impulse now; I want you. I...really want you.”

Daesung touched Seunghyun's lips with his fingertips and sighed. He had wanted to hear Seunghyun say something like that for a long time. What he wanted was Seunghyun as much as Seunghyun wanted him. Seunghyun was right, expressing your love through words was one thing, but the physical part he needed, that they both needed. “Are you sure?”

“Look who's taking precaution now.” Seunghyun smiled, “Let's make it right.”

“Now?”

Seunghyun frowned, “No, I want to make it special. I've always wanted to make it special between us. Give me some time, let me think of a way to make it special.”

“No matter what, it'll always be special; as long as it's with you, but what are you planning Seunghyun?”

“That's for me to know and for you to find out.” Seunghyun sat up, “I always thought it would be romantic.”

Daesung laughed at the thought of Seunghyun actually romanticizing their first time. He didn't really think that that matched their relationship, “Romantic?”

“Naw that's not my scene, anyways, I was thinking that maybe we could do something tonight.”

“What about curfew?”

“We'll sneak out.”

“How will we get back in?”

“I have my ways.”

“And what ways are those?”

Seunghyun gave him a quirky grin, “Asking Seungri to let us in.”

Daesung gave Seunghyun a conspirative look then took a glance at the time, “It's almost night time now, you think we can really do it?”

Seunghyun rolled over and sat up, “Of course let's go now.”

“Now?”

“Now.” Seunghyun got up and grabbed Daesung's hand, “We'll have fun you and me, like it should be.” he leaned down and kissed him, “Like we should have done a long time ago.”

Daesung sighed and placed Seunghyun's hand on his cheek. He knew they needed this, something light to keep their minds of off things, “Okay, let's go.”

Seunghyun grinned and put on his shoes and waited for Daesung to do so as well then grabbed his wallet, “It'll be great let's go.” he grabbed his hand and pulled him out the dorms and down the corridors, he had no real agenda as he just wanted to spend time with Daesung. They never had any time together, they never did anything that was fun together because they were either arguing or drowning in their sorrows. Seunghyun was tired of that, he just wanted Daesung now.

They quietly walked out of the dorms hand in hand, it was nice for them to be out together. Daesung leaned on Seunghyun, his head resting on his shoulder with his hand curled in Seunghyun's. A smile graced Seunghyun's lips, he let go of Daesung's hand and wrapped it around his shoulders, loving the warmth that Daesung gave him. Seunghyun couldn't keep the smile from playing on his lips, all he had ever wanted was Daesung in his arms and loving. He had let go and now he had him all to himself, and he wouldn't let him go.

He looked at the street lights and smiled mischievously taking Daesung by the waist and pulling him behind a wall. Seunghyun's lips met Daesung's, lips trailing to chin and neck, “I need you Daesung, just a taste, that's all I need right now.” Daesung was surprised at first at Seunghyun's forceful kisses and needy hands but he quickly recovered and kissed him back feverishly back.

Their bodies were pressed close, oblivious to the awkwardness that would come if someone caught them making out in an alleyway, hands roaming everywhere and lips making wet trails across their faces. Seunghyun sighed, Daesung being in his arms was like this was addicting, he was his drug and he didn't think that he would ever be able to taper off him. His hands moved to Daesung's back pockets, pressing him closer to him, “Daesung, baby.”

Daesung hummed moving his lips down Seunghyun's jaw and pressing himself against his body. He waited, hands moving up Seunghyun's sides. Daesung smiled against Seunghyun's skin, wishing their bodies could be closer.

Seunghyun moved his lips to Daesung's throat, momentarily forgetting what he was going to say, “I love you.” he smiled at the quiet laugh he got from Daesung, such sweet musical laughter.

“Seunghyun!” Daesung laughed, Seunghyun's hands had moved up his shirt tickling his stomach and eliciting tingles up his spine. “Mmm, Seunghyun.” his voice lowered and his body ached as Seunghyun touched his sensitive spots.

Seunghyun stopped, his hands moving outside of Daesung's shirt and encircling around his waist. He closed his eyes and laid his chin on Daesung's shoulder, “I love you so much, I love you.”

Daesung smiled as he his hair and made sure he stayed close, “I know Seunghyun, I can never forget about how much you love me. You've always made it clear about how much you've loved, and I'm lucky for that.”

A childish whine sounded from Seunghyun in disagreement, “I'm lucky to have you, so lucky.” he kissed all over Daesung's face, “There is no one I love more than you. You love me too right?” he looked up, eyes shining and doubt showing.

Daesung sighed pulling Seunghyun close to him and combing his hands through his hair, “Of course I love you, don't doubt that I love you. You're my everything Seunghyun, you're everything to me.”

Seunghyun sighed, eyes closing and lips trembling, “We'll always be together, right? You and me just you and me forever.”

“Yes Seunghyun, you and me forever.”

Seunghyun leaned back against the wall, hands pressing against it to cool his heated body. He breathed for a second sand rubbed his eyes before grabbing Daesung's hand and pulling him out of the alleyway, “Let's go.” he bent down and kissed him on the cheek and savoring his taste.

“Seunghyun are you okay?”

“I am, as long as I have you I will always be okay.” Seunghyun dragged him into a store and pulled him to the back, “Look at these, I saw them before and I thought of you.” he smiled a cheesy smile, “I thought of us you know?”

Daesung took the ring that Seunghyun was holding and smiled up at him, “An infinity ring? For forever right?” he looked around and kissed Seunghyun on the lips, “It's us baby.”

Seunghyun plucked the ring out of his hand and twirled it around his pinky, “When I think of us I always think of forever.”

“I think of forever too. I think of us all the time.”

“Let me pay for this, stay here, I'll be right back.” he gave him a quick kiss and walked to the cash register.

Daesung crossed his arms and watched Seunghyun pay for the ring. He smiled, a bright smile, as Seunghyun looked back at him mimicking the smile on Daesung's face then walked over to him, pulling him farther to the back into the changing rooms. Daesung covered his mouth to muffle his laughter.

“Daesung you're so y, I can't keep my hands off of you, though I want to wait.” he kissed Daesung on the neck and his collarbone, causing excited sounds from Daesung. “And you taste so good.”

Daesung groaned and stepped away from Seunghyun, “You're such a tease, you won't have me till you think it's right. Don't say such things unless you'll have me now.”

“Somehow I think you wouldn't mind it if we did it right here right now.”

“I wouldn't.” Daesung smirked, “Anywhere, anytime, you can have me.”

Seunghyun chuckled and sidestepped Daesung, “Let's get out of here before you get any ideas.” he slipped the ring on Daesung's pinky finger as it to small for his ring finger and bit his lip, “You're all mine, now and forever.”

“Yes all yours.” Daesung walked out of the store with Seunghyun and waved at cashier as they were leaving then quickly slipped his hand in his when they started walking down the street again. Most of the stores were closed, the only things that were out were the streetlights and fast food restaurants that never seemed to close.

“I'm so happy Daesung.”

Daesung's breath caught in his throat, that what he wanted hear, that Seunghyun was happy. “Well I'm happy that you're happy.” he placed a hand over his mouth and stopped, causing Seunghyun to wonder what was up and why he stopped walking so suddenly.

Seunghyun looked at Daesung; worry etched across his face, “Daesung?” he smoothed his cheeks and removed Daesung's hand away from his mouth to see his lips trembling and his eyes shining with unshed tears, “Oh, Daesung, don't be emotional. I'm the one that's supposed to be overemotional not you.” he tried kissing his cheeks to keep the tears from shedding but it seemed like the gesture only caused them to fall. Seunghyun grunted as Daesung's arms wrapped around him with what seemed like a purpose to squeeze the life out of him.

“We're both overemotional, I'm just happy that you're happy.” he coated Seunghyun's shirt with his tears and shook violently from the force of his emotions.

“There should only be one of us that should shed tears, I've already volunteered myself, I've cried enough for the both of us.” he grinned and lifted Daesung's chin up, kissing the salty tears, and wiping them away. He chuckled, “You're even y when you cry. What a turn on.”

“Shut up, you .” he laughed despite the tears that threatened to coat his cheeks again. He was happy as well; happy that Seunghyun had taken his heart and placed it somewhere special as Daesung did with his. He smiled, standing there underneath the city lights with Seunghyun like there was nothing else in the world that he wanted to do.

Seunghyun's voice became soft as he looked at Seunghyun, “Yeah, let me see that smile.”

Daesung beamed, just for him he would smile as bright as he could, “I'll always smile for you.” he wanted to say so much more and get everything off of his chest about how he felt for Seunghyun, but there were no words, no descriptions that could possibly say how he felt for him. Their love was the most complicated thing that he had ever had to deal with. It was bad and good, it healed and destroyed them both and neither of them could ever part from another. “Let's go back to our dorm.”

Seunghyun nodded and took Daesung's hand and guided him back to the college campus, he pulled out his cell phone and dialed Seungri's number so he could help them get back in the dorms without causing too much trouble or noise.

When Seungri saw the two he winked and nodded his head in approval, letting them in without a single word because Seunghyun was giving him warning glares.

Daesung stifled his laughter at the two and then dragged Seunghyun away from Seungri so they could get some sleep in their dorm. Once they got in Daesung sat on the bed and slipped off his shirt and jeans and motioned for Seunghyun to do the same too.

Seunghyun laid next to Daesung and sighed dramatically.

“What's up love?” Daesung turned to him and laid a hand over his chest and slipped it down to rest over his navel.

“You're body will be the death of me Daesung, I swear it.”

“That's what you're sighing about?” he kissed his chest and slid his hand lower, “Well if you would just give in...”

Seunghyun groaned; taking Daesung's hand and kissing his knuckles, “No, it has to be special.”

“Why?”

“Because I said so, the longer we wait, the better it will be.” he shut his eyes forcefully, “I'll sleep on the top bunk if you insist on touching me there.”

Daesung begrudgingly moved his hand and draped his arm over Seunghyun's chest, “You've been a tease all night, I might just dump you for that.”

“And miss finally having me? Yeah I don't think so, you love me and my body too much.” he turned his head towards Daesung, his eyes still shut, “I'm way too y for you to leave me.”

“You cocky bastard, but you are right, I do love you too much leave you.” Daesung closed his eyes as well, complacent with the idea that he would not be getting what he wanted tonight, “You better do whatever you're planning soon or I might just have to jump you when you least expect it.”

“Yeah I hear you.” he hushed Daesung and willed him to go to sleep and he himself tried to sleep as well but not before saying one last thing, “I'm so y.”

Daesung pinched him, “Shut up.”

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