TAEYEON’S POV

Once again I noticed that the food that was served on the dining table was left untouched. A sigh was let out. I felt like crying but I didn’t know why the tears won’t come out. I guessed they were stuck somewhere in my tear ducts.

Why is Jonghyun acting like this? Since the day we got home from my parents’ house, he was different. Different as in different different. I threw my gaze at the person who was hurting my heart deeply. It was like he just stabbed a knife straight to my heart and let it bled to death.

“Why didn’t you eat?” My feet brought me to the living room where Jonghyun was reading his newspaper. I took a sit on the sofa in front of him.

Jonghyun lifted his face from the newspaper. Nothing came out from his mouth to answer my simple question. And yeah, the pain inside my heart grew even worse when he continued reading his newspaper, totally ignoring my existence.

I just wished that the tears would come gushing down from my orbs so that Jonghyun will notice how hurt I am now. Am I invisible to him? Can’t he answer that one simple question from me? Why is he acting like this? Why is he giving me this cold treatment? Is this a payback for what happened before we went to my parents’ house?

“Fine…” I can’t stand the silence anymore. I don’t want to cry in front of him. He wouldn’t care. I am nothing for him. Immediately I stood up and made my way upstairs, trying to comfort the pain that was killing me slowly.

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JONGHYUN’S POV

After Taeyeon’s figure disappeared from my eyes, I let out a sigh. I knew I was cruel for treating her like this but honestly I do feel like she needed to taste her own medicine. Didn’t she realize that I was hurt because of her action? Didn’t she realize I love her way too much to even face her after what had happened between us?

“Is it that torturing being married to me?”

“Is marrying me an ultimate hell for you?”

“Is being my wife a major catastrophe for you Lee Taeyeon?”

I wish she could have answered no for every question that I’ve uttered that day. I wish she could deny everything that slipped from my mouth. I wish she would say that marrying me is a major ecstasy for her. I wish she would say that marrying me is like the best thing that could ever happen to her. I wish she would say that marrying me is a blessing in disguise.

Lee Jonghyun, snap out of this! You know for sure that will never happen. Not in this lifetime Jonghyun. Not ever! Stop dreaming that Lee Taeyeon will ever feel the same way as you did. She will never reciprocate your feeling. Enough is enough, Lee Jonghyun. Stop hoping for something that is way way too impossible to happen.

“This kind of thing can’t be rush, dude. Patience is a must.”

Patience? For how much longer should I stay patience with her attitude? I’m just a normal human being. I ain’t a saint. My patience is getting thinner and thinner with each single day passing by.

“Divorce! Don’t ever dare to go that way, Jonghyun!”

Divorce? I’ve thought of that. But that was way back then. Way before I fell in love with her. Way before we bonded over ramen and coffee. I love Lee Taeyeon with all my heart and soul. I couldn’t let her slip away from my heart. I couldn’t stand the fact to lose her from my life.

“I know this is hard for you but take it slowly bro. Give her some time. Give you yourself some time.”

Should I take things slowly? Should I give her some time? Should I step up and put a lot of more efforts in our relationship? Or should I distance myself so that she would know how I feel when she was giving me the cold shoulder? Maybe then, she would realize that I mean som