Never say Goodbye
She was Loved [ INCOMPLETE ]
{* SUJU *}
"WHAT!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE WON'T COME. . HE'S THE FIRST ONE WHO SHOULD BE THERE!!! !!! " Kangin was yelling as he was about to grab Eunhyuk, but Donghae quickly stepped in stopping him. The members sat in silence, the once happy atmosphere quickly became cold, they were confused, they all thought Leeteuk would be meeting with them. .
May 01
{*SNSD*} press conference
The girls stood still as they heard they can hear the faint sounds of clicking cameras, and the whispers behind the door . They stood still with their hearts racing, with just a door separating them from what seemed the whole world. This was the first time since Taeyeons death they were going to show themselves. . this was certainly the hardest thing they have done. Now they stand together as they put on brave faces. . .
>><<. . We will now start the press conference with SNSD. . >><<
"Are you girls ready?" Sunny looked over at everyone, she was fighting her tears back, "Lets be strong. .this shouldn't take so long. . lets just get this over with. .". .Hyoyeon smiled with tears in her eyes, "Yah~ no tears. . . "
The doors swung open, and simultaneously thousands off flashes went off as the girls walked onto the platform together. . for the first time with out their leader. .
"Hello thank you for coming today. . first of all we want to state we will not be answering any questions directly. .if you wish to ask questions you can go ahead and do so after with Mrs. Park our SM representative"
"So we'll begin"
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"We want to thank all of our fans and fellow idols and everyone else who showed us love and support during this hard time. . We also want to apologize again to our fans for canceling the Japan tour. "
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"The leader position will not be taken over by anyone . . . Taeyeon will always hold that title. . So please don't create any rumors . . No one is taking over anything. . "
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"SM will not be breaking up or disbanding SNSD . . We will continue to be on hiatus . . ."
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" . . I hope everyone can continue respecting our privacy. .not only ours but the rest of our label mates and the rest of our family. . "
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"We have decided to go overseas for a while. . we will be going together. .but not to promote as a group"
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"We don't expect anyone to approve but try to understand and respect our decision. . "
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"As for our fans. we want to thank you all again . we have no right to ask you to wait for us. . but we hope when we return you can all show us the same love and support"
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We won't say goodbye. .because this isn't the end. .
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thank you . .
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this is has been. . So Nyeo Shi Dae. . .
May 01
Leeteuk was sitting in the living room, as he stared at the tv blankly, he couldn't stand watching it anymore, he felt his heart being torn, as he saw the girls sit there with brave faces as they faced the cameras they were trying so hard. . yet he couldn't bring himself to go . . because if he did it would only confirming this was all real and Taeyeon was really gone.
Leeteuk turned off the tv and went outside on the patio, he needed to breathe, he felt everything was building up in his chest, he felt like he was suffocating from all of this. . .
Suddenly he felt a pair of warm hands rest on his shoulder, he looked behind him, it was his mother. He forced a smile, "Mom you shouldn't be outside. . you're going to get sick again. . "
She smiled at him widely,"It was just a cold. ." she sat down besides him and looked at him, examining his face closely , "Even though you are my son, sometimes I forget how handsome you are. ."she laughed at him weakly, "I'm glad you're home. . "
Leeteuk heart broke hearing those words. . . . "Mom. .I made you so lonely all these years right?" his voice began to tremble, he reached for her hand, " . I bought this house for you but I never came home to visit you. . I always gave you so much trouble . . I'm sorry " he began to cry, " . .I'm sorry for barely realizing how precious our family is. . "
His mother wrapped her around him, "JungSu. . I'm not that lonely.. I have your sister here with me. . she's still here causing some trouble" She laughed as she wiped his tears away, "I don't know why she told you I was sick. . its just a cold. .but I'm really happy that you're here . .theres nothing to be sorry about JungSu . ."
Leeteuk looked up at her, he can hear the pain in her voice, he looked at her, seeing how much she has aged, "Mom. . I know in the past I said that I didn't know the value of family. . but I will become someone who can protect our family. . . Are you proud of who've I become?". . He cried as he looked into her eyes. how many years has it been since I took a moment to share with her. .how many years has it been that I had been able to sit down and talk to her not as Leeteuk from Super Junior, as Park Jung Su her son. .
He cried harder as he realize how much he has actually lost sight of from pursuing his dream . .
"Of course I'm proud of you my son. . .you left home at such a young age. and for 5 years you trained so hard not even knowing if you were going to debut, you made it this far Jungsu. . I was so proud of you when I saw you stand on stage for the first time. .You've become someone that is well known . . you already brought so much honor to our family. . You're always going to be my son. .I'm always going to be proud of you. . "
Leeteuk cried in his mothers arms, how he missed her embrace. . She patted his back as he cried. . her heart felt pained, she could see it in his eyes and she knew the very reason why he was so tormented . .
". . she was very beautiful. . "She whispered . . .
Leeteuk quickly pulled himself away from his mom as he looked at her with a confused expression.
". . She died so young. . " She looked at him, and caressed his cheek, as tears fell from his eyes, "JungSu. . you loved her didn't you?. . .Kim Taeyeon. . . . The look in your eyes when you brought her home, the way you looked at her. it was the first time I saw you like that. .She had a good heart. .and the way she looked at you. . "
Leeteuk cried not wanting to hear what his mother was going to say ". But. I broke her heart. .I didn't realize how much I did loved her. .but now that she's gone I feel an emptiness that can't be filled. . I feel like I can't breathe anymore. . I brought her so much pain and sadness . .I saw it in her eyes, but I denied it. . I left her that night without telling her how much she meant to me. . " He cried as he clenched his fist. . "She loved some one like me to the end. . "
"Son. . you can't turn back the hands of time. . she's gone, you're going to have to let go of all of your regrets. . and try to embrace the loving memories you shared with her. . if she loved you to the end. . then you have to learn how to let go of that pain. . " She grabbed his hand and held it tightly, "you should go now, go see your members and your friends. . you have to return back to base soon" She smiled as she wiped his tears again. .
" . go to her and tell her what you couldn't . . "
A/N: this chapter turned out horrible. ( im sorry ) . Did it make sense? .
ANYWAYS. . . I'll worker a lot harder because. . .
Next chapter is a Leeteuk chapter . . :O :O >.<
:O !!!!!! :(( ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
thanks for reading !!
yes its ending. . .
thanks again everyone . .take care !!!! <3
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* i noticed I do well on chapters that don't involve so many people(characters). . .
*why do I keep thinking about ANGSty stories T^T . . . .I think my happiness is broken lol hahha (*sob sob*)
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