Chanyeol's POV

"My elder brother... Park Chanmin..." 

His name brought a smile to my face. The sound of his laughter rang in my ears. His face swam before my eyes. Forgotten memories resurfaced. Without wanting to, I drowned in them. 

"Park Chanmin." Pooja said in a tone which willed me to open up to her. 

"Park Chanmin... Have you heard of him?" I asked, staring out of the window at the banyan tree that swayed gently with the wind. 

"Maybe." she answered, following my gaze.

"He was like that tree." I said softly, staring at it with a sadness which was strangely new to me. It was like a warm cot, beckoning me closer. I wanted to come closer and lie in its gentle embrace and feel my feelings wash away, "He was my rock. He was my root." 

She didn't say anything. As of that moment, I was lost in my own world.

"Do you know what it's like..." I murmured and became silent.

"What?" she said in a gentle voice.

"Do you know what it's like..." I repeated, "To have your roots snatched away."

It was not meant to be a question but she answered, "Tell me Chanyeol. Tell me what it is like."

I closed my eyes for a brief moment and found myself back in the memories I had forced myself to bury in a deep crevice in my mind. It seems they had not been buried deep enough for touched once, they resurfaced wirth an urge to take over my mind. I felt like I wanted to let them. So I let myself talk as I lost myself completely.

"Hyuuuuuuung!" a little head poked up from beside the desk.

Chanmin hyung turned to me with a smile and said in a singsong voice, "Yeeees dongsaeeeeeng?" 

"Hyung you promised to play ball with me today." I pouted and offered up a ball to him.

He chuckled and ruffled my hair, "I'm sorry Chanyeol. I have to go to the hospital today. We have some very important patients to attend to." 

His face was kind as it always was, wearing the same serene smile he always wore. 

I made a sad face, in an attempt to get him to stay.

"Come now. Give me a smile." he said but I shook my head defiantly. 

"Where are those dimples now?" he said, checking all the pockets of his shirt and pants but suddenly he sprang up and grabbed me, tickling me. I couldn't hold my laughter in any longer and I burst out and rolled on the floor.

"There." Hyung said and got up, taking his bag and walking towards the door. 

"I love you Hyung!" I yelled behind him. 

"I love you too Chanyeol baby~" he said in a mocking voice as I ran up and jumped onto his back.

"Grow up quickly Chanyeol ah. What will you do if Hyung goes away?"

"I'll find you." I said in a resolute tone. 

He didn't say anything and grinned at me, putting me down and heading towards the door silently. I watched his back with a proudday grin on my face.

My brother was a trauma specialist. He was only 22 but he had graduated early and already done so much. He was saving lives. He was my hero. I wanted to be just like him. 

He was my kind brother. The one who could solve any problem for me. The one who would listen to anything. The one who would protect me. He protected my dream too. I wanted to be just like him. Everyone said he was amazing. My elder brother, Park Chanmin. Chanmin Hyung.

I opened my eyes for a second. They were b with tears. I felt empty inside. Hollow. There was a bottomless pit in my heart. I had always tried to cover it and inch around it. But this time, I had fallen in.

I didn't say anything and stared at the banyan tree, gently swaying to and fro as if telling me to go on. But that memory. I didn't want to touch that memory yet.

"What happened Chanyeol?" Pooja asked.

I kept staring at the tree. It was time. It was time to finally go back to that day. 

Gulping once, I kept staring at the tree but my vision was out of focus. 

"Everything." I murmured, "Everything was taken away."

 

Whoa. z man. I updated. I haven't updated since April! How many months is that! `