“DooJoon wake up” Gi Kwang pushes DooJoon of the couch and he falls onto the floor with a loud bang.

“Why?” DooJoon whines and pushes himself up rubbing his head “You forgave me already! Why are you pushing me?” he yarns and frowns

“Well shaking you didn’t work” Gi Kwang leans his elbows on the back and smirks “Yelling at you didn’t work either so I was running out of ideas”

DooJoon grunts and looks around. A pout forms on his lips and he starts looking unhappy.

“What?” Gi Kwang frowns

“I just remembered I got shot down for the first time in my life” DooJoon lies back on the floor hiding his face in his hands and stomps “Just kill me”

Gi Kwang shakes his head “I had no idea you would be that pathetic, DooJoon everyone gets shot down once in a while”

“I don’t” DooJoon sighs and turns his head to look at Gi Kwang “Never before have anyone turned me down”

“Karma DooJoon” Gi Kwang doesn’t really feel that bad for DooJoon who seems to be feeling plenty sorry for himself.

“What do you mean karma?” DooJoon frowns

Gi Kwang huffs “Are you seriously asking me that? Why is it he turned you down?”

DooJoon looks away “I get it”

“No I think you should say it out loud” Gi Kwang coldly says

DooJoon takes a deep breath “I don’t see the point”

“DooJoon you are so stubborn!” Gi Kwang snaps “You want my help or what? You can just go back to being a jerk again if that is what you want!”

DooJoon sits up and ruffles his hair “I’m not… that bad…” he sends a glance to Gi Kwang and then sighs and looks down “Sorry”

Gi Kwang shakes his head and looks away “DooJoon what do you actually want?”

DooJoon moves up on the couch and rubs his temples “I don’t know”

Gi Kwang shakes his head again “What about Uruha? Was it just in the moment? You couldn’t get what you want so you were ready to take it and now you are over him?”

DooJoon sits silently and thinks. He frowns and moves a hand to his chest rubbing the spot over his heart. Gi Kwang takes his silence as a sign that he might have just hit the nail on the spot.

“I…” DooJoon tries to really feel what goes on in him but it isn’t something he normally does and he can’t seem to make much sense of it.

“DooJoon you told Uruha you were in love with him. You practically forced yourself on him and now you are over it! Is it really that strange that he was afraid of getting hurt!” Gi Kwang yells

DooJoon lowers his head “I’m not… over it” his voice is low and he can’t really recognize it himself. Gi Kwang is just staring at DooJoon.

DooJoon looks down at his hands “When I think about Uruha I just see us laughing together. I want to hold his hands and make sure he always has a smile on his face. I want him to look like he did in the short moment he was happy with me” DooJoon scratches his chest “When you woke me up I was dreaming about us watching a movie together. How stupid as that?” he smiles a little “Just the idea of sitting in a couch with him watching him laughing about something stupid while I’m holding his hand… I don’t even care that he is a guy all that just have to work out because…”

“Hold it” Gi Kwang frowns “Are you saying that you aren’t wanting him for ?”

DooJoon looks a bit awkward “I don’t even know how to be with a guy. It scares the out of me to be honest”

Gi Kwang laughs and pushes DooJoon “You are a weird one DooJoon”

DooJoon smiles crookedly and frowns “It’s not that I don’t find him attractive. He is very beautiful but I really have no idea what to do with… that”

“I bet Uruha knows” Gi Kwang chuckles

DooJoon frowns “Right…” he starts feeling a bit annoyed and crosses his arms “He has been with other guys…”

Gi Kwang raises an eyebrow “Are you getting jealous?”

DooJoon scratches his head with both hands “Yes and it annoys the hell out of me”

Gi Kwang laughs again “Like you are so innocent”

“I know I’m not but to me it is only and doesn’t mean . Uruha being who he is he must have cared for the ones he has been with” DooJoon kicks the table more annoyed than before.

Gi Kwang reaches out and pats DooJoon on the back “You are probably right”

“I only want him to care for me!” DooJoon snaps and hides his face in his hands “I hate feeling like this! He is just a person, just some bloody guy why am I getting so messed up over him?!”

Gi Kwang smiles a little “Love does that” he pats DooJoon on the back again before getting up and walks towards the kitchen. DooJoon frowns and looks after Gi Kwang “Have you been in love?”

“Off course I have” Gi Kwang says shortly

“Not in Uruha right?” DooJoon mumbles

“No… Uruha… Maybe if he hadn’t been so in love with you I might have been but I could see it would be hopeless” he smiles at DooJoon who doesn’t really seem to feel better hearing that.

“Who then? You never told me” DooJoon tilts his head

“Like I was gonna” Gi Kwang smirks back at him “You who always says love is nothing more than a bad idea someone made up”

“Well right now it doesn’t really seem like a good one!” DooJoon snaps and gets up from the couch following Gi Kwang “Who were you in love with?”

“It doesn’t matter” Gi Kwang opens the fridge and fishes out some food

“Yes it does” DooJoon frowns “Gi Kwang why didn’t you tell me you had a girlfriend?”

“I didn’t” Gi Kwang looks at DooJoon

“A boyfriend?” DooJoon crosses his arms and leans against the counter. He has known for a long time that Gi Kwang swings both ways and he never had a problem with it. He loves Gi Kwang as a brother even though they don’t always see eye to eye and he is actually a bit hurt that Gi Kwang don’t think he could tell him stuff like him being in love.

Gi Kwang sighs “No it was a girl and nothing ever came of it and I don’t really want to talk about it”

“Why not?” DooJoon starts becoming insistent

“Because it’s really none of your business!” Gi Kwang snaps

DooJoon huffs “Right…”

“Go take a shower DooJoon. You smell” Gi Kwang waves a hand and scowls at DooJoon.

DooJoon nods “I’m sorry you don’t feel like you can tell me something like that”

“Just go take the bloody shower” Gi Kwand grunts and watch DooJoon walk away. He turns his attention back to the food “Nothing happened with me and her because she met you DooJoon” he mumbles. A deep sigh from him seems to bring the normally cosy atmosphere down. He looks over his shoulder while tapping his finger on the counter.

“You want to change…? Well first step would be to realize just how bad you have been acting”