Oh like hell he is!

Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

DooJoon really has to focus when he does his job this night. He keeps looking at Uruha and for the first time he really sees how beautiful Uruha is and he notice how many are looking at Uruha, guys and girls. It is disgusting to him to see all those people looking at Uruha with hungry eyes.

He can’t stand it for long and tries to keep his eyes down But he keeps drifting off and finds himself starring at Uruha twisting and turning his body in ways that always did baffled DooJoon and it isn’t failing to do the exact same thing now. Uruha is not a small guy. He is taller than both Aoi and Seungho but he is very slim and has more grace in his movements than most girls he knows combined.

DooJoon frowns and looks back down. He has to focus on his job.

He wishes Uruha would show him the same attention he used to. He misses having him hanging on his back, he misses the small gestures and he misses Uruha asking him to date him. He frowns wondering how he could have been so blind. He feels horrible for all the times he has talked about girls in front of Uruha, the times he has walked with a girl when Uruha was around. He mentally slaps himself for not realizing how painful it is to watch the one you care about with someone else. Uruha must have been so miserable.

Uruha does his thing like usual. He loves being on stage doing what he does best but his mind is elsewhere. He is worried about DooJoon. He hopes DongHae is right and that DooJoon really is jealous but DooJoon just looked way to sick for that to be it. He spins sending a glance at DooJoon who is busy looking down.

In the break Uruha seeks up to Donghae who quickly brings him a drink and then smiles “So? How is he acting?”

“Sick” Uruha mumbles

“Sick?” DongHae frowns

“Really messed up” Uruha nods “I think something else is the matter. He wouldn’t never get like that because of jealousy”

DongHae scratches his neck “Tell you what. Why don’t I come home with you tonight?”

“Why?” Uruha frowns

“I’m just sleeping on the couch. I got a boyfriend” DongHae grins “I’m just thinking that it might give the final push. If it doesn't get an reaction it is something else”

“I don’t know” Uruha frowns. DongHae leans over the counter towards him “I’ll have EunHyuk come over so if it doesn’t work we can figure out what to do”

Uruha sighs “I feel bad for DooJoon. He really looked…” DongHae covers Uruha’s mouth “You are to kind Uruha. DooJoon is a dog and he if he could feel just an inch of the frustration you have been feeling he deserves it”

Uruha smiles slightly “I wouldn’t wish that for him”

“You really are a lost case” DongHae sighs “It’s really too bad he isn’t aware of how great you are”

Uruha sighs “I have to get back” He runs back down and on his way to the stage he passes DooJoon but he can’t bare to look him in the eyes. DooJoon frowns seeing Uruha looking away as he passes him. He feels his heart breaking and just stands there looking at him as he enters the stage. DooJoon sighs and finds his phone closing the door to the backstage room.

“He won’t even look at me now” DooJoon complains again before Min can say a single word

“Hey DooJoon, yes I have time to talk” Min sarcastically answers

“Cut it out. I’m losing it here” DooJoon whines

 “Yeah I can hear that...You really have to tell him how you feel. I can’t help you with this. Tell him you will prove that you have changed”

“I haven’t changed Min. I had a girl over 3 days ago how can I tell him I have changed?” DooJoon rubs his eyes

"Really? I thought you would be too messed up. You were still out of it when I left Monday"

"I know it wasn't really planned but Gi Kwang had just said a lot of things and JunHyung wanted to go out and then I just wanted to feel good about myself"

“Was it good?”

“Why would you ask that now?!” DooJoon yells at the phone

“Just answer” Min says sounding very annoyed

“It ” DooJoon sighs “I just kept thinking about how it was nothing else than all the other girls and I had a hard time actually getting into it…”

“Ever had that problem before?”

“Hell no!” Doojoon says sounding offended

“So…. You changed”

DooJoon frowns “Uhm… I don’t know. It might have been the things Gi Kwang said”

Min sighs “Walk me through it honey”

“There isn’t much to say” DooJoon rubs his temple “Apparently Gi Kwang has a soft spot for Uruha and he basically told me I was a self-absorbed pig who needed a wakeup call. I went out with JunHyung and hooked with the hottest girl in the place, took her home and do what I always do” he sighs and looks at the monitors “Min I feel like my whole world is being torn apart”

“I am not the right one to talk to about this. My world is still very much intact”

DooJoon sighs “Min what am I gonna do?”

“Well… Tell him… What do you have to lose?”

“My dignity” DooJoon mumbles

“You really still have that? Because it doesn’t sound like it” Min chuckles

“Nice Min… Really nice” DooJoon huffs somewhat offended.

“Let me know what happens okay”

“Yea yea” DooJoon hangs up and looks at the time realizing that his break ended 10 minutes ago and he quickly returns to the stage. Ruki gives him a whack over the head for being late.

When the place is shutting down Uruha walks out and changes. He makes sure to be slow so DooJoon can catch up with him. His heart is beating like crazy and his nerves are all over the place.

“Uruha” DooJoon comes in looking like he has been searching for something, he looks into the eyes that has been avoiding him all day and the increasing beating of his heart tells him that no matter how much he would like to deny that he has fallen for a guy that is exactly what has happened “I have to talk to you” he walks over to Uruha who looks at him and nods.

“Listen” DooJoon starts but gets cut off when DongHae comes in with a big grin “Uruha are you ready?”

 “Uhm yeah but…” Uruha was gonna say he just had to talk to DooJoon but DongHae already pulled him away “I’m so excited that I don’t have to drive all the way home”

DooJoon frowns “Why not?”

“Oh I’m staying with Uruha tonight” DongHae grins and pulls Uruha out. Uruha smiles shyly and waves a hand. DooJoon stares after them with a dropped jaw “Staying with…” He stands like that for a while until a snap in his head gets him back to reality “Oh like hell he is!” He runs out without having changed, forgetting everything and just runs.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dadadadammmmm What will DooJoon do now?

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Mianits #1
Chapter 32: Oh my! I'm sooo loving this story! Please keep it up ♥
-Angela-Zhang- #2
Chapter 28: This is very interesting...I remember a part about Uruha having relationship problems, himself, although of a different nature than Doojoon's.
What is it that Doojoon will have to find out?
hehe~ you seem to be deliberately putting Doojoon back into his arrogant, protective character ^^ I like how they are mutually submissive ^^ It suggests the equality that ought to be in a real relationship :)
That's one thing I particularly like about this story- the characters' reactions and the way in which Doojoon and Uruha are progressing with their relationship.
I'm very interested by this "secret detail" that seems to be undisclosed to Doojoon, though. Hopefully it won't have a negative impact on his and Uruha's new relationship...
-Angela-Zhang- #3
Chapter 27: And I forgot to mention- your writing has improved a lot since the beginning of the story ^^
-Angela-Zhang- #4
Chapter 27: I certainly have enjoyed this chapter just as much as the last^^
I hadn't ever really thought of it, but now that it seems as though Doojoon is being portrayed as the delicate one in the relationship, or, as a commonplace term, the "submissive", I can say that I find this newfound fragility in Doojoon to be quite tasteful. It's really quite a nice inversion; a stray away from the conventionality of what might be expected from any pairing involving Doojoon and I really like it ^^ Somehow, it certainly seems much more realistic that someone as unsure of himself, as frightened and as estranged from love as Doojoon is, would need someone to take care of him both physically and emotionally. And it just seems appropriate that that someone is Uruha, no matter how pretty or "girly" Uruha's appearance might make him out to be.
It seems like a theme in this story- not judging someone by their appearances or reputation ^^ Like how "player" and "manly" Doojoon certainly has a full range of emotions, as does anyone else, and is by far much more hurt than anyone would ever have perceived. And how Uruha, who seems to be publicly more of a flamboyant type of person, attentive to his implied feminine appearance seems to be the one who can offer Doojoon a sense of safety and protection that he seems not to have ever had before.
Uruha kissing Doojoon's palm is such a tender moment in the story ^^ And, having read and written some mpreg, myself, Uruha wrapping his arms around Doojoon's stomach gave me a faint impression of Doojoon having a baby or something hehe~ ^^' (my mind out of wraps...) but a very loving gesture, indeed ^^
-Angela-Zhang- #5
Chapter 26: Hehe~ second time reading this chapter today ^^
Doojoon is so cute when he was crying and wanting his Uruha ^^ poor Doojoon... He thought he messed up again...
I'm so happy about this chapter (⌒▽⌒)
-Angela-Zhang- #6
Chapter 26: Yes, yes YES!!!!!!! :D
This chapter made my day, even though it's just starting ^^
I'm so glad it wasn't Doojoon's fault and that girl is just horrible DX.
Yay!!! Uruha asked Doojoon out again!! :D
They're already so cute together and poor Doojoon when he wanted 'his' Uruha ^^ he seems so fragile in this chapter and I liked that ^^
-Angela-Zhang- #7
Chapter 25: Oh no...! :(
Doojoon...! What have you done...?!
I have a pretty bad feeling for how things are going to go for Doojoon now... Actually not so much in terms of a relationship, but I think Doojoon himself is going to suffer a lot with what happened...I feel like he's going to give up on himself, not just on a relationship with Uruha but give up on himself as a person...
-Angela-Zhang- #8
Chapter 24: This is one of my favorite chapters ^^
I really like Doojoon's dad and how he so easily accepted that his son is in love with a man :)
The chapter was so full of warmth and love and this chapter, more than any other, really shows how Doojoon had changed. It's great to see that he really is love with Uruha and that he's reconciled with his father. It certainly seems necessary for him to love his family before entering into a relationship with Uruha.
It was actually quite striking to hear how Doojoon's father married a year ago and Doojoo wasn't even aware of it. It shows just how distant from those close to him he became.
Hopefully Yoonja's daughter won't give Doojoon a hard time... ^^'
It would be very interesting, indeed, to see Uruha meet Doojoon's parents ^^
and hopefully Doojoon will fnd some solace about his relationship with his mother. That rejection when he was only seven must have been terrible.
-Angela-Zhang- #9
Chapter 23: :'(
What an emotional chapter!! It was great, but poor Doojoon! It seems like this was really the breaking point for him,but I'm actually glad that he got so many negative feelings out in the open. It seemed like a necessary thing to do and now people know exactly how he's feeling. I think it is time that he's given a little more care and support ^^ and I think that the fact that he went to apologize to Donghae shows that he is changing and him pushing Donghae out of the way is proof of the good person that Uruha sees in him :D
I really love the realism in this- how Uruha's not plunging into a relationship, but not giving up on Doojoon, either and how Doojoon's coming to face himself :)
-Angela-Zhang- #10
Chapter 22: <3
Thank you for thinking of me ^^~ And my exams did go well ^^
That's okay! You take your time in updating- I always love reading this story and I will patiently await your updates :D

I was really glad that Uruha and Doojoon privately spoke with each other in this chapter and that Uruha noticed not only the effort that Doojoon has been applying in trying to change, but also how Doojoon's been struggling with a rather rude confrontation of his faults. I think that having bad feelings go unacknowledge by others is just as bad as dealing with those feelings alone and I was happy that Uruha stood up for Doojoon, despite how much trouble Doojoon's put him through. Doojoon certainly does deserve some notice for his genuine efforts to change.
I like how Uruha is just as protective of Doojoon as Doojoon seems to be over Uruha ^^~ And there was really quite a bit of wisdom in this chapter, about having to trust yourself first, before expecting others to trust you.
I think the seriousness with which Uruha told Doojoon that he liked him and shouldn't let people tell him that he's heartless had quite an impact on Doojoon. It seems to me that this may have been one of the first times, if not the only time, that someone has really seen Doojoon's vulnerability and said to still have feelings for him, regardless. It feels like this sort of reassurance and support is not at all something that Doojoon would have received, prior to speaking with Uruha, on account of his mother not being in his life anymore.
hehe~ in my opinion, there should be even more subscribers for this story! ^^ Although there are not many jrock stories on here and even less "cross-overs", I think that there is a significant audience for this and this is a really awesome story ^^
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