I miss him

Who Said It Was Gonna Be Easy?

Later that Sunday DooJoon sits looking at his phone wondering what happened to that text he always get from Uruha.

“Doonie why are you starring at you phone as if it has betrayed you?” Min walks over and starts messaging his shoulders. DooJoon shakes his head with a frown “Why do you keep making uncalled for comparisons?”

“So Uruha…” Min smirks a little

“He usually text me good morning” DooJoon puts the phone on the table and sighs

Min kisses the top of DooJoon’s head “He must really have liked you”. DooJoon turns his head to the side glancing at Min out the corner of his eye.

Min smiles and looks ahead “It doesn’t sound half bad to have someone text you every morning and I wouldn’t mind if someone always took care of me and made me feel special”

“Min I don’t…” DooJoon gets cut off when Min hits him over the head “What was that for?!” he complains and rubs his now sore spot.

“You were gonna say you don’t feel special but you do and you shouldn’t lie to someone who knows you as well as I do” Min grins and shakes his shoulders “You do know you got it pretty damn good right?. No matter how many girls hate you there is always one person who still think you are worth loving”

DooJoon grins “Min there are always girls who thinks that about me”

“Dump frick I mean a person who actually knows you for both your good sides and your bad sides” Min sighs “I would like that”

“Well I don’t have it anymore” DooJoon looks at his phone “But it’s fine I don’t need it. I did fine before him and I’ll do fine now”

Min sighs “What a shame”

DooJoon huffs but inside he in the back of his head he feels like sighing. He remembers 3 months ago when he was sick Uruha came by several times and cooked for him and made sure he ate and drank. DooJoon doesn’t know if he knows anyone else who would do that for him.

“If I was sick… would you take care of me?” DooJoon mumbles

Min frowns and takes a seat next to DooJoon “Honestly I wouldn’t”

DooJoon nods “I don’t think I would either… for anyone”

“Well sick people and they can take care of themselves or they should not have gotten sick. When I get sick I take care of myself and that isn’t a problem” Min slaps her hand in the table “Damn sickness”

DooJoon laughs at her “You are a goofball Min”

“I try my best” She smiles and gets up “Now I’m gonna take a shower. I can do that on my own as well” she pats DooJoon on the back and walks away. DooJoon smiles at the table. He is really happy to spend some time with Min.

But then he looks towards the windows and his smile soon fades. He stands up and walks over to the window looking out in the direction of Uruha’s building. He thinks about Min and what she said about taking care of herself. He sighs deeply.

His thoughts goes back to when he forgot his bracelet and Uruha insisted that he was gonna put it on him. Just a silly little thing that doesn’t mean anything but what it Uruha had just handed it to him and left. DooJoon frowns. That would be what Ruki would have done and probably what Min would have done but Uruha wanted to put it on his wrist and DooJoon did actually kind of enjoy the attention. He never actually liked being alone. He just never really realized it.

DooJoon runs both hands through his hair and starts pacing. When Uruha comes back to him when they are on stage and he slides his hands around DooJoon’s waist and relaxes against his back DooJoon would always smile. Thinking back he can’t remember why but he did.

As DooJoon paces around the room he just keeps thinking about all those small things Uruha does and when Min comes out he turns her way “Min I miss him”

Min holds up a hand “Wait… are you gay?”

“I’m not gay” Uruha pouts

“But you miss a guy?” Min scratches her wet hair

DooJoon walks over towards her “Not a guy I miss Uruha and it’s not like I want to date him because I really don’t want to be with a guy I just want it to go back to how it was before that morning”

Min frowns “You are confusing me DooJoon” She crosses her arms and looks at him “You say you don’t miss a guy you miss Uruha but you won’t date a  guy but Uruha is a  guy so you see my confusion?”

“Somewhat” DooJoon mumbles and frowns

Min nods “Okay so you want this guy non guy Uruha to go back to asking you out all the time and treating you like he did but you don’t want to give him anything in return”

DooJoon lets his shoulder drop “…yea?” He sighs knowing that sounds pathetic.

“Now I’m not really the person to talk about feelings and crap but that hardly seems fair” Min pats him on the shoulder “Do you think it is?”

“No” DooJoon whines and walks over and drops down on the couch “Min I just miss that he cared”

“Then go find a girl and stick with her for once. What about that Krystal? You seemed like you actually liked her” Min sits next to him “I did” DooJoon rubs his neck “But I don’t need a girl”

“No apparently you just need a guy to worship you and you’ll be fine… Good luck with that” Min smirks and gets pushes by DooJoon “You confuse me” he holds his head with both hands and leans back “Can’t I just go back a week and pretend that morning didn’t happen?”

“No” Min sighs “And if you are gonna whine like this I’m not sticking around till Monday after all. What the hell happened to the DooJoon I know?”

“I don’t know. Uruha messed me up” DooJoon kicks the table and grunts

Min looks at DooJoon and in her head she plunders about how unhappy DooJoon is looking. She never actually seen him that unhappy before but at the same time the time she has seen him the happiest was after he started working at L.I.F.E. She always thought that it was just that he was so happy about his work but now she has learned that Uruha has been courting him ever since he started and she can’t help but think that maybe there is a connection.

She sighs quietly and the back of her confused friends head frowning slightly when she realizes that since she came home with him last night she actually feels closer to him than ever. Not in any romantic way but like siblings. Min smiles and tilts her head “DooJoon I don’t think we can ever sleep together again”

“Okay” DooJoon simply mumbles and looks at his hands. A second passes and a frown emerges on forehead and he turns his head her way “I actually agree”

Min smiles “Look at that. Who thought the two of us would be friends and nothing more”

DooJoon laughs slightly and nods “I think this is better”

Min nods “Yeah”

DooJoon laughs again and nods “You are a dog as well you know”

Min nods and kisses his cheek “Maybe even more than you” she leans back and looks at DooJoon who sighs and looks out the window and she knows he is back on that Uruha guy. She smiles at him and thinks in her quiet little mind that she actually wishes DooJoon would give the guy a chance because she has never seen DooJoon so humble and it suits him.

“You’ll be okay” She smiles at DooJoon who softly nods.

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I changed the name and poster again. . . Well I just didn't think I was gonna want to develop it in the way I'm doing now so I had to!!! This is better anyway

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Mianits
#1
Chapter 32: Oh my! I'm sooo loving this story! Please keep it up ♥
-Angela-Zhang-
#2
Chapter 28: This is very interesting...I remember a part about Uruha having relationship problems, himself, although of a different nature than Doojoon's.
What is it that Doojoon will have to find out?
hehe~ you seem to be deliberately putting Doojoon back into his arrogant, protective character ^^ I like how they are mutually submissive ^^ It suggests the equality that ought to be in a real relationship :)
That's one thing I particularly like about this story- the characters' reactions and the way in which Doojoon and Uruha are progressing with their relationship.
I'm very interested by this "secret detail" that seems to be undisclosed to Doojoon, though. Hopefully it won't have a negative impact on his and Uruha's new relationship...
-Angela-Zhang-
#3
Chapter 27: And I forgot to mention- your writing has improved a lot since the beginning of the story ^^
-Angela-Zhang-
#4
Chapter 27: I certainly have enjoyed this chapter just as much as the last^^
I hadn't ever really thought of it, but now that it seems as though Doojoon is being portrayed as the delicate one in the relationship, or, as a commonplace term, the "submissive", I can say that I find this newfound fragility in Doojoon to be quite tasteful. It's really quite a nice inversion; a stray away from the conventionality of what might be expected from any pairing involving Doojoon and I really like it ^^ Somehow, it certainly seems much more realistic that someone as unsure of himself, as frightened and as estranged from love as Doojoon is, would need someone to take care of him both physically and emotionally. And it just seems appropriate that that someone is Uruha, no matter how pretty or "girly" Uruha's appearance might make him out to be.
It seems like a theme in this story- not judging someone by their appearances or reputation ^^ Like how "player" and "manly" Doojoon certainly has a full range of emotions, as does anyone else, and is by far much more hurt than anyone would ever have perceived. And how Uruha, who seems to be publicly more of a flamboyant type of person, attentive to his implied feminine appearance seems to be the one who can offer Doojoon a sense of safety and protection that he seems not to have ever had before.
Uruha kissing Doojoon's palm is such a tender moment in the story ^^ And, having read and written some mpreg, myself, Uruha wrapping his arms around Doojoon's stomach gave me a faint impression of Doojoon having a baby or something hehe~ ^^' (my mind out of wraps...) but a very loving gesture, indeed ^^
-Angela-Zhang-
#5
Chapter 26: Hehe~ second time reading this chapter today ^^
Doojoon is so cute when he was crying and wanting his Uruha ^^ poor Doojoon... He thought he messed up again...
I'm so happy about this chapter (⌒▽⌒)
-Angela-Zhang-
#6
Chapter 26: Yes, yes YES!!!!!!! :D
This chapter made my day, even though it's just starting ^^
I'm so glad it wasn't Doojoon's fault and that girl is just horrible DX.
Yay!!! Uruha asked Doojoon out again!! :D
They're already so cute together and poor Doojoon when he wanted 'his' Uruha ^^ he seems so fragile in this chapter and I liked that ^^
-Angela-Zhang-
#7
Chapter 25: Oh no...! :(
Doojoon...! What have you done...?!
I have a pretty bad feeling for how things are going to go for Doojoon now... Actually not so much in terms of a relationship, but I think Doojoon himself is going to suffer a lot with what happened...I feel like he's going to give up on himself, not just on a relationship with Uruha but give up on himself as a person...
-Angela-Zhang-
#8
Chapter 24: This is one of my favorite chapters ^^
I really like Doojoon's dad and how he so easily accepted that his son is in love with a man :)
The chapter was so full of warmth and love and this chapter, more than any other, really shows how Doojoon had changed. It's great to see that he really is love with Uruha and that he's reconciled with his father. It certainly seems necessary for him to love his family before entering into a relationship with Uruha.
It was actually quite striking to hear how Doojoon's father married a year ago and Doojoo wasn't even aware of it. It shows just how distant from those close to him he became.
Hopefully Yoonja's daughter won't give Doojoon a hard time... ^^'
It would be very interesting, indeed, to see Uruha meet Doojoon's parents ^^
and hopefully Doojoon will fnd some solace about his relationship with his mother. That rejection when he was only seven must have been terrible.
-Angela-Zhang-
#9
Chapter 23: :'(
What an emotional chapter!! It was great, but poor Doojoon! It seems like this was really the breaking point for him,but I'm actually glad that he got so many negative feelings out in the open. It seemed like a necessary thing to do and now people know exactly how he's feeling. I think it is time that he's given a little more care and support ^^ and I think that the fact that he went to apologize to Donghae shows that he is changing and him pushing Donghae out of the way is proof of the good person that Uruha sees in him :D
I really love the realism in this- how Uruha's not plunging into a relationship, but not giving up on Doojoon, either and how Doojoon's coming to face himself :)
-Angela-Zhang-
#10
Chapter 22: <3
Thank you for thinking of me ^^~ And my exams did go well ^^
That's okay! You take your time in updating- I always love reading this story and I will patiently await your updates :D

I was really glad that Uruha and Doojoon privately spoke with each other in this chapter and that Uruha noticed not only the effort that Doojoon has been applying in trying to change, but also how Doojoon's been struggling with a rather rude confrontation of his faults. I think that having bad feelings go unacknowledge by others is just as bad as dealing with those feelings alone and I was happy that Uruha stood up for Doojoon, despite how much trouble Doojoon's put him through. Doojoon certainly does deserve some notice for his genuine efforts to change.
I like how Uruha is just as protective of Doojoon as Doojoon seems to be over Uruha ^^~ And there was really quite a bit of wisdom in this chapter, about having to trust yourself first, before expecting others to trust you.
I think the seriousness with which Uruha told Doojoon that he liked him and shouldn't let people tell him that he's heartless had quite an impact on Doojoon. It seems to me that this may have been one of the first times, if not the only time, that someone has really seen Doojoon's vulnerability and said to still have feelings for him, regardless. It feels like this sort of reassurance and support is not at all something that Doojoon would have received, prior to speaking with Uruha, on account of his mother not being in his life anymore.
hehe~ in my opinion, there should be even more subscribers for this story! ^^ Although there are not many jrock stories on here and even less "cross-overs", I think that there is a significant audience for this and this is a really awesome story ^^