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“Marya.” Yongnam sighed as I showed up in front of his apartment with a bag in hand.

I had spent the last two hours cleaning eggs and other random food items off of me and packing. While I packed Yoseob had banged on the door but I wouldn’t answer him. Instead I sneaked off out my window and down the fire escape.

During that time I had also left a resignation letter on my bed for the boys to see when they forced themselves in.

I was fed up.

There was only so much I could take, only so much until my breaking point. I remembered watching a Weekly Idol episode where L.Joe couldn’t stand to be called short and he had a limit to how much he could take. While they turned it into a joke I couldn’t help but relate.

There was only so much I could take.

“Just for tonight Yongnam. I promise.” I don’t know if it was my pitiful expression or the fact that he couldn’t say no to me but he slid the door fully open and took my bag from me.

He never asked anything. Maybe he already knew. Or maybe he knew I would remain silent. Still, I felt like I should explain myself.

“I’m going to leave B.A.P.”

Yongnam simply nodded and I followed him to the kitchen.

“I already sent in my resignation letter. I just…” I bit my lip to keep from crying. “Can’t take anymore.”

He never spoke and I found that his silence was better; I was finally able to get everything off my chest that I pent up for the past year. He just made food while I rattled off my feelings as best as I could.

I started from the beginning. How the members treated me. I had never talked about it, never complained but I feel like that is adding up to everything now. I was knowingly blowing up but it felt good to vent for once.

As I continued to complain I found that my voice was getting quieter. I had less to talk about and all that was left was the good things that had happened this year. At first they seemed few and far between but then I realized that my whole year was good.

So what if I started rough or that the fans hated me? I was surrounded by people who loved me.

“Nevertheless,” I quietly spoke. “I’m leaving B.A.P. I’ve decided. I won’t go to America or anything like that again, but it’s just not where I’m meant to be.”

For the first time since I started Yongnam finally spoke. “Do what you think is right.”

I stared at him a moment before the tears started. Now that I had let out steam like a