HEYYLLLOOOOO!!!! I JUST UPDATED YESTERDAYYY &&& IVE ALREADY GOTTEN 15 COMMENTSSSSS!! WOW GUYS. JUST, WOW. so, to keep to my word, i'll post the next chapter now. but since we've reached 15, mind if i increase a little? i mean, you can do 15 in just ONE DAY, how about.. 25? its quite alot for a new fic, but i know you can do it! heehee~ if you cant, then lets wait for a week jyeah? :P

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Hyuna’s POV

“Jae Hee-ah, go and play at the playground over there. We’ll be here arrasso?” I told Jae Hee. He nodded anxiously and ran to the playground. Jay and I sat at a nearby bench, facing the playground. He put his arm around me and I rested my head on his shoulder, watching Jae Hee running around, going up and down the slides.

“So that’s Junhyung,” Jay suddenly spoke. I just smiled and nodded.

Jay and I don’t have any secrets with each other even before we got married. At first I was quite uncomfortable telling my own boyfriend about my previous love but when he was so honest with me about everything, I told him. Jay is really unlike any other. He wasn’t jealous. In fact, he asked me why I didn’t keep in contact with Junhyung. Honestly, I don’t really know. All I know is I want to leave it behind, move on with the present. I let him go. If we were meant to be, we will end up together somehow. If you have a bird, set it free. If it comes back, it’s yours to keep. If not, it wasn’t meant to be yours in the first place.

I guess we weren’t meant to be since I fell in love with Jay during the 3^rd year in college. But it doesn’t mean I didn’t think of him anymore. I still keep the bracelet he gave me for my birthday. Jay knows about it. In fact, he’s the one who told me to keep it. I wanted to throw it because it doesn’t seem right. I’m already married and I’m still keeping another guy’s confession? Jay saw that I was hesitant in throwing it.

“Here, give it to me. I’ll put it a small box and keep it safe. Close your eyes so you won’t know where I keep it,” Jay said closing the box with the bracelet inside.

I trust him. Even if he did throw it without telling me, he has the right. I’m just glad he didn’t force me to throw it. But I’m pretty sure he still has it.

“He seems like a nice guy. Just like you described him,” he said.

“You still remember? Even after four years?” I asked. I was genuinely shocked.

“You still remember right? Why am I any different?” he said. I nodded. Impressive.

“Now that I know someone can take care of you, I can go peacefully,” he said softly.

My head shot up. I frowned at him. I hate it when he start bringing this topic up. He looked at me smiling.

“Don’t say that,” I warned him.

He chuckled. “Why do you always get so worked up whenever I bring up this topic?”

“Four years Jay. You survived for FOUR years already. Maybe it’s gone.”

He laughed again. “There’s no such thing as gone Hyuna. It’s still there and will always be there. It will only get deeper and deeper.”

“Why do you keep reminding me about it?”

“Because I want you to be prepared baby,” Jay said and caressed my right cheek softly.

 I sighed and leaned on his shoulders again. His arm hugged my body tighter. I like when he does that. It makes me feel secure.

It was silent for awhile, looking at Jae Hee playing at the playground with some other kids.

“I really pity Jae Hee. He’s always playing alone. Sometimes he just makes friends with any kid that plays around him,” I changed the topic.

“Isn’t that good? Expanding his social circle….” Jay said.

“Yeah.. but what about at home? Or if we go for vacations? Maybe we should give him a friend,” I smiled to myself.

“Hmm.. I think so too. Should we get a puppy or a kitten?” Jay asked, obviously ignoring my true intention.

I smacked his chest. “Jay~” I whined.

“What?” he pretended not to understand. I know he know what I meant because.. well.. he’s not that stupid. And he’s more erted than I am.

“You know what I mean!”

He laughed. “Aww.. my baby is ually frustrated..”

I smacked his chest again. But lightly this time. My hand stayed on his chest and I started drawing random circles on it with my finger.

“I don’t think I can baby…” he continued.

I stopped drawing. “Wae?” I asked softly.

He sighed. “I don’t want to leave you with more burdens. Seriously, one child is hard enough for you to take care on your own. What more two?” he leaned on top of my head.

“Jay~” I whined more. Really Jay. You have to stop bring up that topic. Even if I’m ready, I don’t want to be.

He stayed silent, my hair softly.

“Protection?” I suggested. Yes I’m desperate. Do you even know how long ago since we last had ?? FOUR YEARS AGO!

“There’s still a risk baby. Haven’t you read the small prints on the box before?” Jay said.

“Come one Jay… please.. do you even get ual frustrations for these four years?” I asked curiously. I mean, he’s a guy for god’s sake. He should be wanting this more than I do!

He chuckled. “I do get it baby.. but whenever I think of it, I’ll look at you and Jae Hee. Like I said, I can’t bear giving you more burdens.”

I give up. I can’t convince him anymore. Why does he have to think that he’s leaving me with burdens? I will love my children with all my heart and I will never ever think of them as a burden. Even if I have to raise them alone.

I stood up suddenly and moved his arm away from my shoulder. I walked to Jae Hee that was sliding down. I didn’t even turn once to look at Jay but I know he’s quite shocked when I suddenly stood up.

“Come on Jae Hee. Its getting darker. We should head home. Gaja!” I reached for his little hand and he skipped beside me, smiling widely.

I walked home with Jae Hee, leaving Jay following behind. He didn’t say anything on the way home. We reach the front of our porch and I waited by the side for Jay to open the door since he has the keys.

“When we get in, we’ll bathe and get ready to sleep arrasso? We had dinner outside already. Are you still hungry?” I asked Jae Hee.

“Aniyo. I’m very full!” he replied smiling.

Jay swing open the door and stood aside. I walked in with Jae Hee, completely ignoring Jay. As I passed, I could hear a soft sigh from him. Serve him right!

I went to the bathroom and filled the bathtub. I bathe with Jae Hee while he’s playing with the bubbles and his rubber ducky.

“Oh! Appa! Do you want to join us?” Jae Hee suddenly said.

I turned to the door and saw that Jay was leaning on the door frame, looking at us. He just smiled. “Its okay Jae Hee. You bathe with omma today. Tomorrow morning we’ll bathe together ara?”

Jae Hee nodded happily and continued playing. I turned back to Jae Hee, back facing Jay. I don’t know if he’s still there but I didn’t care.

Both of us got dressed and I tucked Jae Hee in his sports car bed frame. I kissed his forehead and wished him goodnight. I switched off the lamp, leaving only his nightlight on.

I closed the door, leaving just a small gap just in case he wanted to go out.

I went to our bedroom and saw that Jay was reading a book on the bed. I ignored his presence and went to the dresser. I combed my hair slowly, maintaining the I-can’t-be-bothered expression on my face. From the corner of my eye I saw Jay standing up from the bed, putting his book on the bedside table. I just focused on myself in the mirror.

Suddenly Jay got behind me and wrapped his muscular arms on my shoulders. His head rested at crook of my neck, looking at me through the mirror. I just stared at his reflection in the mirror.

“I’m sorry…” Jay said softly. His warm breath tickled my ear. My eyes looked away from his reflection and looked to the side.

I felt soft kisses on my earlobe, down to my neck and shoulder. I tried to ignore the feeling but failed. I closed my eyes and exhaled heavily. One of his hands ran down my arm slowly and took my comb from my hand and placed it on the table. I tilted my head slightly to give him more space when he was kissing my neck.

He stopped kissing and I open my eyes slightly. He kneeled and turned my body to face him when I was still sitting. He kissed my shoulder and my collarbone through the thin piece of tank top I was wearing. I closed my eyes once again, enjoying his soft kisses. He placed his hands on my waist.

He went further upwards and finally his lips met mine. He kissed me deeply, holding the back of my neck. His tongue explored my wet cavern, tasting my whole mouth slowly. Although it was a slow kiss, it was deep and passionate. I put my arms around his neck and he wrapped my legs around his waist.

Without breaking the kiss, he carried me to the bed and placed me carefully down on the bed. I lay on the bed, with him above me. My legs unwrapped themselves from his waist. His hands were now on my waist and his right hand started my side slowly. From my waist to my hip, down to my thigh and up again.

Finally we broke the kiss and panted heavily. He stared deeply into my eyes. I couldn’t make out what he was thinking then. Then, he smiled. He got up, kneeling on the bed with my body in between his thighs.

He slowly took off his black shirt and threw it in some random part of the room. He leaned down, and took off my tank top for me gently. I just followed, my eyes not leaving him. He leaned forward and kissed me again. Slowly, he pulled down my shorts along with my and threw it away. He started kissing lower and lower. He opened my bra and kissed in between my s, down to my stomach and right above my navel.

“Jay…….” I closed my eyes and moaned his name softly. My breath was getting shorter even though it was just the beginning. He kissed my inner thighs and he got deeper until he was right infront of my womanhood.

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After our es, he fell onto me, panting heavily. He rolled to my side and pulled me close to him. I slept right away in our sweaty bodies, hugging him tightly.

No One’s POV

Jay turned his head slightly and looked outside the window with Hyuna wrapped securely in his arms. He let out a soft sigh. A tear fell from the corner of his eye.

Dear God. Please take care of Hyuna and Jae Hee if it has come the time that I have to go. Jay prayed silently, shutting his eyes.

“I love you Kim Hyuna. I will always love you.” He said softly even though he knows that she was already asleep.

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SOOOO.... do you think i should mark M for this chapter? im not sure coz one, i dont want people to knw that Jay gave in even before reading it. secondly, its not really a . just a half . :P so should i? :/ tell me what you think aite?

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