Taecyeon drove Hyuna home seeing that she’s already too weak to go home by herself. He stopped the car right in front of her house but she didn’t budge. Not even a little. She was staring into space like how she was all along the journey. Sometimes he could see tears rolling down her cheeks. Although he’s not close with Hyuna, but seeing her like this is really heartbreaking. What will happen to her now? She has to take care of Jae Hee alone. She has to work harder now to earn for the both of them. Jay.. how could you do this to Hyuna man…

Hyuna’s POV

I felt the car stopped but I just don’t want to move. I don’t feel the strength in me to move. Tears just keep rolling down my cheeks and I don’t even bother to wipe them away coz they will eventually roll down again.

“Hyuna..” I felt someone tapped my shoulder very lightly. I turned slowly to the source of the voice. Taecyeon looked at me with full concern. “We’re here.”

I turned to the other side to see my house before me. I turn back and smiled weakly.

“Thank you Taecyeon.” My voice was hoarse as I hadn’t talked for quite some time. My lips and throat are dry. He smiled and nodded slightly.

I opened the car door and stepped outside. I walked slowly to my door and open it. It was only after I’ve closed the door that I heard the car drove away. As I slowly walked to my bedroom, not bothering to switch on the lights, I can feel my eyes started watering once again. My footsteps were getting heavy.

As soon as I closed my bedroom door behind me, I leaned on it and slowly I collapsed on the floor, sliding down the door. I brought my knees up to my chest and covered my face. I started crying again. No one could hear me. No matter how loud I cry. No matter how many buckets of tears I wasted. What is done, is done. Jay is not coming back.

“Jay… Jay…” I cried out Jay’s name in between my sobs. I need someone right now. I need Jay. I need him to hug me to make me feel secure, feel his warmth.. I need him to tell me that everything is going to be okay. But he’s not here. Jay is not here.

I slowly took out my handphone and dialled my parents’ home number. After about 3 rings, my mother answered. She keep saying hello when I did not say anything.

“Omma…..” I cried. My lips were trembling to say just a two syllabus word.

I heard her panic voice over the phone. “Hyuna? Hyuna dear is that you? Why are you crying? What happened dear…”

I feel slightly comforted hearing her voice. But I couldn’t find the words to say. In the end, all I managed was, “Jay…. Jay… omma… Jay…..” I can feel my cheeks getting wet.

I heard her gasped softly. “Oh dear.. Hyuna.. Hyuna… be strong dear..” She knew of Jay’s condition. She knew what had happened tonight even without me telling the whole story.

She heard no reply from me, only soft cries. She continued.

“I couldn’t come over and you know that dear…” I nodded although I know she couldn’t see me. My parents lived far away in a village. Very far from Seoul.

“I will come in the morning tomorrow okay? Be strong dear. I know my girl is strong to handle this… I love you dear…” I cried more, remembering Jay’s last words.

She knew I couldn’t say anything so she eventually hangs up. My phone landed on the floor as my head fell onto my knees.

You really can’t do this to me Jay.. I need you… I love you…

I finally found the little strength I have got left and went straight to bed. I didn’t even bother changing my clothes. For one, I was too weak. Two, it’s the last cloth that has Jay’s touch. His scent.

I pulled the covers and covered my body. As I was crying, shutting my eyes, softly calling out Jay’s name, I felt a soft touch around my waist. A touch so familiar.

I can feel a cold breath right beside my ear. Surprisingly, I felt more relaxed.

“I’m right here Hyuna. Always will be… in your heart..” I heard Jay’s voice.

I wasn’t scared. Let it be my imagination. My hallucination. His spirit, anything. I didn’t care. I clutched onto the cover tightly on my chest as if I’m clutching his arms. I could feel his lips touched my shoulder lightly, kissing it.

“I’m right here baby…” again I heard his voice.

I just shut my eyes, feeling Jay’s ‘presence’ with me. That is all I needed. With the last drop of tear, I fell asleep.