“Goodnight Uncle Junhyung! Goodnight omma!” Jae Hee said happily hugging me and Hyuna one by one before going into my room with my mother. Immediately she closed the door as if telling me she won’t be going out anymore. My mother can be really persistent at times.

I stood infront of the closed room awkwardly with Hyuna. “Erm.. maybe we should sleep too,” she said.

“Yeah..” I said simply. We walked into the room that was dimly lit by just the bedside lamp. If we were a couple, it appears as romantic. But we’re not. So its just awkward. I don’t think I can sleep just yet and if I toss and turn on the bed, Hyuna might not be able to sleep.

“I’m going out for awhile,” I said. She was about to lay down when she sat back up.

“Out? Its late Jun..” she said.

I chuckled slightly. “No I mean out as in the living room or kitchen.”

“Ahh.. Okay. Goodnight Junhyung,” she said. I replied back and walked out of the room, leaving the door slightly open.

I sat in the living room and went channel surfing. Its only 10.30pm but all the shows are so mundane. I sighed and looked around the living room. What should I do to make myself sleepy?

After about half an hour watching pointless shows, I walked to the room, hoping that if I just close my eyes, I would eventually fall asleep. I was about to push the door open slowly when the door retreated back from me, revealing a wide awake Hyuna.

“Oh Junhyung!”

“Hyuna!” We both were slightly shocked to see each other and said each others’ names at the same time. Both of us laughed silently.

“What are you doing up?” I asked.

“I can’t sleep. You?” she said, pouting slightly.

“Same. Do you want to sit in the kitchen? We can chat while drinking hot chocolate,” I said smiling widely, wriggling my eyebrows up and down.

She smiled at the idea. “I’d like that. It been awhile since we last chat too.” We went to the kitchen and she sat at the counter while I make our hot chocolate on the opposite side.

“How is it like living alone?” she asked as I was stirring the drink. I glanced up to her and smiled.

“Its okay. I usually keep myself busy at work so by the time I reach home I’m already prepared to go to sleep. It gets a little lonesome when I don’t have work but I have Yoseob to accompany me and vice versa.”

She chuckled. “You two look happy together..” she said, smiling.

“Yeah we’re always mistaken as gay partners. But I assure you Hyuna, I’m not. I’m as straight as a lamppost. I don’t know about Yoseob though..” I stuck my tongue out playfully.

She chuckled. I sat the two mugs on the counter and slide one towards her slowly. Both of us took a sip quietly enjoying the hot chocolate taste in the cold night.

“How does it feel like when you’re married?” I asked suddenly. She gave me a confused look.

“Well you asked me about living alone. Now I ask you about being in a marriage,” I explained. She laughed softly, shaking her head.

“How am I supposed to answer that? Erm.. I guess.. its.. fun?” she said slowly, unsure of what to say. I laughed at her cuteness. Even after 9 years she is still as innocent as ever.

“Its okay. Since you don’t really know how to answer that, forget that I asked,” I said with a smile. I drink my hot chocolate slowly.

“You’ll feel secure and love always,” she started. I looked up, surprised that she is actually trying to answer.

“You know.. the feeling that the person you love will always be with you no matter what. Facing challenges in life together, sharing your joy together..” Her eyes drifted away from mine as she continued. I just listen to her, not wanting to interrupt her thoughts which are probably about Jay.

“And when you have a child, the joy to tell him is just overwhelming. When the child is born, we work together to raise him. Sharing all troubles and difficulties we faced…” She looked back at me as if indicating that she was done talking. I smiled.

“Do you guys ever fight? Coz it seems that you’re happy everyday,” I asked.

She smiled. “Yeah we do. Well I do. Jay holds onto the principle that life is too short to have misunderstandings or unnecessary fights. Literally for him..” she mumbled at the last sentence but I still heard it. Literally?

“Literally?” I asked stupidly. I know I may sound quite insensitive but it just came out. Now its too late to take back what I said.

She looked down and traced the mouth of the mug with her finger slowly.

“Uh.. its okay you don’t have to answer it if you don’t want to,” I said, trying to take back my words. She pursed her lips and looked up.

“Jay knew he’s going to die anytime soon actually. I started knowing about it when he asked me to be his girlfriend,” she said.

“Know about what?” I asked curiously. Well she already started, might as well don’t leave me hanging.

“Brain tumour. He has brain tumour,” she said softly.

“Oh..” I mumbled, not knowing how to reply to that. I really didn’t expect it. I mean, both of them look so happy and cheerful, who would have guessed Jay was sick?

“After about a year we got married, the doctor told him that he’s old enough to go through an operation. But he said there’s a risk that Jay might lose his memory,” she said. I just listen tentatively to her.

“He didn’t want it. I tried so hard to persuade him… Until one day he broke down..”

Hyuna’s POV

“I told you I don’t want it Hyuna! What if I lost my memory huh? What’s the point of being healthy when I can’t remember you?? What if I take the operation, lose my memory and then the next moment I died in an accident. I don’t want to die not knowing who you are! I don’t want to die forgetting how much I love you! Can you understand that?” Jay shouted at me. His tears were streaming down his cheeks as he shouts. He breathes rapidly, his chest falling up and down. I’ve never seen Jay so angry before.

He shook his head and turn away from me, taking a seat on our bed. He stared at his fingers as he rested his elbows on his lap. I could hear his soft sobs as I walked closer to him. I sat beside him and his back softly.

“I’m sorry.. I’m really sorry..” I apologized. I hugged him by the side and he leaned on my shoulder.

“I don’t want to forget you baby.. I don’t want to..” he said softly.

Junhyung’s POV

She just stared at her mug when she told me about what Jay said. I don’t know why but I’m starting to feel that I can never compete with Jay’s love for Hyuna. He risked his life for his love. It’s not that I wouldn’t, but its easier said than done. Jay had done it.

She looked up suddenly. “Come on enough about my life. Let’s move on to yours,” she chuckled.

I just smiled, knowing that she want to change the topic and not make the night any sadder.

“What do you want to know? But I have to warn you. My life is the exact definition of what boredom is,” I said.

She just laughed. “Hmm.. Do you have girlfriend?”

“Nope.” I smiled.

“Thought so.. if not you wouldn’t be asking me and Jae Hee to stay with you right? Then… who’s your last girlfriend?” she asked. .

I laughed nervously. “Why do want to know?”

“You asked me about Jay right.. Now I’m asking the same!” She smiled widely.

“So it’s payback huh?” I tilted my head to the side.

“Ahni. I’m just curious.”

“Well uh… do you even know if I tell you her name?” I said. I’m trying so hard to make her change the question.

“True that. Then when did you have you last girlfriend? Come on.. its been what, 9? 8 years I’ve not seen you?” she said.

Just say it Junhyung. Highschool. First year of highschool. Say it! She wants to know it so bad so just say it! High…. School…..

“Erm..” I started.

I'm posting this up again just in case by next week it can't be retrieved back. If it does, I'll just delete it. :)