Chapter 8
Who I Am(A/N MORE DRAMA COMING! YAY, FOR DRAMA! Lol, no.)
(Oh neo) Neomani hamkke kajullae
(Meolji anheun fantasy) Sangsangi gadeukhan I sesange
Kkeuteun eobseo never end
Yeogin Neverland
(Neverland – U-KISS)
-Chunji’s POV-
We pulled into L. Joe’s driveway, I felt my heart hammering in my chest about to burst out and leave a very bloody mess, and Ricky did aegyo and gave me an encouraging smile as we knocked on the door. Seunghyun (T.O.P) opened the door and smiled at us “Hi, boys, Byunghun and Minsoo are upstairs.” “Thanks, Seunghyun.” Changjo said noticing I was too terrified to speak, my heart was felt like it literally trying to fight its way to burst out of my chest, it was thundering in my ears, could they hear it? It was so loud. But they didn’t seem to hear it as Ricky pulled me into the house and Seunghyun closed the door, the smile still on his face, was he a homophobe? I couldn’t remember, I don’t think L. Joe ever told me, I just couldn’t remember. “You okay, Chunji? You look sick.” L. Joe’s mom, Chaerin (CL), I looked at Changjo helplessly, unable to talk, I liked L. Joe’s mom, I didn’t want her to hate me. “He hasn’t been feeling well, he’s coming down with something, and he had a nasty cough yesterday that made him lose his voice.” I shot Niel a thankful look and nodded going along with the lie, wow, and another lie. “Oh, well, Byunghun has been worried about you, probably since you’re sick.” She said a kind smile forming on her face, I nodded again.
We walked upstairs to L. Joe’s room, I could feel myself shaking, his door was closed. “Hey, calm down, Chunji, he’s your best friend.” Changjo said as he noticed my immense fear. We walked into L. Joe’s room and found them, L. Joe and C.A.P, playing Catchphrase and listening to Crazy by TEENTOP (LOL), They looked up at us and instantly their smiles dropped from their faces. “Oh, Hi Changjo; Hi, Ricky; Hi, Niel; Hi, Chunji.” He said not looking at us, “Hi, guys.” Changjo said pulling me into the room.
-L. Joe’s POV-
Changjo, Ricky, Niel and Chunji sat down near us, I was afraid to sit close to him, what if I became gay too? What if it was like some spreadable condition? My best friend was a , how could I ever look at him the same way ever again?
“Chunji…How drunk were you last night?” I asked warily needing to know if it was only the booze that got to his head, Chunji gulped “Drunk enough to reveal my biggest secret.” I felt my face paling, “You’re…Dude, you’re a ?” I said disbelievingly “I’m not a , I’m gay.” He said avoiding eye contact with me and C.A.P, and becoming suddenly really interested with the carpet.
“Get out.” C.A.P said quietly, we all looked at him even Chunji. “What?” Chunji asked in confusion, “You heard me, we don’t want a here.” He said a little louder, Chunji looked over at me desperately to say something; I glanced over at C.A.P and nodded in agreement. “Bye, Chunji.” I said flatly, “Byunghun.” He said in horror, “Byunghun, you can’t do this to me! We’ve been best friends since we were toddlers! You can’t just kick me out because I’m gay!” he said disbelievingly, “I hate faggots, Chunji!” I snapped “You know that, now get out of my house we don’t want you to touch us.” I glanced at C.A.P, “Make sure your pants are zipped, L. Joe.” He said smirking cruelly.
“What the hell is wrong with you, guys?!” Changjo cried angrily, “Ease up, there’s nothing different about, Chunji! He’s still the same, Chunji!” Niel snapped at us “Nuuuu, My Chunji isn’t a !” I argued.
“L. Joe, Byunghun, please.” Chunji begged “Please, Byunghun, we’ve always been there for each other, please don’t leave me now just because I like boys.” He begged desperately, I avoided his eyes, those pleading eyes.
“Bye, Chanhee.” I said again emotionlessly, looking utterly broken and devastated, he got up, Ricky opened his mouth in protest but Chunji shook his head in protest. “I’m…I’m sorry, Byunghun.” Chunji whimpered and let out a small sob and left the room, Changjo and Ricky going after him.
Then suddenly I thought who was hurting more, me or him? I glanced at the picture of us with B2ST and ZE:A, angrily I got up, tore the picture off the wall, smashed on the ground and kicked it under my bed. “Whatever, next word.” I grumbled and sat down, passing Catchphrase to C.A.P; Niel was silent but was glaring furiously at us. Inside I felt empty and betrayed, why Chunji? Why did it have to be my best friend? But how could I throw away our past and memories, and pretend he hasn’t always been there for me? Shaking thoughts of my ex-best friend from my head, I tried to relax and play the game with my straight best friends.
(A/N WHAT A , I OUGHTA SLAP YOU, BOY. Lol, but your face it too pretty, BOOO. Poor, Chunji. COMMENT!)
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