(A/N I know, I’m a , I haven’t posted in like 11…days? I’ve been extremely lazy lately because it’s summer break, so to hell with it! Okay, I’m a loser, boo. ANYWAY, Y’ALL, Don’t y’all love Big Bang’s new song Monster? I DO, I’M OBSESSED, BRO. BUT ALSO, BOYFRIEND IS HAVING A COMEBACK AND I LOVE THEIR TEASER~~~ On another note, I watched like three episodes of Big (When I mean watch, I mean skipped through the whole thing only watching the parts I wanted too – I don’t do it all the time but I didn’t feel like watching the whole thing and I don’t like the guy who plays “Yoon Jae” he’s ugly as , bro.) BUT SHIN WON HO IS MY LOVER, OH MY GOD, THAT BOY IS SO FINE AND HE LOOKS LIKE MY L BABY, ASDFGHJKL; Okay, enjoy my loyal ~)

I love you, baby I'm not a monster

 Neon al-janha yejeon nae moseubeul shi-gani chinamyeon sarajyeo beoril

 Tende keu ttaen al tende baby

I need you, baby I'm not a monster

 Nal al-janha ireohke kajima neo majeo beorimyeon nan jugeobeoril tende I'm not a monster

(Monster – Big Bang)

-Chunji’s POV-

The next day we made our way to C.A.P’s house, we knocked on the door and his mom told us to go to his room. We went upstairs and knocked on his bedroom door. “Just come in!” he called, we opened the door and stepped inside, he glanced at us and glared before pausing whatever video game he was playing and faced us. “The do faggots want?” he demanded in annoyance. “To talk to you, we’re not faggots, we’re your friends.” L. Joe said simply.  “Even if you don’t like us and don’t want to be friends with us…we still want to be friends with you even if you’re an ignorant .”

C.A.P glared even more. “Really? I’m an ?” Funny, that’s what that Jiyeon said to me yesterday when I didn’t let her my to make you jealous.” L. Joe froze. “What?” he whispered weakly and C.A.P nodded. “She came to my house yesterday and went all seductive mode on me, tried to get me hard so she could me to get you jealous and piss Chunji off, I told her to get the out of my room and she called me a . Guess you guys are really alike.”

“I’m not like her!” L. Joe snapped, “I’d never cheat like that.” His voice full of pain, “I know.” C.A.P said, surprising me with his gentle tone. “So you don’t hate us?” I asked nervously. “I hate that you’re gay, but I can’t keep acting like I actually hate you. Maybe we can be cool again, just…pretend that you’re straight when you’re around me, please?” he begged. “Yeah, yeah, I guess.” I said quietly. He would get used to it eventually, and then things would really be normal again. He smiled a little, “Good, now why’d that after you again, Joey?” (lolwut.)

L. Joe shrugged, pain clear in his eyes. “Nado meollayo, (I don’t know) I want her out of my life, she put me through hell.” “More like she put your liver through hell.” I grumbled and he sighed, “Yeah, that too.” He said with another shrug.

“L. Joe, did you ever…do anything with her?” C.A.P said silently. L. Joe nodded slowly, the pain in his eyes unbearable agony. “I gave her everything.” He whispered while his eyes turned glossy with tears. I grabbed his hand and C.A.P looked away uncomfortably, L. Joe hugged me tightly and I resisted the urge to kiss him, just for C.A.P, “I’m a up, I’m so stupid.” He whispered and I shook my head. “No you’re not L. Joe!” I said fiercely. “I was an accident Chunji, and all I ever do is up.” He said miserably. “You know that’s not true.” I said, “She was the one who opened her nasty legs, she’s the up for letting someone as amazing as you go.” He looked me in eyes and whispered, “I love you.” And I whispered back, “I love you.”

“Guys, let’s go to ChangRickNiel’s house (lolwut.).” C.A.P said silently breaking us out of our trances and we nodded and left for their house. I my iPod and we listened to Still Alive by Big Bang as we walked. I grabbed L. Joe’s hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze, he remained silent though. We knocked on their door when we got the front porch and Kyung answered, “Annyeong!” he said eagerly, aegyo dripping off his voice, “Annyeong, Kyungie.” I said with a small smile. “Kyungsoo! (Lol, that’s his full name now, because I love EXO but I don’t like D.O….BUT WHATEVER. DON’T JUDGE ME. D:) I told you not to answer the door!” Their mom said sternly, coming over to the door. “Mianhaeyo, boys.” She said apologetically as she bent down and scooped Kyung up into her arms. “Gwenchanayo, Gomo.” C.A.P said to her and she stepped aside to let us in. “Eomma can I take them to JoJo Hyung’s room? Please~” he begged and she sighed. “Okay, honey, but please stop answering the door.” She set him down and he brabbed my hand and led us all upstairs to Changjo’s room.

“JoJo Hyung!” he called and pounded his tiny fist on the door. “Chill out Kyung! You don’t have to pound on the door, Holy shi…Holy crap.” Changjo said in annoyance as he opened, he glanced up and broke out into a huge grin. He ushered us inside and picked up Kyung before shutting the door, and leading us over to where Niel and Ricky were watching TV. They both grinned at us and whooped, “No one else’s hand is broken…you guys are all friends again!” Niel cheered, “And you didn’t have to fight for it to happen!” Ricky ended after.

We all nodded and they grinned even wider, L. Joe then suddenly smiled. “This,” he said with a nod and we gave him curious looks. He put his arm around my waist pulling me towards him kissing my cheek real quick and continued. “This is happiness, not being with some cheating , being with my bestfriends who actually care about me and love me.” He looked deep into my eyes and I smiled softly, “Yeah, L. Joe, you’re absolutely right.” And suddenly, I knew we were fine, we were helping each other heal. C.A.P, Niel, Changjo, Ricky, and Christine helping us heal, our families were helping us heal, heal from everything. For L. Joe, healing from his dad, from Jiyeon,  and from Gunwoo (His mom’s ex). And for me I was healing from the Homophobia, from being abandoned and from being isolated for my uality, from the secrets, the hurt and from T-Bear. I smiled at my friends and hugged L. Joe tightly. I knew that my real friends are always going to be there by my side, even at times when I tell them to leave. This is my friends, this my family, this is my life and this is who I am.

(A/N HOLY , IT’S DONE, BUT WAIT, THERE’S MORE, I HAVE ONE MORE CHAPTER LEFT, WHICH EEES ZEE EPILOGUE! I have to say I really enjoyed writing this story and I hope that y’all check out my future stories and my other finished story Dance in the Dark which is a JongKey story, if you haven’t already, but yeah, thanks for reading, I love y’all! I'm also sorry, this chaptered , lol... COMMENT AND SUBSCRIBE BUT MOSTLY COMMENT, I WAS SAD BECAUSE ONLY TWO PEOPLE COMMENTED LAST CHAPTER. D:)

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