The sun rose slowly, it was a darker than usual. The snow was softly falling onto the city’s roofs, cars, and streets. Luna was fast asleep in Onew’s arms, both of them just covered in a blanket. Minho was awake and taking a shower while Taemin was asleep. Key was munching on a granola bar and Jonghyun was finding some juice to drink. It was around nine o’ clock, and the morning was calm; everything was slow again. Except this time, Luna was asleep in Onew’s arms; everything was right. Minho stepped out of the shower and shook his wet hair, putting a towel on. He was very dissatisfied with last night. He felt he wanted nothing to do with Luna anymore.

She only caused problems, and that scared him.

Minho brushed his teeth and thought about what to do for the day.

Taemin felt some of the sun exposed onto his face, forcing him to open one eye. His hair was a mess from taking such a later shower last night. He leveled his body up, facing the slightly open window. Watching the snow, he thought of the horror he faced last night; seeing Luna passed out and his hyung all bloody and shaking. It gave Taemin chills. He slowly creeped out of bed; stretching his back while letting out a big yawn. Minho walked into the room with just a towel on, and gave a glance at Taemin. Surprisingly, Taemin did not look. He was upset with Minho; he was sick of his ways.

Minho didn’t care about Taemin, he only wanted women. It made Taemin’s heart tighten in pain when he thought of it. Though, the night seemed perfect when Luna was there; Minho was finally getting close to Taemin again when dancing. He liked when Luna danced close to him as well, though.

Maybe he didn’t like just boys, or just girls. Maybe it depended on the person.

“Watcha smiling about?” Minho said, finally dressed. His hair was still wet, a little stuck to his forehead.

“I’m just thinking.” Taemin said quietly, and raised his body to walk to the bathroom. He lightly brushed past Minho, still feeling anger in his heart. He was in the hallway when he thought of how Onew might be feeling. Taemin decided to take a peek, just in case he was having another bad dream. Taemin slowly slid the door open, both him and-

 Taemin covered his mouth. Luna’s top half was not all the way covered by the blanket. He was silent, but quickly slid the door back closed. He was so embarrassed; his face was hot and red suddenly. That was the first time he’s ever seen a girl’s… well…

Taemin shuffled himself into the bathroom and took a warm shower, trying not to think about it, he had to turn the water to cold to face the rest of the day.

Luna slowly opened her eyes, half of her face pressed up against Onew’s exposed chest. She liked the feeling of her skin being against Onew’s skin. She was happy that Onew took her ity last night. She didn’t regret a thing, and knew she was ready for it. She was in love him with, anyway. “Oppaa…” shed cooed to Onew. He groaned and tilted his head slightly, his eyes closing tight.

“Yah, what… what time is it?” Onew opened his eyes, smiling at her. She shrugged. Feeling more modest all of the sudden, Luna covered her body with most of the blanket. Onew slid up, sitting up straight against the bed’s headboard. Luna blushed. “Oh, oops,” he looked down and grabbed some blanket to cover his body. His hair was so straight and thick this morning and looked longer than usual. It was messy and had pieces sticking out, his brown hair shiny and slick, but shaggy and long. Luna stared; he looked so good. His eyes were more like cat eyes today; half open from being tired. He was quiet this morning, deep in thought. He gave his usual stares to Luna, but it felt… different. He looked like he knew something that she didn’t. Onew looked off at the walls as Luna was stretching her back. She sat with her legs crossed as she arched her back forward, hearing a light pop inside of her flexible spine. She breathed out, enjoying the feeling of the pop. Her head bobbed back up and looked over to Onew.

His body was laid flat across the bed, his head propped up by an arm; wet, fat tears were forming in his eyes, a blank expression covering his face. He was silent; eyes fluttering lightly, as if he were in complete shock.

“Onew oppa? What’s wrong?” Luna spun her body around to face him, her hand covering her body with the blanket. Onew looked down, allowing the tears to stream down. He was breathing softly, his mouth open.

“I just don’t think you’ll ever understand how much I love you, Luna-shi, especially after last night.” Onew stood up, body exposed, unable to look at her for the moment. Luna was quiet as he watched him dress; a tiny, scared little feeling in her brain, forcing her heart to beat faster with pain. She was confused, unable to receive his signals. Onew was silent as he put on a pair of pants, leaving her in the room alone. After a few minutes, she heard the sink going off. She looked down, quiet. A moment ago he was completely fine, but he suddenly switched a complete 180, quiet and distant.

Taemin sat by himself on his bed, he looked deeply out his window; a beautiful scene of light snow falling quickly onto the ground. He knew there was going to be a storm tonight, and he enjoyed the thought. His door wide open, he listened to Onew brushing his teeth and washing his face through the closed bathroom door. He thought of how he and Luna were so in love. Taemin’s deep stare out the window switched to a blank expression towards the bathroom door. He couldn’t help but be jealous. He wanted love as well; he wanted to kiss someone gently, and feel excitement. He began to remember how it felt when he and Minho kissed back then. He thought of how soft Minho’s lips were, and since Minho was so much taller than Taemin, he leaned down, placing an arm around Taemin’s small shoulders. He remembered the moment so vividly; it pained his heart after his daydream faded back into reality. The door of the bathroom slid open, Onew slowly moving his sluggish body through the hallway, smiling softly. He just wanted to be like his hyung: happy. He listened as he heard him and Luna talk in his room, their conversation being a bit serious, but turned to romantic. He heard Onew kissing her loudly; she gave out a shy laugh-

Minho began to walk into Taemin and his room. Taemin, sulky, looked away from him. “What’s wrong with you? You were just smiling earlier…” Minho sounded a bit bothered, probably in a bad mood. Taemin was in no mood as well.

“Just let me be.” Taemin snapped.

“What? What’s your problem?” Minho’s head was tilted, looking at Taemin. Having a short temper, he quickly shot a glare.

“Today’s just…”

“Just what?”

Taemin, furious with his own depressed mindset, slammed the bed with his two fists. “Look, Minho, you don’t have to be so defensive.” Minho huffed, shaking his head at the maknae.

“Really? Look at you, you’re mad over nothing.” Minho turned back around, picking up a new bottle of water on top of his clean desk.

“I am not mad over nothing, hyung.” Taemin said this in an ill-tempered manner, giving Minho a bit of a shock.

“Really? Then do tell me what you’re so upset about,” Minho shot back.

“Since when do you even care about how I’ve been feeling lately?” Taemin sighed, frustrated, twisting his head back at the window.

“What are you talking about, Taemin?” Minho spun his body completely toward Taemin, placing the water bottle back on top of the desk. He felt half furious, half sympathetic, but fully irritated. Taemin shook his head, burying his head into his knees, his arms wrapped around his face. Taemin began to cry quietly. “Taemin?” Minho walked up to him, placing a gentle hand on his arm. Taemin shot up, whipping his arm away from Minho.

“You’re just too busy with so many women to care about me anymore!”

“Wh-what? Taemin, how dare you say that!”

“It’s the truth!”

“Oh, really? I’m focused on my work, my friendships, my-“

“Just shut up! I know you don’t give a sh*t about me anymore, so just leave me alone!” Taemin was yelling loudly at this point. Minho became silent, staring at Taemin; he was completely shocked by his language.

“Yah! What in the world is going on?” Key peeked his head in their room, quickly joined by Jonghyun. Taemin’s eyes were flowing tears, sobbing to himself, still in his curled up position on the bed.

“Why are you so angry with me, Taemin? What did I even do to you?”

“Like you care!” Taemin screamed. He jumped up and ran out of their room.

“Taemin!” Key and Jonghyun yelled in unison.

“Just shut up, all of you! Leave me alone!” Taemin quickly slipped his shoes on and furiously slammed the main door shut, storming out of their dorm.

Key and Jonghyun stared at Minho in complete shock; their eyes wide, jaw completely dropped. The three then heard Onew slide open his room’s door, following by Luna, hand in hand.

“What just happened?” The oldest hyung asked carefully. Minho stared at the ground, unsure of what to say.

“I don’t know, hyung, but Taemin is really mad.” Jonghyun looked over at Onew. There was a bit of silence between each of them. Jonghyun spoke again, “Someone needs to talk to him… he seems to be mad at us three, so you or Luna should speak with him.”

Luna and Onew looked at each other. “I can talk to him,” Luna perked up. Onew shrugged, not wanting her to leave, but cared for his maknae’s safety. He trusted Luna to help out Taemin.

Luna quickly got ready, wearing the same outfit as last night. She noticed her clothing was washed, however, which was strange, but she assumed it was one of Key’s tidy deeds. She put on one of Onew’s hoodies over her own, and a large jacket to keep her extra warm from the cold. She quickly headed out the door, cellphone in hand.

Luna, some hair blowing from the wind, stood by herself on a sidewalk; texting as fast as she could.

MSG: Taeminnie, where are you? I want to talk to you.

MINNIE MSG: I just wanna be alone, Luna…

MSG: Please talk to me? I can help.

MINNIE MSG: I just wanna be alone!

Luna grunted in frustration. He was not going to lighten up any time soon. She decided to look around for Taemin while still trying to text him. After a while, she finally got Taemin to text some answers she needed.

MSG: Taemin, please tell me why you left. I won’t tell anyone else, you know that.

MINNIE MSG: I’m just upset after last night, and about everything…

MSG: You need to talk to Minho about it, and not just yell at him.

MINNIE MSG: It’s not just about him, okay? I’m just mad at the world.

Luna has never seen such an angry side from her friend. She looked around carefully in the city, knowing he would not run too far. A couple blocks away, Luna heard a buzzing noise as she called Taemin’s phone.

“Hello?” Taemin softly answered, a negative tone in his voice.

“Taemin, please come and talk to me.”

“No,” He protested. Luna’s eyes scanned over the open alleys on her current street

Bam. She found him facing away from the city street, slouching down slightly. She was silent while on the phone, and sneaked toward Taemin.

“Luna?”

She finally reached him, grabbing his shoulder with one hand, cellphone in the other. Taemin yelled out, but turned and looked at Luna blankly.

“Taemin-“

“Please don’t talk to me,” Luna noticed his eyes sparkling, some tears forming.

She stood staring at Taemin for a moment, some people glancing as they walked past. Luna grabbed his hand and pulled Taemin to a more private spot in the city.

She walked to the park Taemin, Minho and her all sat at, but Taemin quickly ripped his hand away.

“There are so many people here-“

“We’re not going to talk here, we’re going to talk there.” Luna pointed at a large building’s roof near the park.

They both walked together inside of the building, which Taemin then realized was a school, and acted natural. It was class time, so no one was in the hallway. He followed her step by step, up until a sign reading No Trespassing.  She looked around for a moment, making sure no one was looking, and slid inside through the door, Taemin right behind her as they climbed up a tall ladder leading to this large spaced roof.

The view was beautiful. Taemin’s eyes followed some cars as they drove through the city. He noticed how tiny people looked from up here, like the size of his fingers. The cold wind allowed him to settle his anger, but soon shivered, since he forgot to grab a jacket. He looked over at Luna, who was busy staring off into the snowy sky.

“I always went here when I was stressed out during school, whether it was a test, friends fighting, or family issues… Nobody seemed to notice I was gone.” Luna smiled bittersweet, thinking of old memories back before she was an idol. Taemin looked down to the moving cars once more, sighing sadly.

“I just wish I was gone. Nobody would notice.” Taemin moved his eyes down to his feet, his knees shaking. Luna was quiet, but wrapped her large jacket over him. Taemin softened his expression, looking up to her.

“Luna?”

“Yes?”

“I wish… I wish I was in love like you.”

“What?”

Taemin slowly rubbed his fingertips into his scalp. “You just always seem so happy.” Luna looked at him, raising an eyebrow.

“That doesn’t mean I always am, Taemin.” Taemin grew silent. He didn’t want to speak to anyone anymore; he just wanted all of this drama to go away, and to be happy with someone who cared about him. He desperately wanted that someone to be Minho, but knew Minho didn’t feel the same. Taemin felt Luna get close to him, placing her head on his shoulder. She sighed softly, and wrapped her arm around his, hands joining. He liked the feeling of Luna against him. She actually seemed to care about his feelings.

“Luna?”

“Yeah?”

“What is it like to… love Onew hyung? What made you fall in love?”

Luna smiled to herself, thinking of Onew. Her heart beat fast as she thought of Onew oppa smiling back at him, his messy hair this morning.

“He makes me feel… special. Like I’m the most important person in the world.”

Taemin frowned, looking down. “I just feel... stupid when I’m around Minho… Like I am doing wrong in the world simply by having feelings for him.”

“Taemin, nothing is wrong with you. Your heart knows he cares for you.”

“He doesn’t care for me… it’s like nobody does.”

“I care for you, Taeminnie, a lot as a matter of fact,” Luna spoke softly as Taemin felt his heart rate increase by her kind words, “but so do your hyungs, as well as the whole SM Company. SHINee would be nothing without you…”

“Well if I we were never in SHINee, and didn’t have to worry about fame and work, my hyungs wouldn’t care about me at all.”

“Taemin, just listen to what you’re saying. Think about when they have been there for you when times were rough; from the beginning to now. Hey, Minho was only looking at you once everyone was together at my dorm after the…” Luna grew quiet again. Taemin was silent as well for a while. They both listened to the wind cry lightly as the snow hit their face. The snow storm was already starting to increase, more and more snow falling. It was like white tissue paper flying everywhere, large and fluffy.

“I want you to kiss me, Luna.”

“Wh-what?” Luna broke free of his hands and looked at him in shock.

“Please. I just want to know what it’s like to… kiss a girl.”

“Taemin-“

“I won’t tell Onew hyung…Please. I’m so lost and confused I am near depression. I want to feel warmth again in my heart. I don’t know if I’d like it or not, though.”

Luna moved away from Taemin, looking at him. She didn’t know what to do. In her head, she told herself if she kissed Taemin that it was simply for his help. She knew she didn’t see Taemin that way. Luna prayed silently Onew wouldn’t find out about this. She looked at Taemin, and then the ground, and then Taemin back again. Her heart grew nervous, but not uncomfortable. She never thought in her life she would be doing this. Before, she was an ugly duckling, but now, she felt like she was wanted. Her life was changing so quickly, so many things happening each day. Taemin placed his first finger on her chin gently, and tilted his head, a gaze right on her. He had such plump lips that were so cute it made her jealous. She was able to scan his whole face, seeing his smooth skin and soft features. Luna turned red, but closed her eyes, waiting. Their faces moved slowly towards each other, not knowing what to expect.

Taemin’s lips pressed against hers before he let go of her chin, and moved his hands innocently around her back. She hesitated, but wrapped her arms around his shoulders. Taemin honestly enjoyed the kiss; they both were warm compared to the cold air. Luna released his lock on her, and looked at Taemin for a moment.

“Well?” She breathed out, a worried look on her face. All she could think of was Onew’s anger. Taemin stared at her, his eyes slightly closed. He looked back at her lips, and jumped back towards her, kissing her more. Luna pushed Taemin softly away.

“Yah-”

Taemin grabbed onto her back stiffly, not letting go. Luna’s face was hot and she felt extremely shy, unsure of the moment. He kissed her more, Luna trying to accept that this was only to help his confusion. She finally broke free once again, “Taemin! Please…” Taemin turned red, feeling guilty.

“I-I’m sorry… but kissing just feels-“

“I know.” Luna smiled, “You should know that this was only to help you,” she scolded. Taemin nodded. “How do you feel?”

“Honestly… it feels nice to kiss you, Luna.” Luna looked to her right, rubbing her arm, feeling shy. She didn’t want Taemin to grow feelings for her, but for Minho. Taemin quickly protested, “But… I just… miss Minho hyung right now.” Luna smiled friendly at him, nodding.

“Honestly, I’m glad to hear that. It means your feelings for Minho are real.”

Taemin looked away from Luna after she said that, saddened slightly.

“Luna, he will never kiss me the way he did back then. He’s changed.”

Luna looked down. She thought about last night, wondering what made him so upset, anyway. The only thing she could remember was being at the club, enjoying her dancing with Taemin and Minho.

“Taemin, I have a question for you.”

“Yes, Luna?”