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Sica's Home 

North Beach, San Francisco, California, USA

July 6, 2019

It's been almost four months since Fany stayed here with us and it's also been a week since my belly started to hurt. BAD. I've checked it with my doctor but she just told me that It's normal and it's just false labor but she told me that It's possible that I"ll deliver these babies earlier since there are not one but four of them. This morning, these two annoying girls keep on making me walk so that the babies could go out earlier since they're excited to meet them. They're freaking out since they both knew the gender and Stephanie's hitting all the store to buy all the things that the babies need. I gave them my card since I don't want to burden them some more but they keep on insisting that they also have money and they wouldn't bother using theirs since these are also their nieces or nephews and that I shouldn't bother. 

I'm walking and walking, this pain isn't the same as I experienced in the last few days. I think I'm going through labor already. Sica keeps on updating my doctor about my situation now and Steph is writing down the time that I would feel my contractions and calculate its interval. Now, I would have contractions every 20 minutes that would last for half a minute to one. It's very painful like I want to shout it all out. 

"Okay Tae, I called your doctor and she said we have to go to the hospital right now. She said that you're having mild contractions and you needed to stay in the hospital so she can monitor you." Sica explained and I nodded. "Okay, Steph can you get the baby bag that you packed? I'll go ahead to the car because any minute I would have contractions again." Steph nodded and I walked towards the car, trying to relax my nerves. 

"Okay babies, Mama would meet you any moment and I'm so excited to meet all of you." rubbing my belly. "Have you settled already, Tae?" Sica asked and I nodded. "Can you make it fast because I'm having another round of contraction? Owww." I howled trying to ease the pain, mentioning to Steph to list it down. 

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Saint Francis Memorial Hospital 

North Beach, San Francisco, California, USA

It's been many hours since we arrived here in the hospital. The doctor said that I would meet the babies soon but I need to be prepared since the babies would be tiny compared to the normal ones. I'm very anxious at the moment, I'm afraid that if something is wrong with my babies, I would definitely blame myself they're the only ones I got left, left of him. I don't know when I should tell him about these angels but I can't bring myself to face him. I'm still a little hesitant seeing their photos online, seeing them friendly toward each other, thinking that I would just be a hindrance to whatever they have between each other. Since I let him go, I've always been wishing for his happiness even if it means that I'm not in his life anymore. I don't know when I could find the courage to tell him everything but I know that I'll not withhold his right to be the father of our children. I'll give him a choice if he wants to be a father to our babies but if not, Yes it will hurt but I have to accept it and face the future with my babies. 

I flinched, feeling water gushes out of me. I called out to Steph "Tae, are you fi-" her eyes widen, and rush out the door. I'm trying to calm myself and regulate my breaths. I'm feeling another wave of contractions and the doctor came and checked me. She said many things but I can't understand what she's saying the only thing I understand is that I'll deliver this baby now. Everybody's moving right now and preparing for the birth of my babies and the next thing I knew, the anesthesia kicked in, and lose my consciousness. <