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Asan Medical Center 

Songpa-gu, Seoul, South Korea

November 20

I keep fidgeting my fingers while waiting for the doctor's assessment. "Okay, Ms. Kim as you see here this is baby A." then she moved the transducer. "Then this is baby B, that is beside baby C." I gasped ."I'm having triplets?" she chuckled. "Kind of." then she moved again the transducer. "And this is baby D." my eyes widen. "I'm having quadruplets?! Is that even possible?" 

"Yes, it can be, Ms. Kim. I know it sounds impossible to me either I was shocked and you saw how I reacted. We probably didn't saw them when you had your last appointment. Your pregnancy is very delicate. You have to be very careful, many doctors would probably tell you to consider reducing the number of babies in your womb but I know you wouldn't agree with that."  I nodded, she continued. "So I would remind you to take care of yourself even more. Always remind yourself it's not only you anymore. You're carrying four angels in your tummy."

She prescribed different vitamins that I would take throughout my pregnancy. She also told me what I needed to expect, the hormones, the morning sickness, the cravings, and many more. I thanked her and I make my way to the company to talk about them my plans. I walked towards the Director's office. 

"Taeyeon, we already finalize your hiatus, why did you go here when we already talked everything the last time."  I sat down. "I would like to request that can you release the news after I left already, I'll probably leave tomorrow." he nodded. "If that's what you liked, Ms. Kim, we will grant your request." 

On my way home, I think of the things that will unfold starting tomorrow. I know that it's sounds that I only think of myself and I didn't even consider what the people around me would feel. But I don't want to leave that everyone knew about my plan because I know that he would start to ask my family and friends about my whereabouts and I wouldn't like him to know where am I. I just told my family that I needed to take some different workshops that would be beneficial to my career. I just wish they would forgive once they know the truth and know that I only did what's the best for me and my angels. 

I prepared my things and Zero's and wishing everything would be okay as we slept through the night.

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Hannam Penthouse

Hannam-dong, Seoul, South Korea

November 21

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[★BREAKING] Girls' Generation's Taeyeon goes for a hiatus

SM Entertainment has announced earlier this morning that Girls' Generation's Taeyeon would go for a hiatus, asks fans to respect her privacy. 

"Taeyeon will be taking a rest and would go to different workshops that would be beneficial for the future of her career."

They also said that Taeyeon's come back is indefinite and asks fans to support her decision in taking a break. 

Waking up and seeing this news hasn't been a great way to start my day. Can't even determine what I even feel right now. I feel so numb I thought I just lose her that way when that night happened but I didn't think I could lose her even more. I tried calling all of her family and friends but they didn't know anything just like me. I'm such a fool, that she could do this, she left everything behind her but I can't even blame her because I'm the only one to blame. 

Remembering what Youngbae told me keeps me moving on. I believe one day we will be together once again. 

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I woke up, feeling wanting to puke, I ran towards the room and spill out the contents of my stomach. I sat on the floor, rubbing my tummy. "Babies, can you keep it down for a little bit? Mama is very tired to spew every hour." I stood up and took a bath and prepares for my flight. I called Zero and dressed him in a denim jumper and put him in his dog carrier. I pulled my suitcase outside and scanned everything for the last time, remembering all the memories we made here in my humble home. Where we would go here straight after our schedules, talk about what happened in our day, having dinner together, and would play with Zero after, and after that, we would do cuddles and wrapped each other into tight embraces that sometimes would lead to lovemaking.

I just smiled, thinking everything would be better if I just leave everything behind. It would help me move on and someday if I'm ready to face all of these again, I will face them bravely and maturely, kno