Hapjeong-dong, Mapo-gu, Seoul, South Korea

March 4

𝐇𝐢𝐬

It's been a week. 

It's been a hell of a week since I don't get to see a glimpse of Taeyeon or even hear her sweet soothing voice. 

She also doesn't answer my calls or even reply to my texts. 

Her so-called 'oppas' don't even allow me to get near to her, while her girl friends just constantly say sorry for they respect Tae's reminder not to share any info about her. 

And same old routine, I'm here in my recording studio making myself busy once more, distracting my mind whose full of thoughts of one certain Kim.

Although with all the effort I'm exerting, I can't seem to forget what happened a few days before, that let me confirm that something definitely happened on our lunch. 

Flashback

I'm on my way to SM Entertainment since the production team called me for NCT's song that I did with Taeng. She has been ignoring the out of me since 3 days ago and the last time I heard from her is when we had dinner with my family. I was walking along the corridor wishing I'd be in a meeting with Taeng and when I opened the door seems like the heavens is on my side today. 

I saw her listening intently to what the production team is saying and she looked my way briefly when she probably saw that I am the one who just arrived she diverted her attention immediately 

I just sat down and greet everyone and sat quietly. We finished recording the song about a week and a half ago and they plan to make the song a pre-released single wherein they will shoot a mini lyric video with the NCT members and Taeng in it. 

They just said that it would be just a casual setup where they will just sing along to the song just like Taeng's cover up lyric video. 

Throughout the meeting, they just discussed the details of the video they have to make. And they also said that I can take part since I know the song better and asked me to give out ideas so the video will turn out better. 

After exchanging so many ideas, we have come up with a plan the shoot will begin 5 days from now and it will only last a day since it will be on the casual side. 

The meeting went well and Tae, she's gathering her things fastly and went outside. I bid all my goodbye to both the production team and the NCT members. 

I walked fastly so I can catch up with Tae and explain to her what had happened during our lunch. I saw her standing near the exit door of the building headed to the parking lot. I was about to approach her when a man put his hands on the small of her back. 

It turns out it was her precious Siwon oppa. Still, I approached them not wanting to waste my only chance to let her hear my explanation even though there was an unwanted presence around us. 

"Tae?" I called out to her which she clearly heard since it was not her who looked back at me but the other person who is she with.

Siwon hyung just looked at me and show a small smile. He nods at me, "Hey, Jiyong-ah. I guess the meeting went well."  I just nod at him and greet him back also.

"Can I talk to you, Tae? I'll just take a minute of your time." I asked her but she didn't budge while I and Siwon Hyung just wait for her response. 

She didn't say anything but held Siwon's arms and he might get what she was trying to say and said they need to go because they were late for their lunch and said he was sorry.

Taeyeon didn't even glance back and Siwon hyung just opened the car door for her and she went inside, still not looking back and they drove off.

Flashback ends 

I've been calling her, messaging her, asking if she has eaten, what she's doing, apologizing for what happened, and pleading for her to hear me out but she stands strong and didn't bother to reply to any of my messages. 

Days have passed and still, I haven't got to explain to her everything. And tomorrow is our scheduled day to shoot the lyric video for the song, hoping that I get a chance to let listen to my explanation. 

𝐇𝐞𝐫 

I'm wandering here in a park where only exclusive people are allowed, so I'm a bit relaxed not worrying about the paparazzi that may come after us. I was alone with my girls for these past few days stressed the hell out me. At first, Stephanie and the rest of the girls didn't allow me to go out but I said that I clearly need some air and informed them that I will go to an exclusive private park and that's where they allowed me to go but not for long. 

I just agreed with their condition and wanted to spend time with my girls alone. I planned a small picnic for me and my girls, we'll just eat our lunch and spend a little time under the shade of a tree in this clear sunny weather. 

Jiyong has been calling me a lot, when I say a lot it is clearly a lot. He would call but I will not answer it so it would go straight to my voice messages. He would ask me things, if I ate already, and what am I doing, or he would apologize and beg to hear him out. Of course, I feel really guilty because I don't give him the chance to explain himself but I don't think this time is the right time. I'm afraid to get hurt once more and make the girls' welfare a priority at the same time. 

My thoughts are cut when Jisoo called me, "Mamaaaaa." she called and pointed at the sky while looking up, pointing to the birds that fly above us. 

"What's that, Jisoo-yah? It's Sae-yah." she clapped and blabbered sae-yah on her own. I smiled and she continued to blabber when a bird flew and sat close to us. Making these four fluffy girls, startled but very curious about the bird. 

They were looking at the bird intently and I feed the bird some bread that I packed so that the girls could look at it at a safe distance. Jisoo started to blabber 'sae-yah' continuously while clapping her hands, clearly, the bird is making her very excited. 

Once the bird is done eating it chirped facing the girls causing them to giggle altogether. And they wave their hands to say bye to the bird once it flew away.

We were eating peacefully when someone called us from behind. I froze when I heard a familiar voice called me behind. I froze, even more, when the girls started to blabber 'Mama' calling me to also look at birds in the sky

I don't know what to do, should I face back or should I pretend that It's not me? But I know that it's not possible to pretend that it's not me. Aish, why of all the days that I will visit this park there is someone that will recognize me?

Leaving with no choice, I faced them back.

I saw that it was Siwon oppa and Minho with their golf equipment on their back. I smiled a little bit but clearly, my four daughters would like their uncles to know them as they're still calling for my attention. 

"Yah, Taeyeon-ah! Are they yours?" Siwon oppa immediately dropped the million-dollar question even though I haven't greeted them back yet. 

Siwon oppa is waiting for my answer while Minho already approached the girls and play with them, who are still calling me.

"You already know the answer to your question, oppa." I said and smiled at him. "Does he know?" I shook my head in disagreement. 

"Wah, daebak. You had them at once?" I nodded and said, "Even I, don't think it's possible but here they are." I chuckled. 

I introduced them to Siwon oppa