𝐇𝐞𝐫

Sun's shining brightly in the morning sky, stirring up, hands reaching towards the other side of the bed. Feeling nothing, abruptly sitting up. "Ji, where are you?" shouting while rubbing my eyes to brush off sleepiness. Heading towards the kitchen, seeing no one, I rushed towards the bathroom, thinking he's just taking a bath. But as I opened the bathroom door, welcomed an empty bath. Upset finding no one, but it's just me and Zero. Again. Going back to my room and take a refreshing bath, hoping to wash these worries away, noticing a note sticking to my dresser saying "Need to finish things, Tae it's about my deadline on weekend. Sorry, can't stay but take care." Reading his note added disturbance to my already perturbed heart. "He didn't mention if he still loves me. That's twice in a row." scoffing. 

I sat down on my bedroom floor, devastated. Realizing the end is near. Everything seems to fall apart. I can't fathom why did we end up here. Like weeks ago, were still okay. He still cares. He spends time with me giving his undivided attention to me. Always telling me he loves me that we would end up spending each other's lives with each other. But now, we're very far ahead of that. It's unobtainable with what's happening between us today. 

I miss him.

Missing the way we were before. Missing how he would always spend his time with me, saying he can't go on when he hasn't seen me yet, that despite his busy schedule he would always find time to make it up to me. Missing how he showers me with his wet kisses that'll always lead to something steamy. Missing our secret dates, going to various places at night where people are lesser, doing normal things normal couples do, pretending we were normal. Missing him being cutesy and clingy always wanting to cuddle all day long. Missing him interrupting my endless rants with his kisses. Missing waking up first and admiring his sleeping face, which has drools all over his lips, very different to his image onstage. Missing him kissing me to wake me up to make love. Missing how we would gather up our families and have dinner together resulting in the unbreakable bond between them. Dami unnie, Hayeon, and I always go on a shopping spree. My dad, Kwon appa, Jiwoong Oppa, and he always talks about their different men's stuff all day. While mom and Kwon eomma would talk about family things and mom talks. 

But all I could do is miss him and the things we did together.  Knowing we can't go back to the way we before made it harder for me.

𝐇𝐢𝐬

Tapping my pen on my desk, listening to the song I have to submit for our come back. These days have been very exhausting but people around me are very supportive especially having Dara noona by my side helps a lot. I know that totally sounds wrong but I can't help it. Dara noona had been my greatest love, W