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Gisan-ri, Ildong-myeon, Pocheon-si, Gyeonggi-do, South Korea
February 25ย
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After I ended the call, I immediately call for Tae outside the comfort room but no one is answering back. Thinking that she probably went back to the dining area, I make my way towards there since I have to go back to Seoul since something happened to Jinwoo, Dara noona just informed me.ย
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"Noona, did you see, Taeng?" I asked eomma while looking around us. She looked at me confusedly and said, "She just left, Ji. I think it hasn't been ten minutes yet since she left."ย
"What? Why didn't she tell me?" I asked, dumbfounded about what's happening right now. "Yah, she told us that she informed you that she has to go since there is something that she has to do with her company urgently andย her friend is in the area also she said that you didn't have to take her back home and she'll just go back with her friend. You two are making me dizzy, I don't know which one of you is saying the truth." Dami noona exclaimed.ย
"I don't know what's happening right now, noona. I just answered some call and when I came back here she's gone." I explained. "Hmm, you know Ji that Tae wouldn't do such thing, to leave abruptly without any reason at all, unless something happened when she's in the comfort room." Dami noona stated.ย
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I tried hard but to think but nothing came to my mind that I did something wrong that would cause her to leave suddenly, unless if she....
overheard my phone conversation with Dara noona.ย
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But I didn't say anything suspicious to Dara noona during our call we were just talking about Jinwoo, who is the reason that I also have to rush back to Seoul.ย
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Kim Taeyeon, you really make my head hurt.
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๐๐๐ซย
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I continue to shed tears silently, letting my heart contents out. When I heard my song playing on the radio.
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*๐๐๐ข๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐ฎ๐๐ฃ๐
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Coincidence, isn't it?
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๐๐ฉโ๐จ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐, ๐ฝ๐๐ง๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ฎ
๐ฝ๐๐ง๐ฉ๐๐๐๐ฎ๐จ ๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐ฅ๐๐จ๐จ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐๐จ
๐โ๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ค๐ข๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ข๐ค๐ง๐
๐๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐๐๐ช๐ก๐ฉ, ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐
๐๐ซ๐๐ฃ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก, ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐ฃ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ค๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ข๐๐ฃ๐
๐๐๐๐ง๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ก๐ค๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ฎ๐๐จ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ ๐ข๐ค๐ข๐๐ฃ๐ฉ
๐ ๐๐๐ฃ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฎ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐จ
๐๐ค๐ชโ๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐๐
๐๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐, ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ง๐ฎ
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I can't help it, but every time I hear this song only one person comes immediately to my mind. When the composer of this song offered it for me to sing it, I didn't hesitate and agreed to it in heartbeat. I was also in a dark place during that time when meย and him first decided to cool off. So this song really fits whatever I'm going through duringย that time.
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๐๐ฉโ๐จ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐, ๐๐๐๐จ๐ค๐ฃ๐จ
๐๐๐ซ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐๐ก ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐๐จ
๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ก๐ฎ ๐ก๐๐๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐๐ค๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ
๐ ๐จ๐๐ค๐ช๐ก๐ ๐๐ ๐ช๐จ๐๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ฉ ๐๐ฎ ๐ฃ๐ค๐ฌ
True, I should really be used to not having him beside me but I really don't know why I find it hard to accept that having you again screams impossible now.
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๐๐ซ๐๐ฃ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก, ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐ฃ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ค๐ข๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ข๐ฎ ๐ข๐๐ฃ๐
๐๐๐๐ง๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ก๐ค๐จ๐ ๐ข๐ฎ ๐๐ฎ๐๐จ ๐๐ค๐ง ๐ ๐ข๐ค๐ข๐๐ฃ๐ฉ
๐ ๐๐๐ฃ ๐จ๐๐ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฎ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐๐จ
๐๐ค๐ชโ๐ง๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐๐ก๐ก ๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐ ๐ฅ๐ก๐๐๐
๐๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐จ๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐๐, ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ง๐ฎ
๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ง๐จ๐, ๐๐ค๐ค๐๐๐ฎ๐๐จ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ
๐๐๐ข๐ค๐ง๐๐๐จ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐๐ช๐จ๐ ๐ฌ๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐ค๐๐๐ฉ๐๐๐ง
๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐ง๐๐จ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ค๐ ๐๐ฉ
Should I really accept my defeat right now, Ji?
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๐ฝ๐ช๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐๐ฃ ๐ ๐ฉ๐ง๐ฎ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐๐ค๐ง๐๐๐ฉ
๐๐๐๐ง๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ช๐ฅ, (๐ฉ๐๐๐ง๐จ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก ๐ช๐ฅ)
๐๐ฃ ๐ฉ๐ค๐ฅ ๐ค๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ ๐ฌ๐๐ก๐ก๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ง๐จ
๐๐ค๐ช ๐๐ก๐ค๐ฌ ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐ข๐ ๐จ๐ฉ๐ค๐ฅ๐จ
๐๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐ง๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ ๐ฉ๐ง๐๐๐ ๐จ๐ค ๐๐๐ง๐ ๐ฉ๐ค ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฃ
๐๐ช๐๐๐ฉ๐ก๐ฎ ๐ง๐๐๐จ๐๐จ ๐๐ฉ๐จ ๐๐๐๐
๐ ๐๐๐ก๐ก ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐๐๐๐๐ฃ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐๐ฃ ๐๐ฃ๐ญ๐๐ค๐ช๐จ ๐ซ๐ค๐๐๐
๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ง๐จ๐, ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐๐จ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ
๐ฝ๐๐๐๐ฃ๐ฃ๐๐ฃ๐๐จ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐๐ฃ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐จ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ก๐ฌ๐๐ฎ๐จ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ฉ, ๐ซ๐๐ง๐ฎ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ง๐๐ฃ๐ฉ
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๐๐ ๐๐ค๐ช๐ง๐จ๐, ๐๐ค๐ค๐๐๐ฎ๐๐จ ๐๐ง๐ ๐๐ก๐ฌ๐๐ฎ๐จ ๐ก๐๐ ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐จ
๐๐๐๐ง๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ก๐ค๐ซ๐๐ ๐๐ซ๐๐ฃ ๐๐๐๐ฅ๐๐ง ๐๐๐ฃ๐๐จ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐จ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ง๐ฎ
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๐๐๐ฃ๐๐, ๐๐ค๐ค๐๐๐ฎ๐๐จ ๐ ๐๐๐ฅ ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ฃ๐ ๐ข๐ ๐๐ง๐ฎ
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Maybe this isn't the right time for us. Maybe in another lifetime, where the universe allows us to be together, I wouldn't allow anything to come between us. But now, I should follow what my mind is telling me to because my heart would never learn to let go of you even though that's what I really need to do.
When I have decided what I'll do,ย tears fell fastly off of my eyes and trailed down on my cheeks. Knowing it'll be the hardest thing to make but most fittingly to do.
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My mind is in a daze right now. If I can just tear myself into two where one would go to Jinwoo and the other one to Taeyeon. Dara noona said that she rushed Jinwoo to the hospital since Jinwoo wouldn't want to eat anything for the past few days and if he ate something, he would throw it up immediately.ย
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Now,ย Jinwoo fainted probably because of dehydration. I asked why Dara noona didn't bother to tell me but she said she didn't want to disturb me for she knows that I'm spending most of my time with Tae nowadays.
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I'm on my way to my mother's close friend's hospital the same hospital where I brought Taeyeon when she also fainted. I asked Dara Noonaย to bring Jinwoo there as I already informed them about him and his situation.
While on my way to the hospital, I tried countless times to call Taeyeon but she wouldn't answer. I know that she overheard my conversation with Dara noona and I guess she's forming a lot of scenarios in her head that are probably not close to the truth.ย
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I want to go after her but first I have to makeย sure that Jinwoo is fine.ย
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Many of my friends and people around me thought that Jinwoo was my son with Dara noona, considering what happened between me, Dara noona, and Taeyeon.ย
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I remember one time when Youngbae suddenly barged into my studio when I was in the middle of recording something.
"The your problem, Ji?" heย angrily said to me. And I just faced him confused. "Areย you really making a fool out of me? Spendingย one night with noona isn't enough and you had to make it recklessly?" he still angrily said.
"What the hell are you talking about, bae?" I don't want to add fuel to fire for Iย still don't have any clue why would he just barge in my studio and startย screaming to my face.ย
"Do you have a son with Dara noona? If yes, how can you even plan on taking Tae back if you already have some baggage with you," he asked. Finally, I have an idea of what he's telling me.ย
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"I don't have any son, bae. And if I have, I would definitely let Tae be the mother of my child. If you mean Jinwoo, Jinwoo is Dara noona's nephew which she most of the time looks after for Jinwoo'sย parents stay out of the town mostly. And because of that Dara noona's mother have to take care of himย and Dara noona always looks after him if she's free so that she wouldn't burden her mother that much." I explained.
After hearing my explanation, Bae's face suddenly lit up no grumpiness is evident. He said he was sorry and didn't ask the truth from me and just concluded things on his own without hearing my side.ย
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I said it's fine and said he was just being a good friend that looks after my wellbeing.ย
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I'm now near the hospital, I texted Dara noona and ask what's Jinwoo's room number so that I can go straight ahead. After receiving her text, I immediately parked my car and went to Jinwoo's room.ย
Once, I opened the door, Dara noona's worried faceย welcomed me. I hugged her then went to Jinwoo's side who is now sleeping soundly right now.ย
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"What is his diagnosis, noona?" I asked noona while brushing Jinwoo's hair.ย "They are still conducting tests right now. They get a sample of his blood and urine and the doctor still hasn't come back." noona said, and I just nodded. ย
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I stared at Jinwoo's peaceful pale face. Anyone would also think that Jinwoo is my son because of our closeness. I became his substitute dad since his father is often not in the town and if he is, he would only stay for a few days.ย
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Dara noona would always bring him to the company, where most of the time I would stay since staying in my house would just make me drown myself inย alcoholic beverages since I would constantly think about Tae and what I did to her.
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I remember the first time I saw Jinwoo, he entered my studio w
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