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Teheran-ro, Samseong 1(il)-dong, Gangnam-gu, Seoul, South Korea

February 6 

Today is our second time recording the song, well my part is mostly finished and I was just watching the boys do their work. Probably our next meeting would be just the finishing touches to the song. I just want myself to relax a little bit after all of this is finished after hearing what I heard what happened to him from Dami eonnie. It's hard to pretend to be uncaring when you know you are far from being that person. I admit that there's part of me that wants to get back with him especially for my girls but in the situation, we are in right now, I think that will be impossible to happen. Especially, that things will just complicate even more if we really tried to get back together.

I'm drowning myself in thoughts again when Hyoyeon sends an invitation in our group chat. I clicked it to see it fully and saw it was an invitation to a party tonight. It was a mini get-together party of 2nd Generation Idols in a private club. 

I sent a chat asking if they were going to attend the party, and they said that they're all free tonight and that they were planning to visit their nieces. I suggest that we just have our own mini get-together with my babies but Steph said that let's just attend the party since it's been a while that we last saw our friends. I just agree but I said that I can't promise to stay that long since I have to look after my girls, they also said that they will also go to my apartment since they miss their nieces already but I know that's impossible to happen, cause I'm sure that they'll drink later. 

As I kept chatting with the girls, I heard the boys started clapping, implying that they're probably finished for today.  I stood up and showed a smile at them, for their good work today. Jiyong saw me and started to walk towards me. 

"Tae, did you hear about the party tonight? Are you and the girls are coming?" he asked. I nodded. "The girls wanted to attend so I have no choice but to go with them since they will not allow me not to go with them." hearing my response his smile becomes bigger, "Alright, see you tonight, Tae along with the girls." he patted my shoulder and left, surprised that he didn't ask me if I want to ride with him back home, probably because we went to SM Ent. the same time that we bump in the lobby. LITERALLY. 

FLASHBACK 

I was finding in my bag where could my wallet be while walking towards the lobby when I bump into someone's back. I quickly apologized and said I wasn't looking at my way when I saw that it was him I bumped into. 

"Hey Tae, good morning! Here is your fave coffee to start your day, I stopped in a coffee shop to grab some caffeine earlier on the way here." he hands me a cup of warm coffee. And I accepted it and said thanks for his kind gesture, the things I heard from Dami eonnie, and the kind gestures he makes, making my head hurt. We ride the elevator together and walk towards the recording room to see the whole NCT members are there already, really grateful for that since I don't have to be alone with him since I know I can't handle more alone moments with him.

FLASHBACK ENDS

I sent a text to the girls that my work's finished today since they told me to inform them when I was done. I waited for their reply and they just replied to meet with each other in a mall. I just agreed and begin to start driving towards the said mall. 

As I arrived, I already saw Tiffany and Jess in the lobby. I waved my hand at them and stride towards them. 

"Hey, why do we need to go to the mall? I need to help mom in taking care of the girls and I miss them also, I can't even spend a long time with them because of this stupid work." I let out a little scowl. 

"Yah, if you miss your girls then we miss them much more, we didn't see them for a couple of days already. I miss their giggles and coos and I want to kiss them all over their face. And that's new for Kim Taeyeon not wanting to do work, you're the one who always wants to be preoccupied with work since you can't stand doing nothing." Jessica complained

"Of course, everything's different now, Sica. I just want to spend all of my time at home if I could but I can't because of this stupid work I have with my daughter's father." I said, grumpily. 

"Yah, as if you don't like it, Tae. I think you enjoy each minute you spend with him, don't trick us!" Sica laughed loudly while I gave her a deadly glare. 

we continue to bicker with each other when Tiffany stopped us. 

"Yah, yah you two stop bickering like a child as if one of you isn't a mother already! Stop it now because the other girls are here."  she light knocked our heads while she waved at the other girls so that they can see us. 

I still gave Sica a deadly glare while she's still laughing silently. "What are we even doing here? Why do we even need to go to the mall when we already have something to go to later?" I gloomily said. "Come on, Tae. We need to grab some clothes we can wear later! Don't be such a party pooper!" Fany said while pulling me to the lobby of the mall. "Come on, girls. We have some fun shopping to do because later we need to paint the town red!" Fany shouted while I try to cover my precious ears because of her loud voice. I just roll my eyes and let them do what they want to do since I don't have any choice. 

We were at our fifth store to go to and I can't find the right dress to wear later. I just sat on one of the couches while waiting for the girls to try their dresses. While waiting for them, I saw the Chanel store across and decided to check if they have some dresses that can catch my eye. I entered the store and went towards the dresses section. There are many dresses from formal to sophisticated look but one dress caught my eye. It was a black fitted dress, the top is a halter cut but you can see the slight low cut around the chest area since it's kinda see-through and the dress is kinda above the thighs like not too short but not too long. I went to the bags section and got myself a small black flap bag that can fit with my dress well. 

I went towards the cashier and pay for everything, After getting the things I purchased I went back to where the other girls are and sat back on the couch where I was sitting a while ago. I just scroll around my Social Media while waiting for them to finish. 

"I see that you're done, Tae. That's kinda fast because these girls still have not chosen anything despite that they're the ones who kept looking for something to wear since we arrived here." Sunny said. I just laughed. "You know that we're the ones who get to chose something to buy because we're not that indecisive just like them." We just laughed and continue to judge the girls for not able to choose one for the many options they choose from. 

After some time, each of them has chosen something and finally, we're done shopping. We agreed that we just fix ourselves in one place so that we can help each other and that would be mine since they miss their nieces so much, hitting two birds with one stone. 

We arrived at my apartment in no time since these girls are in a rush more than me as they want to meet their nieces so much. I just shake my head and started to punch my password in after they heard that the door is already open they pushed behind so that they can enter first then me. 
 

I just let them, knowing that they already miss their nieces. I went straight to the room so I change into my more comfortable clothes and I already hear some giggles coming from my daughters. I went to the kitchen and look for something to eat while the girls play with my daughters. 
 

As I was looking at the contents of the refrigerator someone called me, "Mamaaaaaa!!" Jiyeon called me, and I looked at them and said, "Hi my babies, did you miss mama?" Four of them look at me and started to crawl towards me. All of the girls were devastated because all of their nieces started to crawl towards me. I sat on the mat while waiting for them to come close to me. 
 

When they're already close to me they all started to bury themselves into me and give me their sweetest sloppy kiss. I gathered them all in a bear hug and began to kiss them. Their giggles fill my ears as they enjoy the attention I give them. 
 

"They all left us when they see their mother, I think I should make my own so that I'll have someone who will get that happy when they see me," Sooyoung said 

I laughed when I heard that as well the other girls. I agree with her statement since being a mother to these four cuties has been a meaningful adventure for me and I can't wait to witness them growing up as time goes by. 
 

"Mama will just help grandma to cook some snacks, okay? Just play with your other aunties cause they missed you so much. Mama will play with you later, okay? I love you." I kiss them one by one and let their aunties get them from me to play with them, but Jihye wouldn't get off of me so I don't have any choice but to bring her with me. I'm fortunate since Jiah agreed to play with her aunties it seems like she's in a good mood today because if she's not then for sure, I will be holding two babies right now and for that, I wouldn't be able to help eomma. 
 

I just kissed my Jihye and proceed to the kitchen, gonna try to help eomma a little in preparing snacks for us. I helped her prepare the ingredients she needed and the things she will be used for cooking. I look down when I felt that Jihye kept burying her face to my chest and saw that she's looking sleepy, I went into their room, gave her milk, and try to lull her to slee