The members were finishing their breakfast as Suyeon rolled for the day's ships. "OK, it's going to be Sei and Yoojung, Doyeon and Ellie, Rina and Lua, and me and Lucy."   Sei swallowed the last of her yogurt. "OK," she said, "but Lucy and I are going for a walk in the park this afternoon."   "You can't," Suyeon said. "Lucy isn't your ship today."   "Screw that!" Sei said. "Lucy and I are going for a walk today."   "But-"   "I said screw it!" Sei yelled. "We're going for a walk now. Come on, Lucy!" Sei grabbed Lucy's hand and pulled her away from the table.   "But-" Suyeon was being totally ignored.   Lucy looked back at Suyeon and shrugged as Sei dragged her toward the door. She reached down and grabbed her shoes and Sei's as Sei dragged her out the door without stopping her forward motion. She reached back for the doorknob but couldn't quite reach it, so she left the door hanging open.   Suyeon walked over and shut the front door, then came back to the table and sat down. "If any of the rest of you want to do something I've told you not to, now would be the time. I just don't care." She laid her head down on the table, and Lua reached over and rubbed her shoulders. Elly, Yoojung, and Doyeon looked at each other and shrugged, unsure how to handle this situation. Rina finished her eggs and started washing her breakfast dishes.   ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^   When they reach the bottom of the stairs, Lucy was finally able to get Sei to stop. "Can we at least put on our shoes first?" she asked.   "Oh, sure," Sei said. She accepted her shoes from Lucy, not even stopping to wonder how Lucy had them, and started putting them on.   "What's going on with you?" Lucy asked. "I've never seen you get that angry before, and I've never seen you disobey a direct order from Suyeon."   Sei sighed and shrugged, apparently deflated after her earlier storm of temper. "I don't know. Well, I do, but . . ."   Lucy sat quietly, waiting for Sei to continue.   "I'm not really angry at Suyeon. I'm angry about the whole 'pretend ships' routine." She reached out and took Lucy's hand. "I've got three girlfriends I'd love to spend time with, but instead I've got to spend the day pretending to be with Yoojung-unnie because of the dice, because of the fans." She looked up at Lucy, tears glistening in her eyes. "Maybe I'm not cut out for this. Maybe I'm not meant to be an idol."   "Don't even talk that way!" Lucy said, squeezing Sei's hand for emphasis. "I've seen you practive a dance for six hours, all while skipping lunch so you could make weight. No one could sacrifice as much as you have and not be meant to be an idol!"   Sei blinked back the tears. "But what if, no matter how much I want it, it's not meant to be?"   "Now that's just ridiculous," Lucy said, nodding decisively. "I'll tell you what we're going to do: We're going to go for our walk, then we'll go back to the apartment and let Suyeon fuss