My Dad gave me the fiercest look as if he can read my thoughts and predict my feelings. He is my Dad though there’s nothing I couldn’t keep from him.

Irene: Appa what are you talking about? We’re just friends.
Siwon: That’s good to know. I feel relief then.
Irene: Wae Appa?
Siwon: He’s just someone you shouldn’t dream of. Its impossible for you to be with someone like him. I have to go now. I’ll take your Mom and Mark on a date please stay here for a while.

AFTER 3 MONTHS

So I will be alone with Tae today? I went to the kitchen and browse what could I prepare for lunch. I searched for some black themed foods that he could eat. 

I opened our refrigerator to check some available ingredients. I lack a lot of ingredients and it will be lunch time soon I don’t want to go on a grocery store. Maybe that’s why my Mom and Dad went out. 

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I knocked at Tae’s door to ask him to join me in lunch. I went inside and saw him still sleeping. He’s so angelic he made me melt by just sleeping again. I remember what my Dad me, but I trust him he told me he will do everything to be with me.

V: Are you going to stare at me like that for the whole day?
Irene: Ne, I enjoy it anyway. Kaja lets go to eat. I prepared a not so special black sauced noodles for you.
V: Jajangmyeoon?
Irene: Ne.

Both of us enjoyed our Jajangmyeon together. He really likes it he enjoys eating dark colored foods than those with colorful ones. 

Irene: Tae-aa…
V: Ne?
Irene: when you told me that your going to do everything just to be with me.. You mean it right?
V: Of course. Is there something wrong? What bothers you?
Irene: Well I was just wondering if how long we could be together.
V: please don’t think of the day that I am leaving, you’ll just stress yourself. I promise to come back no matter what it takes.

I slurped the noodles and hate the smell of it. Even the taste was different. I spit it out and drink a water.

V: kwenchana?
Irene: yah you should have told me that it tastes awful! 
V: what do you mean? Its delicious.

I took my chopstick and tasted his noodles it tastes awful too it tastes the same and I looked annoyingly to him. 

V: Whats with that look?
Irene: Stop eating that food now. Don’t pretend that you liked it. 
V: I’ll finish my food whats wrong with you? 
Irene: Fine finish it on your own! 

I left him and went upstairs to Mark’s room and covered myself with a blanket. He is so annoying how could he lied to me like that and pretend that I cooked the noodles well. 

The door opened without a knock. I am pretty sure its Tae.i know he’ll come here to apologize and comfort me. 

Mark: Noona.
Irene: Oh its you. 
Mark: Ne, why are you on my bed?

I realized that I am really lying on his bed. I immediately stand up and apologized to him. I went back to the kitchen and saw Tae there. I hit him on the shoulder and it startled him.

V: Hey whats wrong with you?
Irene: so you’re really fixed the dishes before me?
V: Irene-aa… I have to wash what we ate.
Irene: You should have apologized to me. 
V: I know but I will after this,
Irene: I hate you.

I started crying for being chosen after the dishes. Tae was so worried he really hates it when I cry he started comforting me and apologizing for making me upset. I can barely breathe because I cried too much and I cant stop myself for being so emotional.

We’re still hugging for several minutes and I don’t care if Mark we’ll see us like this. I cried more when he tried to apologize so he could comfort me more. Few minutes later I feel discomfort in my tummy I pulled away and faced the sink. I puked a lot and Tae opened the faucet for me. He caress my back and repeatedly asks if I am okay. 

I feel dizzy for a moment and I fell and had difficulty controlling my balance luckily Tae caught me and was able to carry me. He walks thru Marks room but I threw tantrums before he knocked on the door. I left him with no choice but to lay me on his bed.

I asked him to sleep beside me and wrapped me with his arms. He gave me the sweetest and warmest embrace that I love. 

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I opened my eyes slowly and woke up from my sleep. It makes me feel sad to see Tae is not beside me. I stand up from the bed and surprised to see Seulgi sitting on Tae’s leather couch.

Irene: Omo whats that smell. It irritates my nose.
Seulgi: It does? Unnie I am wearing the perfume you gave me last month. Whats wrong with you?
Irene: Jinjja? It smells different.
Seulgi: here. I think I know whats wrong with you.

She handed me a pregnancy test and gave me a nervous look. I also felt nervous for a while I guess she’s really my friend as she was able to notice some of my symptoms. She made me realized my frequent mood swings, food taste changes and vomiting. 

I went inside Tae’s bathroom and peed on the pregnancy test. I refused to take a look at it and waited for minutes to wash it and Seulgi was right it gave me a positive result.

I went outside and gave Seulgi the pregnancy test. Refused to hold it at first but I assured to her that I washed it before handing it to her.

Seulgi: I KNEW IT!
Irene: Omo what am I going to do? 

I cried once again and Seulgi comforted me. Its not that I don’t want this child but I don’t know how will I tell my parents and I also don’t know how will I tell Tae. What will he be is reaction? This is something that we didn’t plan at all.

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Seulgi joined as in our dinner. She noticed that I am not enjoying my food and looked worried. I played with my food and I don’t have any appetite to eat it.

Seulgi: Irene unnie please eat your food.
Siwon: I know you’re sad Irene-aa but we have to do this.
Irene: Ne appa?
Siwon: Didn’t Mark told you? We will migrate in Canada to pursue his studies. He got accepted with the scolarship offered at the university.
Tiffany: Its also better to take the scholarship so he would avoid those students who bullied him.
Irene: I understand Omma, appa, 

Mark didn’t mention anything he just eat on the table silently. Its better to make things this way at least they wouldn’t know that I am pregnant.

I went inside my room and saw Mark packing his things. I gave him a back hug and tell him how I really miss him even though he’s still here.

Mark: Noona. Please take care of yourself.
Irene: I will..
Mark: Well to tell you honestly this is Taehyung hyung’s idea,
Irene: What do you mean?
Mark: He was the one who funded for the 10 scholars in Canada to study. I told him I want to leave because the kids won’t stop bullying me and he did that he told me that all I should do is to pass the exams.
Irene: is that so?
Mark: yes, you’ll visit when you’re free right?
Irene: Of course.

I left his room and looked left to right to see if my Mom and Dad are around. I went inside Tae’s room and saw him talking with Seulgi they stopped as soon as I entered the room. Seulgi hugged me for goodbye and left me with Tae.

Taehyung: Kwenchana?
Irene: Ne. Though I’ll miss my family a lot I think I am still okay, anyway thank you for funding Mark’s scholarship it’s a relief to him to be away with that school.
V: I did it on purpose. I know you’ll be having a hard time to tell your parents  about your pregnancy so I think it will be better if we tell them once the baby is born.

I cried in tears and gave him a tight embrace. I cant believe how lucky I am to have guy that thinks of my convenience first. Im having a hard time to stopped my tears and emotions now that he hugged me tighter too.