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Kris welcomed the new year alone inside his room as he stared down at his phone. Should he make call? Will it make any difference now? Zitao. He wondered if the younger man is doing well. He sighed as he tried to remove Zitao's memories even just for a while but he always failed to do so. Twelve months had quickly passed and he still couldn't get over with Tao.

God only knows how much he hated himself now. He hated himself for being an idiot. For hurting Tao. For hurting the person he loved the most. Everyday he wished Tao would come back. Everyday he hope he would be able to see the younger man again. Everyday he prays Tao would forgive him

Despite he badly wanted to see Tao, he can't. He promised to his father he would not find him and he would not bother him anymore but it is quickly killing him from inside. Life without the younger man by his side was hell. He actually forget how to smile nor how to laugh. Because the only reason that could make him happy is gone now and there's no one to blame but himself

It was twelve hours after the year changed when he gathered all his will to call the younger man. He knew it was not allowed but he managed to get Zitao's new phone number. Just one call. He only wanted to hear his voice again even for a second. He stared down again at his phone as he slowly pressed the call button and moved his phone in his ear. One ring followed by another. Every ring felt like forever. But he quickly pressed the end button before the third ring came. He can't. He can't do it at all. He sighed as he placed down his phone on the side table. He thought he could do this but it seems all his courage left him

"Happy New year Zitao.. i wished I could hear your voice again.."

His gaze fell on the picture frame above his side table. It was a picture of him and Zitao during their company's founding anniversary. Zitao was clinging into him and he was smiling. Zitao was smiling for him. He grabbed the picture and stared at the younger man as he slowly traced his finger in Zitao's smiling face. He wanted to see him smiling again like that. His mind lingers on how Zitao looked so beautiful when he smile. Until that smiling face suddenly morphed into a crying one. Kris felt a stabbed on his chest as he remembered the last day he spent with Zitao. It hurts him a lot to know that he's solely the reason for those tears that clouded Zitao's beautiful face

"Zitao , I am so sorry.. I am so sorry for being such an idiot.."

God. How much he missed the younger man. He missed his smiles, his laughs, his whines, his smell, his voice and everything about him. If only he had a time machine. If only he could turned back time, he wondered if Zitao would be by his side laughing and smiling even now. If only he had a time machine. If only he could turned back time, he would gladly said how much he loved the younger man. If only he had a time machine he would never dare to hurt him. But because there is no time machine. Because he couldn't turn back time. Should he say goodbye to Zitao now?

But he can't.

He wouldn't.

'I can't say goodbye to you, Zitao. I'm so sorry if I am being so selfish right now..'

He closed his eyes as he prayed for Zitao to feel how much he loved him and how much he wanted to be with him right now

#

Zitao suddenly felt uneasy on his seat as he watched a romantic comedy movie with Sehun. "Are you okay?", Sehun asked him and he hummed in returned as he tried to focus his attention to the movie but something was really bothering him

'What the hell? Why on earth i feel someone is calling me??'

He chilled and clinged into Sehun as the thought of ghosts crossed his mind.

"Baby.. whats wrong?? You look pale.."

"Someone is calling me.."

Sehun looked at him, "What?"

He clinged into Sehun more as he roamed his eyes around the younger man's room, "I.. i think there is a ghost in this room.."

"Ghosts? Baby what are you saying?? There is no such thing in my room"

"I can feel it!! There is really ghost in your room!! And its scared the hell out of me!!", he screamed as he stood up fromhis seat and dashed out of the room leaving the dumbfounded Sehun behind

#

Zitao quickly run towards his room and once he reach his shared room with Baekhyun, he immediately crawled on his bed as he covered himself with a blanket. His could still heard the fast beating of his since he was still scared as hell and Baekhyun was not inside their room. Where are you, Hyung?

There's that feeling again. He placed his hand over his chest as he tried no calm down himself.

'Why I feel like someone is really calling me?'

Zitao jumped as someone knocked on the door. One knocked followed by another

"W-who's there??"

"Baby.. open up"

Sehun? He quickly stood up as he heard Sehun called for his name and he opened the door afterwards when Sehun suddenly pulled him into a hug

"Baby.. are you okay??", Sehun asked as he slowly his hair

He nodded as he hugged Sehun back, "I'm sorry for yelling at you a while ago.. i didn't mean that.. its just that.."

"Ssh.. its okay baby.. I understand.. no worries"

He smiled as he felt Sehun's lip againts his forehead

"Thank you, Sese.."

"Baby..", Sehun said as he played with the strands of Tao's hair

"Hmm?"

Sehun cupped his face, "I love you.. i love you so much..", and leaned closer to him. Tao closed his eyes as he felt Sehun's lips into his. He parted his lips as Sehun depeened the kiss and placed his hand at the back of Sehun's neck for support as the younger man roamed his mouth. He slowly parted his mouth as the kissed got intense. He opened his eyes as he felt Sehun touched his hips and there he saw Baekhyun watching them

"S-stop.."

Sehun broke the kiss and looked at him with questioning look, "Hmm?"

"Baekhyun-hyung... is watching..us"

At the mention of their friend Sehun turned around to see Baekhyun grinning at them, the younger man sent him death glares for interrupting his moments with Tao

"Hey stop looking at me like that Sehun!! It is not my fault if both of you are making out with a door open.. and you are not doing it in our room!!"

"Hyung.. we are not making out!!", Tao yelled defensively as he felt extremely embarrassed

"Whatever you say, Zitao..", Baekhyun said as he passed through the embarassed lover

Sehun pouted as Tao told him to go back to his room, "But baby.. we are just started.."

"Come on.. its getting late already.. go to your room now.."

"Then come with me then.."

"Nah.. just sleep Oh Sehun.."

"But there's really no ghost in my room!!"

"That's not what I feel... now be a good boy and go to your room..", Tao said as he pushed Sehun outside their room

"But Baby.."

"Good night Sehun.. love you", Tao said as he leaned to peck at Sehun lips and closed the door immediately

#

"What does it mean Hyung??"

"Probably someone is missing you badly..you know distance and space do not matter as the oneness of all is everywhere.. So you could feel as if this person's calling you.."

"What?? There is such a thing like that?"

"Maybe.. who knows.."

Someone misses him huh. Suddenly a certain someone crossed his mind. He stopped for a while. He never thought about him ever since he and Sehun got together. His brows furrowed as he closed his eyes to stopped himself from drowning to that someone memories

'Are you an id