Tiffany's P.O.V

i know its been a week since the last time i saw taeyeon and that was in her house with her family and our friends but the feelings that i felt when she look at me

deeply in my eyes cant erase the fact that it has something going on in her mind but i cant figure out... and now im in the school and its friday she never come in

the school after what happen to me and nickhun and also with suzy and suzy is still bugging me off... how i wish taeyeon was here... but i guess she is in her

dad's office working like there is no tomorrow like what yoona told me...

"hey!" i was in deep thought that i didnt notice that jessica is calling me..

"hey earth to tiffany!!" said jessica in her loud voice...

"hey jessi!" i said 

"dont hey jessi me you've been spacing out for the last 10 mins and ignoring your bestfriend here who ditch her girlfriend just to be here!" said jessica

pretending to be hurt...

"im sorry jess but..."

"but what? you cant take your mind out of taeyeon?"

"yeah.... but what can i do jess im confussed... i know i told you and to my self that i will not just let myself to fall for someone that cant give back the love that i

give to that person but when im neer her my heart skipped beat and i never felt this way when me and khun started dating way back in the US... and yes i've

been hurt when he broke up and dissapear out of nowhere... but when i see taeyeon her eyes that full of hurt, anger,lonelyness i feel it too and its like when she

look me in the eyes she know what im going to say it like she is reading me like an open book..." when i told jessie she just sigh at me...

"i think you have a feelings for her and she have to, to you but i cant say what is holding her back and why she is trying to avoid or not letting her guard down

but tiff i know you are an impatient person but try to be patient with her maybe the reason why she cant tell you what her feelings for you is that it has something

to do with her past or something..."

and i also sigh at what she said she has a point but.....but i dont know my mind is so messy right now like the marriege the proposal the accident (more likely on

purpose) of nickhun and now taeyeon.... i shake my head just to clear it just not to think of anything but whenever i try that things it always end up like thinking

more about taeyeon and that sad and lonely face of her... god if someday i could see her smile just once the smile that i never seen before the smile that is not

fake.....

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the day ended and i was about to get out of the school and go somewhere i could think and when i am about to get into my car i heard a car honk and i look

arround and its just me so i look back again in the car that honk and tried to look in the mirror of the car and saw it was taeyeon.... she lower her side car

mirror.....

"are you busy?!" she asked

"nope why?"

"are you going somewhere?"

"nope and why are you asking?"

"im just wonderring if you could accompany me my cousins and bestfriend is busy with their partners so i dont have any person in mind that is available only

you!" she said and shrugged her shoulder

"so your asking me to go somewhere out with you?"

"yeah something like that but if you are busy its ok too..."

"no its ok for me..." i said and she unlocked the passenger seat door and i came in..."so where are we going?" i asked while i put my seat belt...

"hmmmm somewhere..." she didnt finish her word and i think i know where she is going seing the flowers in the back of the seat of her car and the way we are

taking we are going to the cemetery...

after 30 mins of driving and an awkward silent we pull over to the cemetery and this is the same place where my mum burried...

"cemetery?" i asked

"yup!" she said

"why?"

"you will know later after we got to the right grave" she said...

after anothe 5 mins walking we stoped in a grave and a name written is LEE MIYOUNG...

she put down the flower that she is holding and brush some leaves out of the name... 

"hey miyoung-ah... its been a while sorry i never visit you but i just want you to meet tiffany..." she said and guesture hand into me when she said my

name..."hey dont be jelous miyoung-ah but just like what you said to your father before the last breat was gone is that you want me to be happy right?....." i just

look at her and saw her looking back at me with a smile..."and she gave back a happiness and hope in my life.." she said that while looking at me and stand up

infront of me.... i look intesely in her eyes and she flashes me again a smile....

ohh god please i need air i cant breath those brown orbs and those cute pouty lips.... ohh god i just want to taste it.....  i said in my mind while she still looking

back at me and we a moment of silence until i have a courage to aske her something...

"tae?" still looking at her eyes..

"hmmm?" she just reply

"why are we here and what do you mean when you said look at me that she gave back the happiness and hope in your life.." i said and she just smirked at me

and i saw her hands slowly lifting up to the direction on my face and in a split second her hand touches my face and i just close and feel her warm hand in

face...

"we are here today because if miyoung was still alive this will be our 6th aniversarry.." she said still my eyes are closed and i dont want to look at her and see

her eyes that full of sad and also i dont want her to me hurt because of what she said..

"but you're maybe misunderstand when i said she gave back the happiness and hope in my life... the she i was talking about is..." she pause for a moment take

a deep breath and said.."is you tiffany hwang you gave me the confedence the happiness the hope and specially the trust in love that i thought i lost for years.."

she said i open my eyes and a paired of dark brown orbs is looking straight in to my eyes.. and i felt she lean closer to me and... she kissed my forehead...

"tiffany hwang this maybe the most rediculous thing that i will do right now but i just want you to know that in 1 week that i didnt went to school makes me feel

lonely not because im alone in the house but because i missed you.. and i want you to know that we are not here because i want to see you hurt but we are

here infront of miyoung's grave to tell you that what i feel for you is different from what i feel to miyoung yes she maybe the first person who makes me special all

this years and i admit that no one can replace her place in my heart but i also want you to know that my heart make a special place just for you... yes you maybe

resemblance to her but you are verry different from her..." she said and tears just run down my face not that im sad but i never expect that kim taeyeon a person

who was broken can say this things to me.... yes i maybe somebody to others at first and nobody to her but she... she makes me special in some ways...i look

back again to her and i saw her take at deep deep breath again and look back to me..

"tiffany i dont know what will i really want to say today but i want you to hear what my heart say and it say..." she pause again and 

"I LOVE YOU!" 

TBC

ok guys missed me?!?!?! i know you want taeny to be together (yes im reading comments and its my motivation)  but i promised in next chapter...

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reiko sighning off!!!!