YOU / Jiyu's POV

Sun rays hit my skin and the wind breeze push my hair away from my face. I look around. All i can see is sand around me. And a guy facing the crystal clear water infront of him. My feet walk toward him without my mind’s approval. I stop right beside him. His eyes looked away, deep into his own thought. And that moment my hand hold his. It is involuntary. But i feel myself starve for his touch. I studied his face. His lips slowly turns into a wide grin. His grip on my hand becomes tighter. And it feel so right. I don’t want to let go. I want to stay here.

 I know this is just some sort of hallucination or dream of the aftermath of the tragedy last night. But, still, this thing couldn’t and wont be true in the real life. Because he ruined my life so i hate him so much yet i want him for myself. And he have no choice but to live up to the fact that he is an idol. I sound so greedy but that’s the fact since i was in high school. Since he entered my class and bug my life. Since he sort of became my best friend and until i fall for him. Hard.

 I guess what people said about falling for your best friend is right. Never fall for them. Because no matter how much mistakes they make, you wont be able to distance yourself from them. And you can hurt yourself just by seeing them being happy infront of you with you not being the reason. You don’t want them to leave an empty space in your heart. Myungsoo once left you with a hollow space