FROM: Wooyoung Oppa

Ha Ni-ah, I'm sorry, I can't meet you today >.<

My schedule is so full, I don't even have time to take a breath.

I'm so sorry, let's postpone it to next week, okay?

Oh well, it wasn't like I expected anything else. He was indeed very busy right now. I did want to speak with him, to clear things out, but if it wasn't possible, then I should accept it.

I was currently taking dance lessons from Seungho during the morning and singing lessons from Yoseob during the evening. Yoseob told me that I should take dance lessons from Seungho instead of him, because Seungho was a better dancer. I didn't know why but I got the feeling that he was somehow avoiding me. Not like ignoring me, but more like he was trying to avoid physical contact. Well, or maybe that was just my own imagination going crazy. But I wasn't complaining though. I would've done anything to listen to his voice. A voice which was able to soothe my soul.

"Wow, your dance skills have improved, Ha Ni-ssi! I can clearly see it.", Seungho said during one of our dance lessons.

"Are you sure, Seungho-ssi? I see no difference...I'm as bad as before." I chuckled.

He smiled. "No, no. Trust me, your skills did improve."

"Ah good. Maybe I have a small chance of passing now."

"Your chance was always  bigger than small, Ha Ni-ssi. You should start believing in yourself."

"I'll try."

"By the way, did you decide which audition to take yet?"

I considered. "I don't think that I'll try for JYPE. They don't have a good impression of me right now." I stopped him before he could say anything else. "And I know what you want to say 'You should show them your potential, no matter what they are thinking of you right now. Prove them wrong.', I know, I know." Seungho chuckled. "But I just don't feel comfortable with JYPE right now. That's why I think I'll go for Cube and J.Tune.", I continued.

"Both? Not bad, Ha Ni-ssi, not bad. I approve."

"Oh? You approve? Good because I would've been so devastated if you didn't.", I said sarcastically.

He laughed.

"Ha Ni-ssi, are you okay? You look so tired...", someone said and I snapped out of my tiny nap. Maybe I shouldn't have been staying up late last night. And after the dance lesson with Seungho, I was at the end of my rope.

It took me a moment to find out who was the one talking to me. "I'm fine, Gayoon-ssi. You girls are certainly way more tired than me, with your full schedule and so on."

"Nah, we are used to it. It's not as tiring as during our debut days.", Sohyun said.

"And don't forget: We, 4minute, are strong girls!", Hyuna added.

I smiled. "Yes, you are."

"And we will soon have Chuseok to spend time with our family and to rest. So stop worrying. Being an idol means working hard, without slacking off, to pursue your dream. We knew what awaited us when we chose this path.", Jihyun said.

But did I knew it? Was I ready to face every obstacle, just to pursue my dream? These girls were so determined. I wished I could be like them.

"You know what I'm anticipating?", Jiyoon suddenly asked.

"What? Just say it already!", Hyuna said.

Jiyoon grinned. "The upcoming auditions!"

My heart stopped beating for a moment.

"Yeah, it's really interesting to see the contestants and to guess who could be our future label mates!", Gayoon said.

I remained silent. I didn't know why I didn't tell them that I would participate. Maybe I was just afraid of their reactions.

"You have a good voice. Did you take vocal lessons before?", Yoseob asked me during our vocal lessons.

I hesitated. "No...I just sang when I felt like it. My mum used to sing with me the whole day...before ...she passed away."

"I'm sorry."

I smiled ruefully. "Nothing you should be sorry about, Yoseob-ssi."

"You know, that means that singing is your natural gift."

"Yeah, sure.", I said sarcastically. "I mean, singing is definitely your natural gift. But for me? My voice is just ordinary."

"Ha Ni-ssi, you should really start believing in yourself. Or do you want to say that I can't judge whether a voice's good or not?"

"No, no! I wouldn't dare! If the almighty Yang Yoseob-ssi says that my singing is good, then I will believe him!", I .

He chuckled. "Good. You should always be confident."

Yeah, that was pretty the same what he said last time during the dance lesson. The one where he showed me how to dance with confidence....where we were up close with each other...

I suddenly blushed. Why the heck was I blushing?!

"Yoseob-ssi, did you hear some rumors recently?", I asked before processing what I just said.

What was going on with me? I shouldn't have asked that. Jeez, Ha Ni, pull yourself together!

"Rumors? What rumors?", he asked confusedly.

Good. Perfect timing to stop. "About...you and me being...involved...", my mouth sputtered those words before my mind could stop it. I mentally kicked myself. Great, just great.

He widened his eyes. "You and me? How did they get that idea?"

I couldn't help but feel a bit hurt when he asked this question like us being involved would be a crazy idea. Okay, it was a crazy idea but...well, it still hurt. You know, it just sounded like he was ashamed of me or something. Ah, why was I so messed up today?

I told him what Kyung Mi told me, about people seeing us together on several occasions and about a staff member spreading the word that we were gettingvery close in a practice room.

"Getting very close, huh? And it was a staff member form Cube?" I nodded. He frowned. "This is getting complicated. We should be more careful from now on. And I have to re-assure the people, especially the fans, that nothing is going on between us and that I don't have a girlfriend and that I won't have a girlfriend in near future. I don't want this situation to get more complicated than it already is. Huh. There are already rumors about me having a girlfriend after a harmless remark on a show. I think I should speak up now."

"Yeah."

He turned to look at me. "Ha Ni-ssi, you're okay, right"

I was taken aback by his question. "Yes, of course. But why are you asking?"

He sighed. "It's just...that some people tend to get to engrossed in such rumors. I have been caught in similar rumors before. Everytime the female counterpart was being attacked online. That's why I'm worried that you...well, were also attacked."

"No...I don't know...I haven't been online since the incident with Wooyoung Oppa..."

"Maybe it's better this way. But don't forget: Don't let harsh words get to you. People will always talk and write before thinking. It will disappear after a while."

"You seem to have experience on this part, Yoseob-ssi."

He sighed again. "Like I said earlier, I was caught in similar rumors before. You can't stop rumors from spreading. As soon as it happens, people will need someone to bash...and it's sometimes the female counterpart."

"Wow...the world of idols is...scary."

"Maybe." He patted my head. "But as long as you believe in what you're doing  and as long as you' re strong enough to cope with every upcoming obstacle, then I'm sure that you can pull it off. Ha Ni-ssi, you are strong."

"I really hope I am."

"You still have friends who will be by your side, no matter what happens."

"You're right. I can do it! Hwaiting!", I exclaimed, causing him to chuckle. "Yoseob-ssi?", I asked after a while.

"Hm?"

"Why are you sure that you won't have a girlfriend in near future? You never know when Cupid's arrow will hit you the next time. You can't decide when to fall in love, it just happens." He remained silent. Hm, maybe I shouldn't have asked. I didn't want to appear nosy. "I'm...I'm sorry, I shouldn't have - "

"I did tell you the reason earlier.", he interrupted me. "As long as I'm an idol, I can't allow myself to fall in love. To have a girlfriend...that would mean suffering on both sides right now." After seeing my expression, he quickly added : "It's not like I'm questioning Wooyoung Hyung's decision! It's just my own opinion on this subject. Everyone has to decide on his own, how much he and his partner can endure." He looked at me. "You know, I somehow can understands Wooyoung Hyung's decision. Like I said earlier...Ha Ni-ssi, you're strong."

"I don't think so..."

"No, believe me, you are. Having weak moments doesn't mean that we are weak. It's who we are and that's what make us human. Being able to get up again after falling down, that's how I would define being strong. That's how I would describe you, Ha Ni-ssi."

"Thank you." His kind words touched my heart. I had never seen myself as strong. Seeing how I often cried and whined, I would rather describe myself as weak. It was to hear that someone saw me as strong. That gave me the courage to live up to their expectations.

He smiled. "Don't mention it."

But there was still something bothering me. "Yoseob-ssi, I'm curious about something. Let's say, just hypothetically, that your girlfriend was betrayed by one of her good friends. While she's confronting this so-called friend, you are there and you have to decide, whom to believe: your girlfriend or this so-called friend. What would you do, Yoseob-ssi?"

He didn't answer. He just looked at me for a while. I had to fight the urge to cower under his intense stare. "Is that the reason why you and Hyung are avoiding each other now?", he suddenly asked.

I hesitated. "Uhm...I...yes."

"Ha Ni-ssi, I will refrain from answering this question. My answer would influence your current opinion too much. I don't want to interfere with this matter. You both should resolve this dispute, talk to each other. Wooyoung Hyung will definitely tell you why he was acting the way he did."

"I see."

"You know, people often tend to think they are doing the right thing, just because they're believing it, without realizing that it's the wrong thing to do and that they're hurting the one they love and care about with these actions. It's just the way humans are, Ha Ni-ssi."

I sighed. "I know. I just wish that he would trust me."

He smiled ruefully. "Trust is a fragile thing. When people disappoint you, it's harder and more difficult to trust again, don't you think?"

I was confused. "Do you, by any chance, know about that incident?"

"If you are talking about the incident with the idol collector, then yes, I know about it. To be honest, nearly everyone knows it, unfortunately. This blogger girl was popular."

"I see."

"Ha Ni-ssi?"

"Yes?"

"I think talking to him would be the best thing to do right now."

"I will. Thank you for listening...and for giving me advice."

He smiled. "You're welcome."

The next day, I couldn't help but get curious. After such a long time, I finally checked the news on the internet. I saw a fancam of one of Beast's performance. It was named ' [Fancam] 110612 BEAST Upset Yoseob - 비가오는날엔 '. It was focused on Yoseob and he was clearly upset and angry. Was it because of the rumors? After searching for a while, I found several arcticles about Yoseob. One was about him tweeting to his fans. Immortal Song 2? Wasn't that a show in which vocalists battled against each other?

I got curious about the part which mentioned him saying something about a girlfriend on this show. He told me something similar yesterday. I searched more and finally found an article. So he mentioned a girlfriend on this show and even though it was a joke, many people started complicating this matter with rumors.

Jeez, some people should really get a life. And Yoseob was really brave to talk to his fans like that, for an idol I mean.

I made a mental note to thank him later on.

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A/N:

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