"should i go meet her or not?"

i don't know what am i supposed to do, but i miss her like crazy now.. i know i should just get away and never meet her again, but my heart is hurting.. it's seeking for her.. my pie.. it wasn't good to keep on staying with something that doesn't exist anymore, but i can't help it.. i really love her.. i can't ever move on with someone which is wasn't her..maybe i should go, seeing her from afar will be enough.. i wonder how she look right now..i wonder how her life now..

i get out of my bed and straight to my wardrobe. i pick my black t-shirt with a blue jean for wear.. no matter what happen i need to see her tonight.. i just have to..

i put on my headphones so that i won't be bored while walking to her house.. her house is just at the end of the block, it took 30 min walk so i decided to walk there,, 4, 5, 6, 7,  i count everystep that i make towards her house, somehow i feel really nervous and maybe i need to forget the plan, but my feet can't stop walking, it keep moving, so i decided to keep my focus on the music from my headphones.

Sitting here wide awake
Thinking about when I last saw you
I know you’re not far away
I close my eyes and I still see you
Lying here next to me
Wearing nothing but a smile

kim remember back the times when she sleep and pie is just beside her and hugging her.. her scent, her warmth are still lingered in her mind...she really miss those little thing about pie..

Gotta leave right away
Counting cracks along the pavement
To see you face to face
Thinking about the conversation
I know I’m not one to change
I’ve never wanted nothing more
But as I walk up to your door

finally, kim reached to her destination, just a small storey house, but still good to stay, the house is full with deco and somehow her smile grew wider.. "this is how she want our house to be back then.." she thought silently in her mind.. when she realise that light is suddenly on from the house, she quickly hide beside the gate,  the road is ,dark and there's no one around, well it already 1 am.. she