“Look at my eyes, I whisper alone as I look at you from far away
Just smile for me once, I can endure it just by seeing your face." ~Selene 6.23

Rin quickly grabbed a pile of clothes, recently ironed and placed them on the closet. She looked at herself and pulled her black sweater over her head just to change it for a blue one.

Jonghyun was going to meet her, at the coffee shop, just below her apartment. She was nervous, but not because it was only their second date since they started going out as a couple.

“Let’s talk!”

Jonghyun said to Rin when she confronted him on the phone and asked about Jules. She couldn’t admit it but she was afraid of his answer and that conversation.

Jules was fantastic. Beautiful, smart, fashionable and she knew how to seduce and make a man fall for her. Jules was full of confidence and self-esteem.

Rin was the opposite. Her fashion sense was just like Onew’s  old fashion sense, she wasn’t good with makeup and she didn’t even know the names of most brands. Yes she was good at her job, but she wasn’t something interesting like a teacher. She spent all her time closed at home, she was like an otaku, lost on the middle of her books, games, and merchandising.

Jonghyun liked that kind of things, she knew that, they even shared the passion for Diablo, but he needed a girlfriend not a friend to play with him, and Jules could be that.

After she turned the call off she questioned herself about what she would do if he told her that he indeed had dated Jules. Would she get angry?

 Rin didn’t have that right, they weren’t dating before, he was a free man and she also did go out with a man. The most painful thing was to think about what the two of them did. Did they hold hands? Hug? Kiss? Had ? No!

Rin didn’t want to think about it. She couldn’t imagine Jonghyun smiling at another woman like he did to her. He couldn’t hold another woman like he held her, it was too painful to think about it.

Rin nervously walked around her small apartment and stopped at the bathroom to brush her hair again. She liked her long hair and she was hopeful Jonghyun liked it too. Once he mentioned how she looked like a princess because of her hair so it was probably her best feature. Jules also had beautiful hair, middle length and blonde. She was so beautiful!

Rin blinked her eyes. Her mom always said she had beautiful eyes. Jules had beautiful eyes too; blue, not black like hers.

She didn’t want to change how she looked. Not for a man!

She is the girlfriend Jonghyun has right now, and if he doesn’t like it he can always break up with her.

Rin said to herself a lot of times while she waited for midnight. Jonghyun asked her to meet later so they would be alone and don’t get seen by others.

She counted the seconds until midnight and closed the door of her apartment.

Rin looked beautiful and even though she was wearing simple clothes, a pair of black jeans and a blue sweater. Even though she wasn’t wearing anything special, Jonghyun knew Rin spent a lot of time thinking about her outfit. He could bet she brushed her hair a lot of times too. She was cute when she was insecure but it also worried him a lot. He wasn’t sure how to act around her, too scared to say something that could hurt her feelings. He wasn’t the type to think about what to say before actually saying it. He wasn’t the best talker; he just was the one who talked more.

Rin drank her coffee savoring it.  Coffee was one of her passions and he couldn’t help but smile watching her tongue clean the white foam from her lips. She blushed noticing his eyes on her lips and covered that part of her face with her hand.

“Don’t do that Rin. I’m just looking…” He mumbled complaining.

“We are here for almost ten minutes and we didn’t talk about….that!” she said trying to distract him from her lips and get back to the important matter, Jules.

“What do you want to know about Jules? Ask me and I’ll answer everything!”

He positioned his elbows on the table and leaned forward watching Rin attentively.

“How did you meet her?” it was best to start with inoffensive questions and build your way to the hardest one.

“I went on a blind date with her. We went to the movies with Lillie and Jinki. It didn’t go that well and we realized we didn’t have enough chemistry.”

“Did you go out more after that?” Rin was a little relieved that they didn’t have chemistry. She was almost certain she had some with him.

“No. We talked several times on the phone, and once in a while I talk to her, but she is my friend. Jules is a nice person Rin.”

She knew, she met her at Lillie’s house on Christmas, and that was even worst. It made her more insecure to know that she was also a good person.

Jonghyun stared at Rin waiting for another question, a playful smile on his lips.

“Hm…did you hold hands with her?” she asked quickly and he answered with a firmly no.

“Hugging?”

“No…” he repeated.

“Kiss?”

Jonghyun swallowed and looked uncomfortable, his eyes avoiding hers.

“You kissed?” she repeated the question feeling hurt. She shouldn’t but she couldn’t help it. He only went on a date with her and kissed her?! He did more with Jules on a couple of hours than they did in days.

“We did…but there was a reason behind it…”

“Reason?” Rin asked upset and drank a little of her coffee that now tasted bitter.

“I was confused. I wanted to be sure I liked someone…So I kissed her to see if I liked you!”

“To see if you liked me?”

“Yes and I felt like an idiot. I wanted to kiss a girl I meet on the internet instead.”  He declared.

“Me?”

“It must be surprising to you, but you are the only girl I talk to on the internet! I don’t usually fall for girls I’ve never meet” he sounded hurt and she felt a little ashamed.

“I didn’t mean it like that. I just feel…” she stopped; she couldn’t even decide how she felt.

“Are you jealous?” he asked grinning, his hand sneaking to grab hers. Rin didn’t move away. It was comfortable to held hand with him. It was becoming a normal thing.

“I think I am.” She admitted admiring his beautiful eyes.

“See how I felt when you went out with that guy that was your colleague at college?!”

Rin smiled and turned Jonghyun’s hand, making his palm face upwards, intertwining her fingers in the middle of his.

“I’m sorry that it didn’t work out with Jules.”

“Are you crazy? I have you! “Jonghyun answered with a smirk.

“Yes you are right…I’m not sorry!” Rin laughed covering with her hand and he giggled.

She was cute and he was happy that she was starting to feel at ease around him. He wanted to kiss her so badly.

“Did you….you know…” his girlfriend asked staring at their hands on the table.

“Did what?” he asked confused searching her eyes.

“You know….” She lowered her voice “sleep together!” she immediately avoided his eyes again and he tried to not laugh. She was so cute and innocent. Even though she was older than him she was probably less experienced.

“No. We didn’t! Only kissed and it was a mistake!”

Rin nodded relieved and played with her cup of coffee trying to hide her smile.

“You were so jealous!” He mentioned laughing, his hand reaching to her chin to make her look at him and she backed away hiding her blushing face for him, making him laugh even more.

They spent half an hour, talking, inside the coffee shop before coming out. It was still cold outside and Rin hugged herself. Jonghyun almost back hugged her trying to keep her warm but stopped just at the moment she looked back at him.

Being around her was being around a delicious chocolate cake he couldn’t touch. He needed to wait for it to get cool so he could touch it and eventually eat it.

 Jonghyun didn’t like to compare Rin with a cake but she was that tempting to him.

He was like a frustrated kid wanting to just grab a piece of her but being told off by his mother to just wait.

They walked a little away from the entrance of the coffee shop and stopped at Rin’s apartment building door.

“It’s late!” She said playing with the sleeves of her coat, hiding her hands inside them. Jonghyun noticed it and grabbed her hands pulling them inside the pockets of his coat.

Rin didn’t say anything but looked at the floor. Just being close to him was embarrassing to her.  He was so shinning and she didn’t know how to act. She wanted him to touch her but at the same time she was afraid things were going so quickly.

“I should go then!” he said weakly clearly not wanting to go. Jonghyun was expecting for her to ask him to stay a little more but nothing came.

Rin played with his hands inside his pockets while her mind was searching for a reason to make him stay and don’t look too obvious.

Suddenly he started blinking his eyes, and one of his hands went to rub it.

“What’s wrong? “She asked seeing him in pain.

“My contact lenses; It’s hurting me. I need a mirror!” He wasn’t a good actor and he secretly prayed that she hadn’t a mirror on her bag and asked him to climb up to her apartment instead.

“Oh No! Come up with me and use the one in my bathroom!” she offered and he sighed relieved that his plan was working.

Rin opened the door of her building trying to hide her feelings. She had a small mirror on her bag but secretly she wanted to spend more time with him so she lied.

Jonghyun came out from the bathroom and looked around Rin’s room. It was a small apartment with only a room being used as bedroom and living room, one small kitchen and a bathroom. It was small but very clean and tidy up. She was going to be a good wife and he couldn’t help but be proud of being her boyfriend.

Rin came out from the kitchen carrying a small box and sat on the floor, her back against her bed.

He sat by her side, crossing his legs and watched her in silence. She placed the box in front of her and looked back at him.

“What is that?” he asked curiously.

“Pictures from my childhood! It’s a way to get to know each other.” She explained and he excitedly tried to grab the box. Jonghyun wanted to see Rin when she was a kid. She was probably so adorable.

She pulled the box away and secured it on her lap.

“I want to see yours too!” she demanded.

“But I don’t have mine here!”

“Then you have to promise to bring them next time!”

“Next time? It means I can come to visit you here?” He asked smirking.

He was thinking about ert things and she realized they were dating for such a short time and she already brought him to her house. What was she doing?!

“No!” she mumbled getting up from the floor with the box on her arms and stared at him like she has committed a crime.

Jonghyun looked at Rin confused. She looked offended or hurt with him.

“Rin…calm down. I didn’t mean anything. I just asked if I could visit you, not come and live here!”

“I know!”

“Relax and sit here by my side.” He said smiling watching her slowly siting by his side again, but this time further away from him.

“Ok. Next time I’ll bring my pictures and we can share old memories.”

She smiled hugging her box and searching for something to say but she was feeling so embarrassed now. Weird thoughts, because she was alone on her apartment with him, kept coming to her.

“I’m not going to do anything if you don’t want to Rin. I’m not that kind of guy. I told you I’ll wait for the kiss!” He said, his hand slowly reaching to hers and stopping at the middle of the distance between the two.

She looked at his hand and at him. He was being sincere, she could see in his eyes and she believed him. Her hand moved and perfectly fit on his hand.

They stayed like that, holding hands and looking at each other without saying anything.

“I should do something for you next time I came here. “ Jonghyun said with a low voice.

“Why?”

“Because you made me cookies so I must give something back.”

“What are you going to do then?” she asked her hair falling around her face.

He slowly tucked her hair behind her ear making her heart stop.

Jonghyun smiled noticing her reaction. She would probably faint on the day he kissed her if she kept reacting like that to every little thing he did to her.

“I’m going to cook for you. I like to that to the people I love.”

“I should be the one doing it, I’m good….”

“I know! You are perfect Rin!” He said with a sheepish smile and she hit his shoulder.

“I’m not perfect. Far from that…”

“That’s ok for me. It makes it even more exciting!” He answered bending his head back and resting it on her bed. “Am I allowed to come and cook for you then?”

“Yes. When?”

“That is the worst part. I think I’ll be really busy with this radio show for the next weeks. But we can still talk on the phone…”

Rin knew this was going to happen. He was a famous and busy person she couldn’t judge him for not having time to meet her.

“Ok.” She answered and he sighed hoping that she would be a little more saddened by the news.

“Aren’t you sad or angry?” He questioned with his puppy eyes.

“Of course I’m sad. I want to see you and spend time with you, but I understand.”

He pouted and crossed his arms.

“Actually I’m angry with myself because I can’t see you for a few weeks.”

She laughed and grabbed his arms pulling him up from the floor.

“It’s ok. We can talk all days and I’ll be waiting for that dinner you promised me and also the pictures. “ Rin warned him smiling.

“I won’t forget!”

She pushed him to the door of her apartment. It was 3 am already and she knew how he was with sleeping. He would stay awake for hours until he fall asleep.

“Time to go home!” she announced when he stopped and looked back at her.

They stared at each other, the moment asking for a kiss or some kind of gesture meant for a goodbye.

Since she looked uncomfortable once again he just grabbed her hand and kissed it.

“Goodbye sweet Rin. “

Two weeks passed since the day Jonghyun entered Rin’s apartment for the first time. They met a couple of times but just for some minutes or one hour. He would meet her at a coffee shop or at the park and they would go for a small walk together. Jonghyun would hide behind a cap and a mask and they would go to the quietest places avoiding crowds.

Rin didn’t mind at all, she liked quiet places and that way she had him only for herself. They talked about everything like they used to do when they were internet pals.

However this time it was different, he would hold her hand gently while they walked, his fingers caressing hers lovingly. Also Jonghyun would look at her like she was a warm cup of coffee after a long day of work. It made her feel special and important and she didn’t mind that the time together wasn’t that much. She was lucky to just have him for some minutes so she never complained of his lack of time for dates.

Sometimes he would mimic what he did the other day and hold her hands on his coat pocket. Those were the times that she actually felt like they were dating. She wasn’t dreaming it; she was really dating Kim Jonghyun.

Sometimes it looked so unreal. Her mother has been asking her to come to her house to have lunch or dinner but she was trying to avoid it saying she had too much work right now. It was not a total a lie but she was afraid to talk with her mother. She was going to make her questions about her love life and Rin would have to tell her about Jonghyun or she would find her another blind date.

She decided not to share this worry with Jonghyun. He was so excited lately talking about his radio show that he already started recording. She liked it and he was good. Also listening to his voice every night was a blessing to shawols and specially to her.

That night they decided to meet outside on the park behind Rin’s apartment building.  They walked for a while and end up sitting on a bench, side by side with a little of a distance between the two.

Rin was describing her last project to Jonghyun, a new website for a online comic artist, their hands intertwined in the middle of the bench. They almost looked like a couple from a Valentine’s Day card. The trees behind them covered the buildings, separating them from the rest of the world.

“…so I didn’t know what color I would use on the main page. “ Rin stopped for a second recovering her breath. She always gets excited when she talks about something she truly likes. “I end up trying green but…are you bored?” She asked suddenly noticing how Jonghyun was looking at her expressionless for a few minutes.

“No. I was just thinking.” He was a little bored. Not because she was talking about her work, he didn’t mind that, he loved how her eyes always shinned when she was excited, and he could only stare at her and be happy.  But he was a little bored lately. Talking and being around her was wonderful, but his body was asking for more. He was a man, he was human and he wanted to kiss her. 

Last night he dreamed with Rin. It wasn’t a wet dream since it didn’t had a ual connotation, but it was a really special dream that made his heart hurt.

Rin asked him to kiss her on his dream. What he felt when his lips joined hers was beyond any explanation. When he woke up he couldn’t stop thinking if he would actually felt that if it happened in real life and not in a dream.

“What were you thinking about?” She asked her voice uncertain. She knew he was frustrated, Jonghyun was positive about that, but he didn’t want to pressure her.

“Just how lucky I am for having you! “

“Are you sure?” she questioned, her hand moving on his.

“Of course I am lucky!” He assured her.

“I didn’t mean that! Were you really thinking about that? Sometimes you look like you are not here with me.”

“I’m tired.” He said justifying his actions but not denying what Rin said, like she was expecting.

She took her hand away from his, hiding it inside the pocket of her coat and looked away from him. Jonghyun didn’t say the right words once again.

He sighed frustrated and sat a little closer to her.

“Rin, I’m not going to lie. Sometimes….sometimes I get frustrated.” She looked back to him, knowing exactly what he was going to say. Skinship! All man wanted that!

“I like you a lot Rin…I want to hug you.”

“You already hugged me!” she said quickly, interrupting him.

“Once Rin! We hugged once! “

“It was twice…it was on the same day but still counts as two.” She said innocently and he almost died inside. Why was she acting cute? His desire to hug her increased even more.

“Rin…I want to hug, touch and kiss you without being afraid to scare you!”

“Do you mean I’m scared of skinship? I’m not. I just think it’s too soon!” Rin remarked a little upset.

“When will it not be soon? Cos we are dating for more than three weeks already…”

“I told I wasn’t an easy girl.”

“Did you even kiss your ex-boyfriend?” he asked with a gentle voice. Maybe she never kissed him and was still inexperienced and afraid to do it.

“Yes I did! “she got up offended with his question.

“I dated him for 5 years Jonghyun, of course we kissed. “

“I was just wondering, I didn’t mean to offend you.”

“Jonghyun if you really want to date me you will have to respect me.” Her voice was firm but she looked like a little kitty cornered.

“I respect you Rin…don’t doubt that.”

“Good! Then wait!”

Jonghyun tried to hide his frustration. He was tired of waiting. He needed a gesture from her that showed him that she also had feeling for him.

 “I’ll wait!”

He answered defeated.

He truly liked her to that extend.

He would wait, even if that meant being frustrated all the time.

“What are you watching?” Onew asked sneaking behind Jonghyun, who was in his room at the dorm that day. The younger man closed his laptop quickly hiding whatever he was looking at.  

“Nothing! Can’t you knock before entering other people room?”

“Right!” Onew sat by his side ignoring the younger man uncomfortable stare. “I’m sorry I didn’t knock!” The leader apologized and they only stared at each other. Jonghyun waiting for Jinki to leave him alone.

“Lillie is acting strange. I’m going crazy. She looks like she is constantly on her period!” Jinki complained biting his lips.

“Is she on her period?” Jonghyun asked not really wanting to know the answer.

“No! That’s why I’m worried!”

“She is insecure Jinki, maybe you did something she didn’t like!” Sometimes Jinki would open up with him, since they were the older ones, and the only ones dating until now.

“Yes…probably.”

“At least you can hug and kiss her…” Jonghyun said under his breath.

“What?” Onew asked confused.

“Nothing! Just take her on a date like you used to and sleep with her or something…”

“That is so romantic Jonghyun! Just have and solve everything!” Jinki said disappointed with his friend advice.

“Sorry…I’m a little confused lately.”

“Confused? Why? Don’t tell me you are questioning your uality!” Onew asked with a mischievous grin.

“YA!” Jonghyun yelled staring at Jinki who just giggled.

“Then what is wrong?” Jonghyun didn’t answer and just grabbed his laptop more firmly.

That action was a mistake because Onew noticed the way his dongsaeng was holding the computer like it was his life, and easily snatch him away from his hands.

Jonghyun tried to take it back and the two fought in the middle of the floor, pulling the laptop on each side of it like two small boys fighting for a toy.

“Give it back!” “Are you watching ?” “No!” “Is it gay ? That’s why you don’t want to share it!” “NO!” “We always share ! It’s a dorm rule!” “It’s not ! Just give it or I’ll call Lillie!” “I’ll call Rin…” “I’ll tell Lillie I’m interested in her!” “You wouldn’t dare! I’ll do the same to Rin…”

Onew pushed the laptop more, stealing it away from Jonghyun’s hands and quickly lied with his back down on top of the laptop blocking it from Jonghyun, who lied down in top of him, his hands trying to pull the laptop from under his hyung while Onew pushed him with his arms.

“Hey do you want to go….running?” Minho asked, opening the door of the room that was slightly opened, and his jaw dropped when he saw his two hyungs on top of each other.

“This is not what you think!” Jonghyun said, quickly using his hands on the floor to get away from his hyung, his eyes darting to Onew who was sitting up with a victorious smirk hugging the laptop.

“I just thought I entered a fanfic right now!” Minho mumbled looking at Onew. “A y one! Not that I read that stuff!” He added quickly, a small tinge of red coloring his cheeks. He may have stumbled on some and read it by curiosity but would never admit it.

“Jjong is hiding his ! He was violating the share rule!” Jinki explained opening the laptop to finally find out what Jonghyun was doing.

“Shame on you Jjong! Dorm rules are to be obeyed! That’s why we made them on the first place!” Minho happily and playfully looked at the screen of the laptop.

“It’s not !” Jonghyun mumbled in defeat, hiding his face with his hands. They would make fun of him for weeks after they saw what he was looking at.  “And besides you already have a girlfriend! You can make with her!” He yelled at Onew angry cos he stole his laptop and had more skinship in an hour that he had in weeks.

“Oh!” Onew exclaimed, ignoring Jonghyun’s comment. He wasn’t expecting to find that.

“Ideas for your first dreamy kiss! How to be a confident girl! All in 10 steps! Why are you reading this hyung? “ Minho asked smiling “Are you a girl all this time and never told us? First kiss? ” Minho snorted watching Jjong’s embarrassed expression.  

Onew pushed Minho slightly; a serious expression on his face and Minho stopped joking. He knew that look. It was the “you are crossing the limit” look. No one dared disobeying that look. Minho was surprised, Onew always joined the teasing but this time he didn’t want to. Maybe they were hiding something from him.

He got up, rubbing his hands on his running pants. He was going to exercise. The only way to get someone out from his head…

“Do you want to come running with me?” his hyungs didn’t answer “I’ll go alone then!” He said retreating from the room, leaving the “elders” to their business. There was a weird situation going on in that room and it was better to run away from it.

Onew stared at the laptop and at Jonghyun again.

“Do you have a Lillie as a girlfriend too?”

“Maybe.” Jonghyun answered and both laughed making the tension go away. “Rin wants to go slow, Jinkis Jinkis.” Jonghyun sat by Onew’s side once again. “But her slow is like my slow multiplying by ten. How did you kiss Lillie for the first time?”

“I leaned forward and kissed her.”

“No I mean. What did you do to know she wasn’t going to hit you and kill you after?”

“Nothing. I told her I liked her and just tried it. She smiled at me after so I think she liked it.”

Jonghyun exhaled frustrated playing with the hem of his shirt.

“With Rin is different…she is so shy. Also I think she doesn’t trust me fully. Like she thinks I’m only interest in her to play, you know?”

“I think I do.” Onew answered with a thoughtful look “I think Lillie and Rin have a lot in common.”

“What should I do?”

Onew shrugged his shoulders.

“Most of the times I don’t even know what to do myself. I think that’s the hardest thing in a relationship. It’s two different people trying to find a mid-ground. You need to try and understand her but she also needs to see your point of view. Just try your best Jjong. ”

Jonghyun grabbed the laptop from Onew’s lap intending to read the article. Maybe he could find out more about women after reading it. Maybe he could understand Rin better after reading it.

“Can I read that article too?” Jinki asked with his bunny eyes “I have a really insecure girlfriend. Maybe I can take some ideas from that.”

“Good. Let’s be gay together and read all this women nonsense!”

“I’m going to grab some snacks. “ Onew announced getting up.

“Bring beer too! At least we can try to be manly while we do it!”

“You look down today!”

Rin commented while she washed the vegetables. Lately Lillie was coming by her apartment almost every day and she would teach her how to cook. It was fun since Rin loved to cook and this way they would chat about SHINee and their boys.

“I had a fight with Jinki.” Lillie said with a weak voice. “We fought once, before, but never like this…And it was my fault!”

“Oh. Why? What happened?”

 Rin listened to Lillie explain how she hang up on her boyfriend and never got a call back from him. Things between the two weren’t going well apparently, probably because Lillie was being paranoid and insecure. Rin didn’t say anything though, she was a little like Lillie and lately she was also being unreasonable about her relationship with Jonghyun.

Lillie started crying and Rin, who didn’t know what to do to help, cleaned her hands on the dishcloth and hugged her friend who sobbed in her arms.

“You don’t have to be perfect Lillie. No one is and I don’t think Onew wants a perfect girl. You have to start believing in his love and stop feeling that you don’t deserve him. You must love yourself first if you want others to love you.”

Rin was telling that to herself too. Lately she also felt too imperfect for Jonghyun who probably wanted a more forward girl.

Suddenly the room was filled with the melody from Colorful, Lillie’s phone was ringing.

They both looked at the handphone vibrate over the table with the name Tokki Prince blinking and Rin smiled.

“See? He is calling you.”

Lillie just stared at it and Rin pushed her toward the table.

“Why aren’t you picking it up?” Rin asked confused.

“I don’t know what to say and I’m crying!” she answered sobbing.

“Give me the phone. I’ll answer it for you while you clean your tears!” Rin said steadfastly and Lillie gave it to her on the exact moment the call stopped.

“You looked a lot like Jules right now…” Lillie said looking at Rin serious and resolute expression.

“Please don’t say that!” Rin gave the phone, now silent, back to Lillie and opened the tap again.

How could Lillie compare her to a perfect woman like Jules? She was the exact opposite of her.

She would never give a kiss to Jonghyun like it was nothing, like Jules; or a kiss on the first date like Lillie did. She was so different from them and Rin was afraid her boyfriend would get tired of her quickly.

“I’m sorry.” Lillie said with red eyes from crying.  “I didn’t want to upset you. “

“It’s ok. Jules is not a bad girl but…”

“She liked Jonghyun before.” Lillie finished for her friend “its ok. You shouldn’t worry. She doesn’t have a crush on him anymore. She wants Key now.”

“She is quick to change her taste.” Rin said under her breath.

Lillie sniffed from behind Rin and she tried to calm down. Jules or Lillie weren’t at fault here. Not even Jonghyun. She was the one who didn’t match her boyfriend’s expectations.

“I can’t believe this!” Jonghyun said under his breath while he searched under the sofa, his hand coming out from under it with dust bunnies.

“Stop complaining!” Key ordered searching on the TV stand.

“He probably left it in Japan. It’s lost forever!” The older man said making someone behind him whimper.

Onew lost his couple ring and the three of them were searching for it for an hour now with no success. The only thing they found out until now, was that the dorm needed cleaning.

“We have to find it! Lillie is going to cry! I know!”

“Did you buy the flowers?” Kibum asked putting a pile of books down.

“Yes!” Onew answered with a weak voice while he crawled around the room looking under the furniture.

“Good luck then!” Jonghyun said getting up and rubbing his hands. “You should be the one searching in the middle of the dust bunnies! Not me! I’m out! I think I’ll surprise Rin today! “

Jinki whimpered again and lied down on the floor. Jonghyun kicked him slightly.

“Get up and go meet her and next time try not to pull a Taemin!”

Kibum laughed and grabbed his coat that was on the couch.

“Where are you going?” Jonghyun asked watching his friend, noticing for the first time how well dressed he was, with a white shirt, black jeans and a black coat. His blonde hair neatly combed.  Kibum had a date for sure.

“None of your business!” was Kibum’s short answer.

“I’m so dead!” Onew whimpered again.

Rin combed her wet hair carefully, while she looked at herself in the mirror. Minseo visited her that afternoon and brought Rin a gift, a bag with some makeup supplies, enough for a few months she said. To Rin it was enough for a few years since she rarely used makeup. Minseo wanted her to feel prettier and confident around Jonghyun, but that gift was giving Rin the opposite effect. How would he react if she appeared in front of him all produced?!

Actually she didn’t care because she was a little angry with him. He didn’t say anything since lunch time and he was now probably going to work. So that meant it was another day without seeing him.

She left the bathroom only wearing an old white sweatshirt and her green track pants and grabbed her mug with coffee siting on her bed preparing to watch Running Man, one of her favorite shows, when someone knocked at the door of her apartment.

Rin placed the mug on the small table next to her bed and walked to the door.

She looked by the peephole and saw someone wearing sunglasses and a cap. It was Jonghyun and she freaked a little before opening the door. What was he doing at her apartment?

Jonghyun came into her apartment and she closed the door quickly.

She noticed how his eyes moved up and down. He was checking what she was wearing and she looked horrible.

Rin hugged herself embarrassed.

“What are you doing here?”

He looked disappointed with her question and the tone she used. Was it that undesirable to be around him?!

Rin looked so beautiful with her wet hair and casual clothes. She was lovely.

“I missed you and wanted to see you before I went to work.” He picked up a lock of her hair moving his fingers in the middle of it. “Your hair is wet.”

“I just took a shower.” Jonghyun almost caught her up on a towel and the thought frightened both. She was too embarrassed with the idea and he was too delighted with it.

“I’m sorry I didn’t say I was going to visit you but I wanted to be spontaneous and surprise you. I thought you would be happy.” Jonghyun justified his actions.

“I am!”

“Then show me” He said leaning on the door with his shoulder, his voice was low and y, demanding something from her, demanding a gesture from her that would show him she had feelings for him; she had missed him; she wanted him there…

Rin bit the inside of her cheek nervous, her eyes running to her mug forgotten on the small table and Jonghyun gave up.

“I was joking! You don’t have to do anything Rin.”

She looked back at him, and even though he was smiling he didn’t look happy. He seemed tired, but not a physical kind of tired.

“I’m sorry Jonghyun.”

“Don’t say that!” He groaned “Don’t say you are sorry. You are not doing anything wrong Rin. I am! I shouldn’t be constantly pushing you to do something you don’t want to do.”

She looked at his eyes and she knew he genuinely meant that. Her heart hurt knowing how wrong he was.

“It’s ok. I will try to be more understanding. I know you must still feel hurt from your last relationship and not ready to move on…”

“What are you talking about?” she mumbled confused.

“I’ve been reading things. I know women compare their boyfriend a lot and I know you probably think I’m a scumbag like your ex….but I’m not Rin, and I’m going to prove it to you.”

Rin covered with her hand and Jonghyun stopped talking. She was probably going to cry, or at least that was what he thought because she suddenly burst giggling.

“You are so cute Kim Jonghyun!”

“Cute?” Women were even weirder then he thought. Jonghyun spent three hours of his life, with Jinki reading a bunch of articles about women and in the end they still knew nothing.

“Yes my last relationship was bad and I won’t lie to you, it affected my trust in men, but I don’t compare you with him. There is no possible comparison. You are wonderful and I’m so sorry if sometimes I look cold to you. I’m really happy you are here so thank you for coming.”

She finished with a beautiful smile and he leaned his head against the door admiring her.

“You are so beautiful Moon Rin! Really really like the moon!”

She blushed with his comment and looked at his hand against the door, just a few centimeters away from hers. She moved her hand slowly intending to grab his when he moved away from the door without noticing her shy intention.

“Well I have to go! I’m fully energized because I saw you! See you tomorrow!”

He grabbed the handle of the door to open it but she pushed it gently making him look back at her.

“You are wrong!” she hesitated staring at his curious eyes “You are not pushing me to do something I don’t want. I do want to hug and kiss you!”  She tried to look confident but Jonghyun was staring at her like he didn’t understand what she meant.

“You mean you want me to kiss you? Now?”

“No. Not now, but come to have dinner here tomorrow, like we talked about before.”

“Ok! I’ll come!” He answered confused. Did she mean he could kiss her tomorrow?!

“I don’t mean tomorrow too…I’m…” she looked confused and Jonghyun chuckled.

“It’s ok Rin. No pressure!”

“It will happen eventually.” Rin added and he finished her sentence

“…At the right moment!”

“Exactly!”

He smiled and she suddenly felt courageous and hugged him awkwardly, her arms circling his waist her head against his shoulder.

Jonghyun froze for some seconds but grabbed her arms moving them to his neck, his hands grabbed her by the waist slowly pulling her towards him and she found herself against the strong chest of Kim Jonghyun. He nuzzled his nose on her wet hair and she closed her eyes briefly.

They didn’t say anything. She was too embarrassed for words and he was happy because he knew she liked him and also longed for the skinship. She was just too shy and awkward doing it. He didn’t mind now. It made everything even more special because every little gesture was meant from the heart.

“Rin…I’m going to be a teasing bastard from now on!” he mumbled against her hair that smelled wonderfully.

“What?” She asked in a low voice.

“I’m going to make you want to hug me and kiss me. Just wait for it!”

Rin felt his lips brush against her ear and her heart jumped on her chest.

Jonghyun wanted her to get out from her shell and she wanted that to.

“Ok! Ill anticipate that!” she giggled against his chest and he hugged her more tightly.

“I’ll be here tomorrow at five o’clock!” he said waiting for her to release him. He would get late for the radio recording.

“So early?” she asked confused.

“We need to go shopping for supplies together.” He paused waiting for her to say anything but she kept quiet without moving “I have to go!” he sadly said. He didn’t want to end that moment.

Rin nodded her head but to Jonghyun’s surprise she didn’t move.

He didn’t know what he did or said to make Rin held him like that.

Maybe she missed him, or maybe that he read with Onew was working. Either way he didn’t care.

 She was sticking to him like there was no tomorrow and he was the happiest man on Earth.

Hi readers! I know you wanted the kiss but we needed Jjong to suffer a little more.

Rin has started to actualy try skinship and its so cute! XD

I love the Onew-Jonghyun-Minho scene so much! Im really sorry but I needed a SHINee bonding moment.

More Key and Taemin on the next one! 

Next chapter will be heavy on the fluff as you can probably predict! Maybe Jonghyun will get lucky! 

Yes I love to tease you! Chu ~

Isnt he the most cutest thing? *O* Sorry...couldnt help it!