“Where were you?”          “I was in the washroom,” I grinned and we both walked in silence to have dinner. We went to take our food at the same time, but we still didn’t speak to each other. We sat down finally and Taecyeon ordered a whiskey. I simply asked for a glass if wine. “I’m sorry about earlier.”          “You don’t have to,” he smiled at me. “I’ll wait for you to be ready. You’re my wife.” He grabbed my hand across the table. “We have a lifetime ahead of us. I can wait.” I smiled back at him and nodded. My eyes were teary luckily. It hurt to have him lie so bluntly in my face like this. He didn’t deserve me. I was crazy for liking him as a fan and as a girl. I should have found someone in England. I should have accepted Kevin’s feelings.          “Thank you for accepting my decision, Taec!” I beamed. “I’m glad you can wait for me. Truth is, I don’t want to get pregnant and stop working so soon.” His face fell a little and then he changed his face again and smiled.            “But I want children,” he said. “Don’t worry, I won’t love you less, I’ll love you more.” He my hand with his thumb and smiled tenderly at me. Did he think I was going to fall for this? “What do you say we have a son first?”            “Why a son?”           “So that I can tell you to give him a little sister whom he will protect, bully and love.” My face fell. That was what I had always wanted. A son and a daughter. Maybe two sons. In truth, I wanted three kids, but just one daughter because I was too scared she might end up like me. How could he want the same thing as me? I released my hand and took a huge sip of my wine. I raised my hand for the waiter to come.            “Double whisky, please. Dry.” He nodded and left.             “Are you okay?” His face was showing pure concern. How could I know if he really was worried about me or not? He was an actor! He could be mocking me in his head for all I could know. That was making my head hurt. The waiter came back with my drink and I finished it in one shot. “Ana!”            “What?” I snapped and started to eat.            “What if get drunk?”            “Don’t you worry, I can take alcohol pretty well for a girl,” I replied and started to eat.             “I’m sorry,” he said after finishing his food. He always ate quickly. “My father is putting pressure on me to have a child.” I raised my eyes to him. Why was he telling me the truth? “You see, he is sick…” I stood up. I couldn’t believe that I had thought that he was going to be sincere with me for an instant! That was so stupid of me! He wanted to keep performing and act and the only way for him to do that was to have me bear his child! And then what? I stay at home while he goes at events and parties with other women?             “I’ll be right back,” I said and stormed to the toilets. Somehow, I was crying a lot. Well, I was they type to cry for anything anyway. But it hurt that he was still lying to me to get what he wanted. I was some key to his fame, some tool he could use until I become useless. Was I going to be thrown away? I sighed and decided that I was going to tell him everything in our room tonight. I went back and took some desert. I didn’t want any main course, I wanted something sweet. He didn’t say anything to me. Looking at him, my anger was rising.              Telling him everything tonight would be too kind of me. I was going to keep on playing with him. I wasn’t going to sleep with him, he could count on that. He wanted to play with me, well I was going to do the same thing. I would just have to expose myself later, when it would hurt him the most… Maybe I should expose him on the internet? Well, that wasn’t such a bad idea!               “What is happening to you today?” He seemed a little annoyed my me. I grinned sheepishly.               “Sorry, but it’s that time if the month…”He started blushing.              “Is that why you…?” I nodded. He smiled and he finished his food. “Let’s go.” He stood up.              “You aren’t going to eat your dessert?” He shook his head. We went back in the room. Once there, he went to change and so did I. I simply put on pants and a tank top.                “Come,” he said and we went on the balcony. We had a whole view of the show on the beach from here and there was one of these bed you put outside with curtains all around it out here. I sat in between Taecyeon’s legs and leaned my back against his. He might be feeling disgusted since he didn’t even like me. For me, I was just feeling miserable. Worst thing, mother nature made my lie become reality just now.                 “Let’s go home,” I said, even thought I wasn’t sure what and where was home anymore. “I won’t be able to enjoy it now.”            “Okay, we’ll just come back next time with our children, okay?” He kissed my head. I closed my eyes as a tear rolled down my chee