I sat on my bed with my knees to my chest waiting for Jinyoung. I can't believe I called him and he's coming. Why did I call him? I just feel so alone. I want to drink my worries away and whine about my life to someone. I heard a knock at the door. I quickly let go of my knees and waited for the knocking to continue. When it did I quickly jumped up and headed to the door. Cautiously, I opened it. There stood Jinyoung in a hat and dark sunglasses, a bag at his hand.

 

"Hey." I said with a bow. 

 

"Hey." He bowed in return, he then looked at me. "Are you okay?"

 

"No, I just got bad news." I replied, moving aside so he could come in. "I kind of don't want to talk about it right now."

 

"Okay." Jinyoung said with a nod.

 

"So," I said with a smile. "What did you bring?"

 

"Soju." He extended his hand and I grabbed the bag. "It's Korean alcohol."

 

"Let's have a drink Jinyoung. Celebrate your performance." I offered, going to the kitchen to get a few small glass cups.

 

"Sure, I don't have to wake up early tomorrow." Jinyoung said with a shrug.

 

"So, why didn't you go to the movie?" I asked, making my way back to the living room with the cups. 

 

"I don't think it was a good idea. People might recognize us, even though we are well covered." Jinyoung explained. "I just didn't want to deal with all that trouble."

 

I sat on the floor, on the other side of the small table so I could face Jinyoung.

 

"Oh, I see." I replied, handling the cups to Jinyoung. "Please, serve us."

 

"Okay." He grabbed the cups and served us a small amount. "Here."

 

I grabbed it and smelled it. Strong. 

 

"Ready?" Jinyoung asked. 

 

"Yes." I smiled. We clicked our cups and chugged the liquid down. I grimace a bit at the taste. 

 

"One more?" Jinyoung asked and I nodded.

 

He served and we once again chugged it down. No lie, I was already feeling the effects. 

 

"So seriously, what was wrong?" Jinyoung questioned, looking at me carefully.

 

"What do you mean?" My act sure wasn't fooling him.

 

"Jessy, I know you didn't call me just to hang out. Also, I saw it in your face as soon as I came in, I'm not clueless."

 

He was right.

 

"Aish, if you really need to know." I began, motioning him to serve another round. "I got denied financial assistant for the upcoming school years."

 

"Oh, that ." Jinyoung admitted.

 

"Yeah, I didn't think I would be getting loans until medical school." I said, then chugged down the bitter liquid. 

 

"Is there anything I can do to help?" Jinyoung asked politely.

 

I laughed. "I'm well aware idols don't get paid as much the first few years and I'm too independent to ask for money."

 

"I'm just trying to help." Jinyoung grimaced, taking another shot himself.

 

I'm already kind of drunk, I wonder if he is too.

 

"I'm not trying to come off rude, I apologize." I said with a sincere smile.

 

Jinyoung chuckled. "I thought we said no more bickering."

 

"How about some music?" I suggested and Jinyoung nodded. "How about some B1A4? I just bought the online album."

 

"Sure, what, you're a fan now?" Jinyoung asked teasingly.

 

"Sadly, yes." I replied, faking temporary disappointment. "Na,  sincerely I like the music. Cathy got me into it."

 

I walked over to my tablet, connected the small speakers to my tablet, and played the music.

 

"One more?" Jinyoung asked as I sat back down.

 

"I don't know." I replied unsurely. "I am definitely drunk."

 

"One more and that's it." He said trying to compromise. "I'm already drunk too." He laughed.

 

He filled the two cups again and said. "For new friendships."

 

I laughed, so cheesy. However, I followed along. "For new friendships."

 

We touched our glasses and chugged the liquid down. After finishing our last drink, I tried to standing up to sit on the couch. As soon as I tried to move I stumbled and felt on my knees. I laughed, how embarrassing. 

 

"Hold on." Jinyoung said slowly standing up. "Let me help you."

 

He extended his hand and I grabbed it. He placed his arm around my waist and I placed mines around his, we both made our way to the couch. Both of our balance were off so, we swayed from side to side until we felt on the couch. We laughed.

 

"I really like this song." I said as the song changed.

 

"I wrote that song." Jinyoung said proudly.

 

"Oh excuse me, Mr. Talented." I giggled. "Na, all joke aside, I do think you are a good composer."

 

"Thank you." Jinyoung grinned.

 

"I'm so dizzy." I couldn't take it I laid my head on his shoulder. I felt him tense up but, he didn't say anything. 

 

"Jinyoung." I began looking up at him, our faces only inches away. "Do you think things get better?"

 

"I personally think they do." He replied. I could feel his breath on my face, it smelled of pure alcohol. "When we first started in the group things were very difficult, everything has gotten so much better."

 

"I'm glad." I smiled. "You're a good friend, Jinyoung." I said while I hugged him.

 

He hugged me back then pulled away. 

 

"How about the last last drink."

 

"Last last one." I repeated.

 

Jinyoung nodded then stood up to serve two last drinks. He handed me one of the glasses and we drank it. I laid against his chest. Am I being inappropriate?

 

A song I liked came up and I began singing. 

 

"Nice, but your pronunciation is very off." He commented with a smile.

 

"Excuse me, at least I'm trying." I also smiled.

 

I'm so drunk.

 

I stared into his fox-like eyes and said. "Can I ask you a personal question?"

 

"Sure." He stared back into my eyes.

 

"You said there are members in the group who are inexperience. Who do you mean?" I was so curious.

 

"Well Shinwoo and me are the only non s. Baro and Sandeul have kissed but are s. Gongchan is just a complete ." Jinyoung explained and I was a bit shock, I mean I would have thought differently.

 

"Oh, okay. Um, Jinyoung can I have a kiss on the cheek?" I have no idea why I asked for that; the alcohol.

 

    I turned my head sideways. Jinyoung playfully press his lips on my cheek doing a 'muah' noise. We both laughed. I turned my head to look back at him and suddenly our lips were pressed against each other.

 

  I have no idea how we got to this point and I can't seem to recall who started it, but now, we were kissing. Things began escalating as our lips parted and our tongues met.

 

Oh my god, what's happening? 

 

   We pulled away, breathing heavily. We tried to mentally analyze the situation but, the effects of the alcohol were making everything difficult.

 

   Jinyoung gently pushed me back on the couch until I laid on my back. My breathing was so heavy, I couldn't believe this was happening. He began kissing my neck as I slid my hands up his shirt to his .

 

  I unconsciously moaned. Oh my. Jinyoung pulled away and grabbed the hem of my shirt, pulling it up over my head. My hands quickly covered myself. Jinyoung pinned my hands to my side, he's stronger than he looks.

 

"Don't cover yourself." He slurred. "There's nothing to be insecure about."

 

 I blushed, I didn't want my insecurities to be so obvious.  I gave him a smile and unhooked my bra. 

 

"Take you're shirt off." I ordered him.

 

"Yah, why are you so bossy?" He said jokingly as he took his shirt off.

 

I stared as he bare midriff, he was very thin. I could see he was also staring at my chest.

 

"I've never been with a foreigner." He pointed out.

 

"Is there much difference?" I asked, feeling uncomfortable.

 

"Some." He simply replied.

 

"In a bad way or good way?" I questioned unsurely.

 

"Good way." He replied with smile, then he leaned down and kissed my . 

 

OMG.

 

"I-I've never been with an Asian guy before." I stuttered.

 

Jinyoung laughed against my skin, his breath sending shivers down my body. My senses were all altered, I'm never drinking again. I must be hallucinating. It can't be that I'm here in Korea with an idol on top of me. 

 

"God Jinyoung, what are we doing?" I said, fighting to keep myself composed with all these feeling I'm experiencing.

 

"I don't know." Jinyoung replied. I barely understood his English as the alcohol is making him slurred on his pronunciation. "Just relax."

 

With those words of encouragement I felt myself become less tense. I put my hands under Jinyoung's chin, who was kissing my stomach and pulled him up to my face. I kissed him as if I could make my problem disappear. As we kissed Jinyoung ed my pants and I helped him slide them down. I reached for his pants and did the same. We both laid there on only our underwear. We continued kissing, he smelled so inviting. I pulled away from the kiss.

 

"Let's move to the room, in case somebody comes."

 

I was worry that out of nowhere someone would push that door open and catch us in the act.

 

"You're right." Jinyoung agreed in a breathy voice.

 

      We got up, picked up our cloths, and walked over to the room. There we dropped everything to the floor and reattached our lips. While still kissing, Jinyoung slowly walked me over to the bed, gently leaning me on it. As he kissed me his hand worked over the fabric of my underwear. I couldn't help but to moan. I felt his fingers slid under the fabric and I gasped. Oh god, I don't think I can take it any longer. I felt my underwear slide down to my thighs. Things were getting too serious too fast. 

 

       I glanced at Jinyoung's underwear and could see his bulged. I was wondering if the stereotype was true. Also, it kind of amused me that Jinyoung was excited because of me. I bit my lip as he slid his underwear down, revealing . By the way, the stereotype is not true. I kicked off my own . Jinyoung made sure I was ready and we'll lubricated for him. 

 

"Ready?" He asked. I don't know why, it just made me more nervous.

 

I could feel the room spinning and I couldn't help but to feel this was a mistake. However, I nodded. Slowly, he , I moaned softly. I moaned his name and after that he picked up speed. The rest of the night became a blur.

 

************

 

I slowly opened my eyes as the light shone through the window. I had such a bad headache, I wanted to lay there forever. I kept having the weirdest dreams all night. I'm going to sleep in today, yes I am. I stretched and roll to my side, away from the sunlight. I slightly opened my eyes and almost screamed. 

 

Oh , it wasn't a weird dream. I can't believe I really slept with Jinyoung. 

 

"I know this is going to come back and haunt me." I said to myself, looking at the still body next to me. "I can just feel it."

 

"Jessy!" Cathy called from the living room.

 

"I'm so screw." I'm going to ignore her, she'll just think I'm still sleeping.

 

I stared at his sleeping face, he was dead asleep. I decided to shake him awake.

 

"Jinyoung." I whispered into his ear. "Wake up."

 

I did this various times until his eyes began to open. Once his eyes seemed to register the surroundings he freaked.

 

"Ah!" He yelped.

 

I quickly covered his mouth.

 

"Shhh, Cathy is going to hear you." I hissed as I removed my hand from his mouth.

 

"Aish, I remember now." Jinyoung said trowing his head back.

 

"I can't deal with this right now. I have the biggest hangover." I grabbed my head to stop the throbbing. 

 

"Ah, me too." Jinyoung complained.

 

"Get dressed." I said, not being able to look him in the eye. "We need to sneak you out. Don't tell any of the others, please."

 

"I wasn't planning to advertised it." He replied, getting up from the bed and grabbing the rest of his cloths from the floor. I also got up with the blanket around body and made my way to the bathroom.

 

When I came out Jinyoung was sitting on the bed waiting for me.

 

"Let's go. I'll check if Cathy is in her room." I said, Jinyoung nodded.

 

I made my way out my room and saw no sign of Cathy so I motioned him to come out. However, just my luck as soon as he almost reached the front door she appears.

 

"Jinyoung, what are you doing here?" She asked, he voice making me yelp and Jinyoung jump.

 

"Uh, I just came." He replied nervously.

 

"I'm not stupid." She said crossing her arms. "What happened?"

 

"We'll talk later Cathy." I said desperately pushing Jinyoung towards the door. "Jinyoung has to go."

 

I could feel the embarrassment on my face. 

 

"Bye, Jinyoung." I said as I opened the door.

 

"Bye." He replied also looking embarrassed.

 

Cathy quickly turned towards me. "You say I can't have a crush on Gongchan but, you have with Jinyoung."

 

"We didn't have ." I lied. 

 

"Oh yes you did." Cathy said crossing her arms. "Why would he be here so early and with the same outfit?"

 

"Arg Cathy, it was a mistake." I admitted, covering my face with my palms.

 

"You don't have feelings for him?" She questioned.

 

"No, I don't." I said firmly. "He's just a friend. Cathy, this never happened. Forget all about this."

 

She just rolled her eyes and threw her hands in the hair.

 

"Well, you guys need to act normal around each other because we're going to an amusement park today." She added.

 

"Ah, aren't they going to be recognize? I mean seriously!" I can't believe they take this risk.

 

"They are going in disguise and it's a weekday barely any people will be there." She explained.

 

"I'm going to get ready." I sighed. I wonder what excuse Jinyoung is going to give the guys about not going home tonight.