I looked up at my older sister, a spoon full of oatmeal in my mouth. I had no idea what her reaction was going to be. She suddenly left; disappearing into her room but quickly came back, placing a box at the table. I eyeing the box and my cheeks began to burn. Condoms?

            Gongchan just laughed. What is he laughing at?

“Noona, I think you’re misreading the whole situation.” Gongchan said with an innocent smile.

Like my sister is going to believe that…

I cleared my throat. “Gongchan and I had an argument yesterday and by the time we made up it was late, so I offered him to sleep over. Nothing happened though.”

Gongchan reinforce my statement by shaking his head.

“Whatever happens between you two is not my problem.” She said crossing her arms. “By the way, I’m going out today so you both can hang out here. Seems like you’re attached to the hip these past days. Don’t you have a schedule Gongchan?”

I narrowed my gaze at her, why does she need to sound so rude at times.

“No.” Gongchan said cheerfully. “We have some time off!”

“That’s nice... Have fun. Bye.” She mumbled then turned around to leave.

I wonder if she’s going out with Sandeul or Jinyoung.

“Sweets, what do you want to do today?” Gongchan asked sweetly.

Sweets? That’s new.

“I really want to stay in.” I replied, I feel lazy. “Let’s rent a movie.”

“What do you want to watch?” he asked as he stood up and took our plates to the kitchen. I know. I wanted to squeal too. “Let’s watch a drama.”

“Okay, pick one while I wash our dishes.”

I stood up and threw myself into the sofa in front of the T.V.; I flipped through the available movies until I found a movie of my liking ‘P.S. I love you’.

“Channie, I found a movie!” I shouted.

“Coming.” He said as he cutely made his way to the sofa. When he sat next to me I couldn’t help but to feel my heart speeding up. I watched as he extended his arm on the back rest of the sofa and said. “Sweets, come lay here.”

I blushed but was thankful that the room was dark enough for him not to notice. I scooted over into his arms. This felt like a cheesy drama but I loved it. I know things are difficult at the moment for my sister but I’m glad things are once working for me.

I was intoxicated with his smell. He smelled like clean. Like when you just wash cloths and take them out from the dryer. I felt so weak. As the movie progressed, I couldn’t help but to have this anxious feeling inside me. The main characters began kissing and I glanced up at Gongchan biting my lip to control my urges. His mouth looked so inviting and though I haven’t gotten my first real kiss, I couldn’t help but to want him to attack my lips at that moment. I must have been staring because Gongchan interrupted my daydreaming by saying.

“Are you okay?”

I choked; trying to control myself I nodded my head.

Things were getting heated on screen and I could feel Gongchan shifting under me. I could sense we were both uncomfortable by the scene. I bet he’s blushing. 

Once the heated scene was over I could feel him relax under me and I also felt slightly more relaxed. After a few minutes he moved and his body pointed more towards me now, both of my legs laid on the sofa. I felt him move slightly forward; I lifted my head from his shoulder and looked at him.

“Everything okay?” I asked, blinking a few times.

“Yeah.” He replied unsurely. Then added. “I want to try something, don’t move.”

Before I could say anything, with both hands he cupped my face and leaned forward until our lips slightly touched. It was the lightest touch, like a feather on my lips, but that was enough to make my heart race uncontrollably. As quickly as it started, as quickly it ended. I found myself on the verge of begging for more.

Gongchan stared at me with a thoughtful look. “How was it?” he asked and I swear I almost died.

I took the most inaudible breath possible and calmly replied. “It was good.”

He smiled in satisfaction and said. “That was my first kiss.”

My jaw wanted to drop but it didn’t out of respect. His first kiss. I was his first kiss.

At that moment I had no control of my body or my actions. I, myself cupped Gongchan’s face and leaned in, I wasn’t as gentle and our lips crashed a bit more harshly. I wanted more, I wanted him. I’ve never had a ual experience but now I understood why people crave it.

I felt Gongchan tense up and I slightly opened my eyes to see him wide eyed.

I slightly pulled away and whispered. “Do you trust me?”

He nodded. “But, I’ve never done this before”

“I’ve never done this before either. Let’s trust each other and help each other figure this out.”

Instead of replying, he leaned and closed the space between us. I gripped his shoulder as his hands went into my hair. Together we began moving our mouths slightly until our lips parted and I felt more than I’ve ever felt. This was such a foreign experience and I was enjoying it.

I felt one of Gongchan’s hands leave my hair and reposition itself on my lower back. He was shaking.

I was in such a trance; I didn’t know how far this was going to go.

There was a sudden knock on the door and we both pulled apart. We were panting, I felt warm all over. We stared at each other until we heard the knock again. Gongchan stood up and ran towards the door.

“Hyung?” he questioned as he opened the door to reveal Jinyoung. The light from outside shone into the darkened room.

“Why are you flushed Gongchan?” Jinyoung asked instead.

Gongchan touched his face with both hands and I could tell he was embarrassed.

I wonder if I’m flushed.

“Where’s Jessy?” Jinyoung asked.

Huh, so this answered my question. She probably went out with Sandeul.

Before Gongchan could replied I spoke. “She went to the gym. The hotel gave us courtesy passes.”

Jinyoung sighted then turned his attention to me. “Did I interrupt something?” he asked.

“Of course not.” Gongchan said nervously.

“Good.” Jinyoung replied, and then sat on the couch.

Oh god, don’t tell me he’s waiting for her.

Gongchan looked at me and could see my unsatisfied face. He just shrugged with an apologetic look on his gorgeous features.

Jinyoung glanced at us and chuckled. “I am obviously interrupting something. I’ll go.”

“Hyung-“ Gongchan began but was quickly cut off.

“Don’t worry Gongchan.” Jinyoung said with an honest tone. “If it was me, I would like some privacy too.”

He stood up and waved at us. “You two behave.” He said jokingly and was out the door.

“That was awkward.” Gongchan uttered nervously as he scratched the back of his head.

I stood up and walked towards him, snacking my arms around his waist, and hugging him close. “Channie, I’m just glad you spent the day with me.”

He hugged me back and kissed the top of my head. “I really like you Cathy.” He mumbled into my hair.

I pulled away and with a smile replied. “I like you too.”

On the spurred of the moment I got on my toes and softly and quickly kissed his lips.

He blushed and that made me blush.

We went back to the sofa and watched another movie, a scary movie. I picked the scariest one and it was worth it Gongchan clenched onto me the whole movie.  He might still not be completely used to ‘skinship’ but I’ll get him used to it.

We were having dinner when we heard laughter outside the room door, followed by the door opening. Jessy entered followed by  Sandeul, both of them laughing. I eyed them curiously. Sandeul carried a take-out bag.

“Sandeul and I are watching a movie in my room.” Jessy announced.

“We brought extra food.” He eyed the table. “I guess you can eat it tomorrow.”

“Come on.” Jessy tugged at Sandeul and he followed.

My eyes followed them all the way until my sister’s door closed and they disappeared behind it. Gongchan and I exchanged looks.

“What going on?