y Free and Single I’m ready too Bingo”

Super junior ended their performance successfully. The MC announced that the next performer is Big Bang.

Dong Hae POV

After finishing performance, our members returned to the dressing room. All of the members were tired because of hectic schedule. As ususal, they were talkative although they were tired.

I slowly walked while maintaining the balance. I felt so dizzy. This morning, I threw up several times. Luckily, I could manage the performance without any mistakes. My body became tensing up when I felt stomach cramp. I sat down on the sofa while pressing my lips together with my hand on my stomach. I leaned back on the sofa. Then, I closed my eyes while waiting to subside pain.            

“eunhyuk hurry up. you  must go to the duet rehearsal with IU. Other members can go home now” our manger said.

Eunhyuk and IU …               

Eunhyuk was my lover before he met IU. But after he met IU…….

I didn’t want to think it anymore. My heart was hurt enough. I was so over him now.

 I looked down my stomach . Why it hurt so much? Actually I already knew the reason.

 I didn’t know why it happened. Should I just accept as a miracle for me? I felt so guilty.  What about super junior?But what about my carrer?  What should I do?

It was all because of one night with……….

Flashback

I knew that eunhyuk had some feeling for IU. But it didn’t interrupt our relationship until the photo scandal had come out. At the photo, he was shirtless. I was so shocked. I ve been in love with him for many years before the super junior had debuted. We never made love.

But with IU……

We fought at that day.

“eunhyuk you are such a bastard. I didn’t know you are such a person. I gave all of my love for you but you……..” I cried .

“donghae I’m sorry. But I love her”

“then what about me? what about me?” I asked him as I was shaking him arms.

“I ‘m sorry”  

I laughed hurtfully. What sorry?Since that day, I moved from our shared bedroom to the heechul’s hyung room. He  lived alone since the day hankyung had returned to china.

“donghae I can sympathize your feeling. But time will be the best medicine for you. so, hold on alittle longer” he tried to comfort  me as much as he can. He was even mad at eunhyuk for making his favourite dongsaeng heart broken. He almost hit eunhyuk ‘s face.

But luckily lee teuk hyung could prevent him in time.Although the scandal was denied by the companies, they were still dating.I didn’t know how I passed these days. I cried a lot. I  couldn’t even sleep at night.

Back to the dressing room

“where is donghae?  Donghae”

I heard lee teuk hyung calling my name.

“hyung I’ m here”  I stood up suddenly. Dizziness made me losing my balance. I put my hands on side of head and had to sat down again.

All the members started to gather around me and asked me whether I’ m ok or not worriedly.

“I’m o k don’t worry. It is just because of not having enough sleep.” I replied. I hadn’t told anyone yet what is the actual reason. I didn’t know how to tell them.

Lee teuk hyung place his hand on my forehead to check I have fever or not.

“donghae do you need to go hospital? You look so pale during these days”

“no hyung. Believe me. I’m ok. It is all because I’m tired . I think I’m getting older. I become tired easily during these days”I said with fake smile to relieve all the worries of members.

“Hyung you should eat  meal regularly. You didn’t eat during these days well. My cooking is that bad?” ryeowook asked me.

“No it is not. I will eat more. don’t worry”

Then, we returned to out dorm. Chullie hyung helped me to walk.  He didn’t ask me anything. It was so strange that chullie hyung was so quiet.