Love.

How do I even start? Do I start by defining love? I guess I won't. That is for philosophers. I'm nowhere near one and I'm certainly not up for a debate right now. Love. It was so foreign to me back then. Back when I didn't even know what it felt like or what it entails. Then she came into my life and she…I don't know... defined love for me.

I don't know why I'm so in love with Sunny.

A lot of people claim they love Sunny. Most of the time they say it's because she's so cute. Sometimes they say it's because of her big s. Some say it's because she's y. The way those hips of hers move whenever I watch a broadcast of us performing. Those fierce looks you get from her through the television. Who wouldn't fall in love with that?

And although I agree with those things I guess those are very shallow reasons. I'm not saying there should be a reason why you love a person. It's just that…What if someone asked me why I love her? I would have want to have an answer. I wouldn't want to say "I don't know." That sounds vague and unbelievable. I wanna be able to say cheesy romantic words when I talk about her…You know, like those guys from the movies.

Why do I even love Sunny? Aish. Taengoo, you're over thinking. Sunny will scold you for this.

That. She scolds me all the time for over thinking. Does that count? She hates it when I worry too much. She says that I should just let life be but I'm SNSD's leader and I can't let life be. So we bicker about me thinking too much of our image, of myself, of her welfare, of what I should eat, of whether or not I should even be in a relationship with her. I dunno. A lot of things. And that makes her crazy then she'd go pick a fight with me about those things and we'd end up hurti