I cried a river last night. She told me she was in love. I thought she was going to tell me she's had feelings for me all along. She was so excited, her eyes twinkled in happiness. The same twinkle whenever I held her hand tight, the twinkle when we kissed that one time the girls dared us to kiss.

I'm dating Kim Joon Hyung!

She told me with a squeal. Those words. I've never actually thought I'd hear her tell me that. I've always known there was something going on with the two of them. I've always known that she sneaks out at night to see him. I've always know that it's him who sends those texts that made her smile randomly.

And knowing all of these breaks my heart into pieces.

To know that she's dating someone, and that someone is not me. What probably hurts me the most is that I used to be the one who can make her smile like a dork. I used to be the reason why she sneaks out of her and Joohyun's  room at night. I can still feel the warmth from her whenever she cuddles to me; still feel her hand fit perfectly against mine.

I had everything. I had her. Or at least I thought I did.

I should have told her I love her. I should have taken her to dates. I should have kissed her every time I had the chance. But I didn't. I didn't do a thing. I let her slip away. Told her we can't hold hands anymore. I told her that what we were, whatever it was, can lead to a