Yunho's POV

It"s been months since my WGM episode with Sandara park ended. But the memories  are still in my deepest heart.  I tried to be professional towards her during the show, not because  me being  cold  and aloof to her..but because of one person so precious and important to me..her boyfriend Kim Jaejoong. But still even I denied it...the realizations hit me.. I am inlove with Sandara Park...trully...madly... deeply.

I love her so much. My wife...my angel..I knew I kinda betrayed Jaejoong but I cant help it. I miss her so much I could'nt breath.I missed the laughs we have shared, her smiles that makes my heart shines, her cuteness that makes me giddy all the time.And would you believe when I say that  I even missed her dorkiness.

JYJ are still in Japan promoting so we don't have time to talk much or hang around.  I really envy him for having Dara which sometimes I blamed myself for not meeting her  first. I have never ever envy anything my friend JJ have, until now. before the show ended, I got her number. But Im such a coward, i didnt text or call her. Im not sure what to do  or say to her. So even If it's killing me, I endured my pain and longing for her.I don't wanna loose  everything esp. my friendship with JJ.

Everytime we had a scheduled guestings or program i`ll asked my manager the list of other performers. I always pray that I wont cross my path on her. But deep in my heart, I wish they were. Though now I understand JJ`s reaction about that Fanboys thing, and i feel worse about it..kekekeke

So here I am, alone in the living room after this tiring day because Changmin still have a photoshoot to finish. I wanted to call my JYJ friends to keep me company but Im sure they were busy too. I ended up watching tv and  so suprise to see her. They were about to perform in Inkigayo. Upon watching her, my heart sank. What happened to her? Her aura is different, even though she smiles it did'nt reach her eyes. She seems lost and her glow is missing. Something is not right.