42.  “Please, don’t leave.”
44.  “I almost lost you.”

“Please don’t leave," I could hear Yoongi say over and over again, “I love you…”

I couldn’t move, couldn’t feel him, couldn’t answer him, couldn’t see his face, but I could hear him…

It felt like weeks. I kept hearing his voice. Everyday. I would hear him walk in, the chair would squeak as he pulled it closer to the bed. His voice was always shaky at first. I had never seen Yoongi cry before, but I figured that if he was crying, this is what he would sound like. He would fill me in on his day, tell me the guys all send their love, tell me how much he missed me, how much he wanted me to wake up, how sorry he was for what happened.

I couldn’t remember what happened, why Yoongi kept needing to apologize. Not one person had said anything about why I’m like this. They all talk as if i’m not here, like i’m already gone, like I don’t need to know what happened. I just wanted him to tell me.

“Please don’t leave,” he would always say with a shaky voice, “I can’t live without you…this is all my fault, but I love you so much. Please come back to me.”

Today seemed different. Today I felt his hand. I felt his hand in mine and I felt his tears hitting my skin. I heard another person in the room too.

“You need to come back to work Suga,” Rap Monster said, “We know you want to be here when she wakes up, but it could be months.”

I am awake though! I can hear you!! YOONGI