89 - “I don’t think I ever loved you.”

We sat on the steps of the church, watching everyone leave what should have been the best day of my life. 

“Why did you do it?” I asked as I ripped off my veil and brushed the running mascara off of my face.

“I just couldn’t go through with it, not after feeling what I feel with him.”

“I know it was arranged, but I still loved you. I mean…I still love you,” I said, my eyes so tired I couldn’t cry anymore. 

I suspected he was in love with someone else, but his band member? I never saw that coming.

“Just tell me one thing,” I said as I pulled off my heels and stood up to leave. “Did you ever care about me?”

Jin looked up and I could see the pain in his eyes. He had never wanted to hurt me.

“I have always cared about you and I always will, but…” he said as he fiddled with his cuff links, “I don’t thin