Yoseob’s POV

 

“10 August, 2010. Cloudy.

Dear diary,

        It’s the Summer Cube Party! :DDD The trainees were performing to get the champion so all of the performance was much more intensive than normal days. And I have to say that they were really good! Our trainee friends have practiced and prepared for a long time so when the performance ended, they all cried. I’m proud of them. Keke. CUBE jjang!~

It’s also the 300th day since our debut! I hope fans will continue loving us even after 3 years, 30 years or 300 years! xD Anyway, we received the Golden Disk Awards from Singapore, Malaysia and Thailand. We were so thankful because from what I know, it’s a pretty awesome and big award! BEAST FIGHTING! :DDDD

P.S. I invited Ji Eun-ie, but she had some other schedules on. She’s really busy these days, even more busy than before, since she’s preparing to film a drama. I haven’t met her for so long ):”

 

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From: Ji Eun☆

Oppa! How’s the party? Sorry I wasn’t able to make it! ):

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

It’s okay! The party was awesome~ We all had fun! :DDD Did your schedule just end? ^^

From: Ji Eun☆

Yupp, on my way home… I’m tired ):

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

Take care of yourself well! Don’t tire yourself out, if not your parents will worry if you get sick~ (:

From: Ji Eun☆

Will you worry then?

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

Depends if you listen to what I say! Go sleep now~ Nights! ;)

From: Ji Eun☆

Why didn’t you answer? Hmph. Nights! ):  

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“12 August, 2010. Rainy.

Dear diary,

         The noonas are not free for 'Idol Maid' filiming so we’re actually on a short break before flying over to Singapore on the 13th for the pre-opening stage of the Inaugural Singapore Youth Olympic Games. Singapore again = Chili crabs! Keke.. xD By the way, it’s the first time a youth olympics is held. I’m actually looking forward to the games! (:

Anyway, I’ve been spending so much time at home with the guys. It’s not boring, but I was a little sick being in the house all the time and they were all lazy to hang out outside with me ): What should I do? I don’t really want to bother Ji Eun-ie cos she might be busy with her work. Speaking of which, we haven’t texted since two days ago… I wonder what she’s doing…

No! STOP YANG YOSEOB STOP THINKING ABOUT HER! ARGH! ‘You’re gonna fall even deeper if you continue like this’. I kept telling myself this but I just can’t control my thoughts. Not anymore ): Ahhhh! My headache is geting worst ㅜㅜ I got to go out for some fresh air before my mind explodes.”

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“19 August, 2010. Rainy.

Dear diary,

       We’re filming for ‘Idol Maid’ this morning and Bong Sun noona sent us to the nearby clinic. I told the doctor that my voice hasn’t been coming out good for the recording of our new single. Pluses I did not dare to go to sleep, fearing that my vocals would close up and I can’t reach my full potential the next morning during recording. After a thorough checkup, the doctor said that I have vocal nodules.

He encouraged me to undergo treatment. But I’m at a dilemma. I’m still waiting for the instructions of Hong Papa. I didn’t want to delay the group’s comeback because of my personal reasons, nor do I want to delay treatment for my vocals was at risk. I’m having a headache now ㅜㅜ”

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“21 August, 2010. Windy.

Dear diary,

       I’m going to leave the dorm for hospital soon. Today is the day of operation. If I don’t make it through, I hope she doesn't know that I love loved her. Let this secret be buried together with me…

She must be busy MC-ing with Doojoon and Kiki on Music Core now. I shall not bother her by calling, although I really really want to hear her voice at this moment. Even if it’s for a split second, I’d be contented. I’m leaving, wish me luck ㅜㅜ”

 

“BEEP BEEP YOU HAVE A NEW TEXT MESSAGE BEEP BEEP”

 

From: Ji Eun☆

I heard about your operation today, oppa… Stay strong! Fighting!

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

How do you know?

From: Ji Eun☆

Kikwang oppa told me just now before our break… I’ll visit you afterwards, if I have time ^^

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

You don’t have to! (: I don’t even know if I’ll make it through ㅜㅜ

From: Ji Eun☆

Of course you will! It’s only a minor operation, silly oppa! Keke :P Well, I’ve got to prepare to go on stage, see you soon!

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

I hope so! Bye~

From: Ji Eun☆

I know so. FIGHTING OPPA! Bye~ (:

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“25 August, 2010. Sunny.

Dear diary,

       I’m back from the hospital! We went for the filming of ‘Shin PD show’ today. We played a lot of different games and it was so much fun! We got to be ‘jockeys’ and I won first! Doojoon, Dongwoonie and I were up against Junhyung, Hyunseung and Kiki. Before the games started, we decided that whoever wins had to split it. Although the prize money I won had to be split among three persons in the same team, it was still a lot! :DDDD”

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From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

Ji Eun-ie! Are you not attending the Incheon Hallyu Concert? :( 

 

 

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From: Ji Eun☆

I have a CF shooting on hand, oppa~ You’re performing today?

But you just had an operation less than 2 weeks ago!

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

Oh well... I am. But don’t worry about it!

From: Ji Eun☆

Can’t you back out? It’s not good for your vocal recovery.. ):

From: Seobbie Oppa ♥

No, I can’t~ I’ll be going on stage in a while. Talk again next time! Bye (:

From: Ji Eun☆

Alright. Take care and drink lots of water. Fighting, oppa! Bye :DDD  

[At BEAST’s dormitory]

 

“29 August, 2010. Windy.

Dear diary,

          Incheon Hallyu Concert just ended and I didn’t see Ji Eun there. Can you imagine how sad I was? ): I haven’t seen her since the day before my discharge. It’s been nearly two weeks! I wonder if she would ever miss me or think of me like i do...

I couldn't breathe through my nose and could only breathe through my mouth. Although it was hard singing without complete recovery, I did it. Aren't you proud of me? :D Anyway, the company wanted to cancel the schedule, but I rejected that idea. I told them that I could do it and they should trust me on singing live. Ji Eun too, was a little worried about that.

I know all of them are worried for me, but I felt I shouldn’t do that. Since B2UTIES were well-informed of the schedule and they had planned hard since long ago just to be there to watch us. We need to keep the promise with the fans. I’m sure Ji Eun-ie knew how I felt, that’s why she didn’t try harder to dissuade me (:

Well... At least I know I mean something to her. SOMETHING, not NOTHING. See the difference? ;) And that’s a good start. :DDDD Maybe I should start planning my confession since I’ve already sorted out my feelings towards her and I don't want to run away from it any longer... What do you think, buddy? Should I? Maybe I’ll call Daniel and talk to him a bit. He’s debuting soon. Like finally; Both of us made it through to see our rainbows (:”