Youngeul’s POV

My eyes widen in surprise. I can’t move. This is so sudden. I don’t know how long he kisses me. I just know that our lips aren’t connecting anymore. He touches my cheek. Oh God. What did I do? What did we do?

He kissed me and I kiss him back.

“Jackson...”

I don’t understand the situation. Did he just kiss me? And did I kiss him back? Oh My Goodness. How could I?! This is so wrong! He couldn’t fall in love with me. And I shouldn’t kiss him back. I will lead him on meanwhile I don’t want him to be in this place. The place that he shouldn’t even be there.

The place for the one I will love in my entire life.

“Jackson, I’m sorry. I—”

“Youngneul-ah, I’m sorry.” He looks guilty. But hurt clearly evidence in his eyes. Why? “I’m sorry Youngneul. I’m sorry that I don’t regret it. I can’t hold it anymore.”

“Jackson… I… we... This... This isn’t right. I’m sorry.”

“I know it isn’t right. I’ve tried to be your best friend only. But... I can’t. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t hold it any longer.”

“Jackson,” Truthfully, this situation tugging something inside me. I know what he wants for me. Knowing I can’t reply his feeling in the same way, I feel burden. He is my best friend, always there for me through my bad or good. Always be my shoulder to cry on.

And he has feeling for me. Feeling that I can’t return. Yes, I’m learning on giving up on Sehun oppa. But with Jackson, I can’t see future with him as my lover. I don’t want to lose a friend that very dear for me.

I can’t lose him.

“I love you, Youngneul. And I’ll fight for your love.”

I shake my head. I rub his left cheek gently. I see the emotion in his eyes, one that I never want to see in his brilliant eyes.

I hurt him.

“Jackson—”

“I’ll prove it. I’v